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Range of Emotions…

This weekend was just a huge mess of emotions. It all started out horribly early Friday morning when I woke up to an email. I put that aside and tried to work my best as I could and got through the day. Got home and just wanted to lay on my couch and cry and be sad. But Manny called, so I went up to Manhattan beach and we hung out for a few hours in the steam room/sauna, etc. Came home and saw Ben online and I had finally had enough of his not replying to people when trying to talk to him. So we then ended up in a HUGE fight that ended with him saying. “Just add me to your list of people you don’t talk to any more.” I called him after that and we yelled/talked for another 30 minutes on the phone and that ended with me saying, “Ok just call me when you are ready to talk” and him then saying. “Ok fine” and hung up. UGH! HUGE crushing blow. That happened at midnight and I had to be up at 6am to get ready for a hard ass ride. I didn’t sleep and laid in bed just wanting to call him back and tell him out I feel and how much it hurt me and blah blah blah. But I just don’t know what to do! :'(

Anyways, so Saturday morning I got up and went on one of the hardest rides I’ve ever been on.

10 MILES of climbing.. Up, up, UP! There was no end in site. And after the night I had, I wasn’t mentally ready for it at all. But the group was great, we all stuck together and once we got up the 10 miles of climbing one of the guys was feeling dizzy and stuff so we all rationed the water we had left and gave him food and waited till he felt good enough to move on.

We stopped at this GREAT biker bar out in the middle of no where for lunch. HUGE hamburgers for only $6.00. And I have to say they were some of the best burgers I’ve had in a damn long time! Though that could have just been because I was tired and really hungry and what not. For the last week I’ve been chatting with this guy Steve on myspace, he bikes (as in motorcycle) Mulholland a lot and I could have sworn I saw him there. If it was him, damn he’s HOT. haha. If not, then that biker boy is hot too! lol.

Got home from that about 6, made myself a pork chop. Replied to an email from Ben (just a continuation of the argument) and then went to bed and didn’t sleep worth shit.

Got up early Sunday morning and JC picked me up and we headed down to LB for pride. Had a great time there. Lots of randomness and drunken ness and what not. I was pretty drunk by 10:30 in the morning, we watched the parade and talked to cute boys, etc. At one point the apartment party we were at was playing porn and there was this nasty old man rubbing his cock through his pants and it was gross. But the party was tons of fun in general! They had GREAT food. Went to the festival and met up with Johnny who I hadn’t seen in a long while, so that was fun. Got home from that about 6 again and I watched the season finales on FOX and then went to bed. I again didn’t sleep worth shit.

This whole thing with Ben is really pissing me off. :'( And I’m sad that I didn’t get to go to Andrew’s graduation and all the events there and what not. UGH. Why is it that whenever I try and do nice things for people they always back fire on me. This whole situation with Ben only happened because I was trying to be a caring friend and when he was an ass about it all and didn’t care to reply to people, etc it pissed me off. I know I went about confronting it in the wrong way, but how to go back and fix it now is not going to be easy….

Anyways, there are lots of great pics from this weekend. Sadly other people have them all. So hopefully they will send them to me ASAP so I can share the decent ones. Haha.

Random Links And Complaints

Images of the latest Tornado in KS Pretty cool before and after. Sad. 🙁

Shooting off 800 model rockets at once! Damn cool!

Fiber Optic Grass

Mexican Petunia

Agapanthus Midnight Blue.

Cali Traffic… Gotta love it:

Total Route Length (miles): 14.7

Total Route Travel Time: 58 minutes

Seriously, I could bike that faster! So I am going to kill some time at the office before heading out. The worst part is that’s with NO REPORTED ACCIDENTS! Clear traffic ahead! UGH!

Well the last two days I have been home sick off my ass. But we have a huge deadline so I’ve also been working my ass off. I’ve got all the bugs squashed right now, so I can take a minute to write about a few thoughts I’ve been having lately.

1) Andrew… His graduation is coming up this weekend. Amazing, I can’t believe it’s already been 3 years of me being here in Cali. I can’t believe how fast it’s gone by. I also can’t believe how much we’ve fallen apart. He’s been posting all these nostalgic posts and it’s honestly been really pissing me off. Three years ago, I moved here for him. If you had asked me what I’d be doing right now three years ago. I would have told you we’d be preparing for his graduation and I’d be looking for a place to live close to wherever he was going…

Well reality is so much different. We haven’t even spoken since January. Why? I honestly have no idea. Another point that’s really pissing me off. You know, he was supposed to be such a great friend and what not. Christmas he got his new laptop, we talked on and off for a couple weeks after that about it and stuff like that. Then all of a sudden he stops talking to me. I keep sending him links and tips about his new laptop through email. But never once does he reply to them with a “Thanks” or “How’s it going” or anything. So one day I just email him one last link with the line. “Why do I even bother sending these to you?”. He never replied.

Why? No clue. I guess Chris A was right though when he said that Andrew had no intention of keeping in touch with me. Because that’s exactly what he did. Cut me out. Sure would have been nice for him to grow some balls and tell me that to my face though.

