March 13, 2001

March 13. so yeah. hmm, I’m going on a quest to get all the

songs from some of the good oldies people, like led zepplin, ABBA, Pink Floyd,

etc. you would be amazed by thenumber od songs these people have, i’m going

to have to some up with a new dir structure for my MP3’s if i get even half

these songs. my god. Today i’m working on getting all the songs by lighthouse,

i know they aren’t oldies, but i was like hey they don’t have many, that’s

a good spot to start, lol. and plus i don’t think this injunction shit applies

to most of the oldies bands, correct me if i’m wrong, lol. i curently have

466 songs. I’m hoping to at least doulbe that by summer, cause ya know, i

won’t be able to download anything over summer and i want a stock of songs,

so i don’t get bored with them, lol. so yeah, if you got any suggestions on

what to dl e-mail me, eh. I’ve been having an oldies craving, so that’s what

i’ve been getting lately, but anything is fine really. unless it’s rap or

country, yucky. so yeah, other than that not much up here today. i went to

american government, and as usual the prof didn’t know what he was talking

about. then i went to boring ass Programming. he tuaght us how to read and

write to a file, somthing that i’ve known how to do for a while now. dumbfuck.

i redesigned my main page today, it’s really nasty looking, lol. but i was

like, yeah, i don’t care, i couldn’t come up with anything better that early

in the morning, i’ll leave it for a few days, see whati come up with. this

semester is going by so fast really, ya know. it’s kinda good and kinda bad.

i need to study some more but i just don’t have the motivation to get it done.

All my classes are so fucking boring. Oh, yeah, speaing of studying, on the

last gov test, he gave us that same question that i bitched about a while

ago. and he gave people extra credit, i got 14 points back so i got a B something

on it now, i was happy. so i should have like a B+ in that class now. yeah,

it’s all good, now i just have to worry about that accounting test we took,

it’s been almost 2 weeks and he still hasn’t given them back to us yet. and

econ, we had a test in econ he hasn’t given back yet either, what’s up with

these people. I WANT MY TESTS BACK NOW.

March 12, 2001

March 12, This is going to be a morbid update, but i figured

i should tell people how to get into my computer incase anything ever happens

to me. lol. so yeah. if anything ever happens to me. look around for a red

zip disk. it’s not labeled. but is kept in a zip case that has masking tape

all over it. That disk contains all the important information about my computer,

including backups of stuff that has been deleted off the HD and my passwords

and login-s for everything, it also has a map to my insane directory structue

on my computers and lists of all the root acess and contacts i have. You’ll

need to password for it, which is the name of the song that i have the most

copies of (four copies, by two artists), with no spaces and the ‘ is included

in it. You’ll then have to find the file called “Passwords and Stuff”

the passwrod for that file is the Full name of my first “crush”

back in 7th grade. the persons initials are “JAG” so you can figure

that one out. lol. so yeah, there ya go. on to other things. my Econ teacher

is really nuts.

March 8, 2001

march 8. So yeah, it’s march 8, oh wait it’s march 9th now,

cause it’s 12:11 am. hehe, lets see. it’s been a while since i updated. I’ve

been at my G&G’s house all week, it’s been ok. they drive me nuts more now

then what they used to. i’m really getting borthered by them, they keep bugging

me, “When you gonna get a GF” and such, i just want to scream at them, damnit,

I’M NEVER GOING TO GET A GF. i _HAVE_ a bf. arg. they just annoy me. it really

didn’t help things that i was so pissed at my PU’s for the whole room thing

either. but o well. So i left my G&G’s house today about 12:30 or so. and

i got here bout 3. here being NP, my high school. and guess what i’m still

fucking here. now 9 hours later, and i’ll prob be here another good three

hours. at least. i’m in a better mood i got to talk to danny for a while today,

i so enjoy hearing his voice. i just wish i had a picture to go with it and

all. comet is really fucking annoying the shit out of me. i want to just scream.

oh, speaking of screaming, i was sitting here in the server room and the janitors

were roaming makeing sure everyone was out of the building. and i had all

ths lights off and one of them came in the room and looked around and all

she couldsee of me was the glare on my face from the monitor and she screamed

so fucking loud, it was hilarious. OMG. lol. i was laughing soooooooooooooo

hard. no one is on aim damnit. i’m fucking bored. comet is going bloody slow

tonight too. it’s annoying the fucking shit out of me. ARG. ARG. ARG. ya know

there is so much shit here that i could just walk off with, like that new

G4 laptop that’s sitting out there, and the airport, and all these servers.

it’s dark, alleman s small no one would even notice me taking them out there.

ya know that. not a soul. hmmm, lol that would be bad. i want danny, i want

to see him, i want to hold him and never let him go, i wish that we could

go out at night together, i wish that we could see each other every day.

March 3, 2001

march 3. omg, i’m so tired. so i got home last night at 5 or

so. went up to my room to put my stuff away, and found that none of my stuff

was in *my* room. And there in the middle of *my* room was standing my brother,

with all his shit in *my* room. i was so fucking pissed. they couldn’t have

at least told me, before i got home, or waited untill i got home to let him

move in, but ya know that still doesn’t make up for it. it’s *my* room, i

may not live here all the time anymore, but it’s still *my* room. it’s his

own damn fault he didn’t choose that room wehn we moved in this house. he

had the chance, but he choose the smallest room in the fucking house as his

bed room. so i took that room, the fucking bastard. god damnit that really

pisses me off, it’s *my* room. damnit. so i left here at like 7 or so and went to xak’s, hehe. we went to java joe’s but it was boring there that early

so we went and wondered the sky walks in des moines for a while. ok a couple

hours. i swear we walked the entire system, lol but it was cool, there we

alot of weird people there, and then we went to this big hotel and sat next

to the pool for a while. oh and apparently i neglected to tell people that

this was my spring break week. so yeah. well you know now, lol. and we went

to wal mart and hung out there for a while, and we saw mandy and julian and

some other people, that was cool. then julian, xak, dean, and i drove round

ankeny for a while. ya know i don’t understand why people are so affraid of

my driving, i’ve only been in the ditch once, and that really wasn’t *my*

fault, it was really bad weather. and i’ve only been in one accident and that

wasn’t my fualy either. damnit. lol. Then i went back to xak’s and we watched

the nightmare before christmas, that is such a cool movie, it’s been so long

since i’ve seen it. then i drove home at like 3 or something, it was really

foggy, there were a few spots where you couldn’t even see two feet out the

window, it was really bad, but i got home safe. and then i went and sat in

the hot tub for a couple hours. i finaly got to bed like 5 or so. and ya know,

i really can’t sleep past 9:30. since wed night, i’ve had maybe 6 hours of

sleep, and yet this morning at 9:30 i was wide awake, and here i am, still

going, lol. My parents want me to go out with them tonight, i really don’t

want to. yucky. boring, i wanted to go out again tonight with all them. i

haven’t really seen them all in so long, or been able to talk to them really.

but o well, parents have the ultimate say, i guess. I’m going to leave for

lenox tomorrow sometime. prob like 11 or so, maybe as soon as i get up. i

really want to call danny today.

March 1, 2001

March 1. Professors are stupid. Ok, not all of them are, but

most of them are. My American government professor is really stupid. he neglected

to tell the class that he was going to be in OK today. and that we weren’t

haveing class. so everyone showed up and sat there for the 15 minutes. ARG.

i couldn’t slept in longer. damnit. I also talked to the people that were

offering me the job in philly. sounds like i pretty much have it, but i have

to decide where i want to work. he was talking