2) Boys in general. What is it about me that I can’t keep one around. Ben has made it clear this week that things aren’t going to heat up again there. So whatever. But you know. I keep getting people telling me I’m a great person and blah blah blah. Buy why don’t any of them stay around? What do I do to scare them off. I keep seeing the same pattern over and over again. We meet, we hang out a lot for a few weeks and then they disappear. WTF? Does something better come along? Do I annoy them? Do I push too much? What’s the fucking problem?

3) The ride. It’s in 2 weeks! OMG. I’m freaking out. I think I have everything ready for it, except for a place to stay. I’m going to try talking to JT tomorrow to see if the company will donate vacation time! Because honestly. I’ve already spent nearly $2,000 on this ride. I don’t want to use up my vacation time as well. I like supporting this cause, etc. But my god.

3b) The ride donations. I’m really very annoyed that some of my “great friends” haven’t donated yet or some of my family, or a lot of other people who SAID they would. I keep reminding them. So where’s the fucking money? SHOW ME THE MONEY!

I really want to get out of here for the long weekend next week. But I know that I can’t afford to do that. :'(

I’m out!

Solana Beach and Water Balloon Sling Shots!

What a weekend!

First off, Paris is going to Jail!I heard on the radio this morning that she’s saying this is cruel and unusual punishment! What a stupid bitch.

Ok, so Friday I headed down to Laguna Beach after work and met up with Austin at his new place, it was really nice. We hung out there and talked for a quick bit and then headed over to Nick’s house. Which is just amazing! I’m totally going to just move in one day and not tell him! haha. We all hung around there for a while, had a shot or two, and chatted it up. Headed down to Javier’s for dinner. Great place to eat if you love mexican!

After that we made our way to the Boom Boom Room. It was really pretty funny being there again. We of course saw Joel with some slutty looking idiot, along with the other usuals. The same dancers, the same people, etc. Green shirt boy was there, and of course he did the wet undies contest. I’m glad that I got out of that and away from Joel. I feel like I’ve grown since then, it’s good to go back and see that all these other people are still there. That place has been in decline for many many years, but it’s gotten even worse since I’ve moved away! There was however, one REALLY hot bartender! OMG. Perfect smile. Austin says he looks a lot like me! haha. We got home from that about 1am and all went to bed.

Saturday morning we got up and headed over to Irvine for our ride out at 6:30am! Got there and headed out to Solana Beach.. Map below!

It really was a great ride, lots of nice flat areas, however there were some hills early in the morning! One of the best parts of the ride was we were riding down PCH and there’s this surfer boy loading stuff in his truck shirtless. All of a sudden he turns around and flexes hard core for us! OMG! So fucking hot! If only I had been thinking faster! 🙁

Once we got to Solana beach we had about 2 hours to kill, we all hung around and ate pizza and chatted. There was this really hot guy there that I kept staring at, JC got his name, so I looked him up on myspace. Found him, and his leather boy pics! Eww.

I got home from Irvine about 6ish, showered and read the news and stuff and then Erick came over for an hour and we chatted and had martinis. I was in bed by

NOTE: The WHOLE BUILDING is shaking right now… Earthquake?!?! Or just construction. 🙁 haha.

The whole day really gave me lots of time to think about the whole situation with Ben. It’s been over a week since we last hung out and I’m really missing him. I’m just not sure how to go about things. Just stick with friends, or be aggressive and show that I like him and see if things take off again or what. Just not sure.

Nick and JC were making fun of me and my (boy) numbers from last year! haha.

Speaking of guys from last year, I found out that Jay has been in a relationship since Sept at least. The funny thing is that the guy he’s dating (Chris EDIT://Ok, I actually just talked to him and found out he was dating a guy name Ryan that he just broke up with. We just assumed that his number 1 on myspace was hs BF, as they were both IRL and they were each other’s #1 and had lots of pics of each other….)… I’ve gone out on a date with as well! Strange times there. Anyways, it was really annoying to find out this information, and set me on a major bitching fest with the person I was with at the time. He and I complained about boys for a couple hours. Good times. It’s good to know that other people out there feel the same way I do when they get dumped!

Sunday morning I got up and headed to WeHo for the Star Map Tour. It was another great ride. Although one of the TRL’s had to drop out early in the ride because someone else was having problems, so then JC was the only TRL… So by the end of it, I was in the front and JC was in the back and everyone kept treating me like I was leading it! It was strange. We did however see a Ferrari with a bike rack on the back! Very interesting.

On my way home from that ride though I got behind this Honda CR-V with a piece of paper that someone had clearly printed out on and it read… “New Driver”. Of course, I had to get up next to them to see who it was.. Asia! I laughed so hard and couldn’t wait till I got home to tell Jason! What a laugh riot!

I got home, showered and then Jason came over, we went driving in the Hybrid. Which now makes me feel like I don’t want a Civic Hybrid, it didn’t really have any power. We drove over to the Torrance airport, where you could again see the Hollywood sign! We met up with this guy he knows there and chatted for a while. He’s got a really old plane he’s restoring, so it’s cool to see all the parts and how it works. He just got the engine in, so we went over to check that out. From there we went to the Hawthorne airport to see if there was a plane free, but they were all gone. So we went out and did other things. Ended up at In-n-Out, I got a double double and a milk shake! 🙂

We went back to my place and had some martinis and chatted. I have some Water Balloon sling shots, so we went out to the beach and shot those off! Sooo much fun! Everyone kept stopping and watching the two drunken idiots. The real question was who was going to get hurt first. One of us? Or an innocent by stander! The instructions on the box says.

“One person use: WARNING! DO NOT ATTEMPT.. blah blah blah” Of course if you check out the pics, you’ll see that’s exactly what we did! Ohhh, drunkenness!

I can’t believe it’s been three years already since I graduated college!

The weather this weekend has been amazing and it’s been sooo clear, the sunrise/set has been soooo pretty and with the full moon. It’s just been amazing here lately!

Be sure to check out the pics from this weekend: Photodump

Later!

Vandalism or Free Speech?

So I was listening to Dr Laura again today on my way to the gym and I heard about a news story here in LA where a guy taped some swastikas to a Councilman’s office space. Basically from the news reports, this guy went and printed out some 8×11 papers with them on it and then taped them to the guy’s door.

So now, the guy is under arrest for vandalizing the guys office! WTF? Ok, is this wrong and disturbing? Yes!

But is this vandalizing the office? NO! Should he be arrested for it? NO!

It probably took them about 2 seconds to take them down and throw them away. Not a harm to anyone. If he had painted them on the building, or burned them into the yard, or caused some other sort of PHYSICAL destruction, then I think they would have a case to arrest the guy. But all this guy did was express his free speech, he didn’t like the councilman, he expressed it. They should hunt the guy down and warn him not to do it again. But to actually arrest him and charge him with vandalizing is a little much.

I really think it’s just the LAPD going overboard just like they did at the recent LA Immigration Rally (Aka, the illegal rally).

On that subject. I really thought Dr Laura was great about that. It should have been a HAVEN for the INS. Just go and round them up! I don’t agree with her that they were _ALL_ illegals, but come on. You know a large portion of them were. I know that this country is based on immigration and a melting pot of cultures and what not. I’m highly against the building of a fence between the US and Mexico, etc. But there’s a LEGAL way to get into this country for a reason. These rallys were for the most part for the fight to get illegal immigrants the rights that citizens have. Public schools, health care, etc. These people should not have any of these rights, they should go through the legal process to become citizens before getting these rights, etc. It’s more of our PC bull shit getting out of hand.

Again with the Dr. Laura. A caller the other day called in all up in a panic because her mother-in-law spanked her child for mis-behaving in a store while the mother-in-law was watching her. The mother-in-law gave the child ONE quick slap on the ass, fully clothed. From the description it was more of a swat then a hit. I realize this is a VERY VERY fine line, but I grew up being spanked. And I mean, SPANKED. I remember one day my dad took me into the church bathroom, I had to pull down my pants and he spanked me HARD, many times. I learned my lesson not to scream in church. (I also learned that I hate going to church! haha). Either way, Look at me. I don’t have any emotional problems, I’m not crazy, etc. Spanking is a way of disciplining your child, as long as it’s done correctly. Time-outs and sitting in the corner don’t work. It’s another part of this whole parents are trying to protect their children from the real world. You’re going to get “spanked” in the real world as an adult. Get over it.

Maybe if I had children I might feel a bit differently about this. But I’m so sick of going to the stores and seeing kids run all over hell like crazies, destroying things, opening packages and just throwing the contents on the floor, and having them SCREAM in the isles because mommy won’t buy them something. And instead of standing up to the child, the mother almost always gives in! Grow a backbone. YOU are the parent. Don’t let the child run your life! We as adults should protect our children, but at the same time you have to let them experience life. Get a scrape on the play ground, fall of the bike, learn that they don’t get EVERYTHING they want.

Omg, what’s happening to me? I’m starting to agree with Dr. Laura on more and more shit! She’s brainwashing me!

Something Strange!

So I was talking to my grandpa today and we’re ending the convo and three words come out of his mouth that I can’t ever remember him saying before in my life…”We Love you”. WTF? I can’t EVER remember him saying that before…. Something strange is going on there!

I found out for sure that they are sending another person here to London. And yet again it’s not me! How annoying. This guy is going till “at least” June.

I made some pretty amazing tacos last night.

This weekend is a 100 mile bike ride. I’ve been getting lots of peer-presure to sign up for it. But I’m just not sure I have the energy right now to do it. I’ve just been sooo dead. In a month is a double century from Santa Monica up to Santa Barbara. I want to sign up for that one, however. I really don’t have the money right now.

Things are moving along slowly for the whole Apartment purchase. I have potentially 7 people interested now. Only need 8 more. Anyone with $60k+ is more then welcome to the information. Pictures of the place are here.

The guy who I share cube space with has worn the same outfit for the last two days…. And he keeps saying. “I’m sooo out of it”. Strange asian boy!

My life has been boring lately. Just hanging out with Ben a lot and trying to rest and what not. I’ve been sooo sleepy.

Adios!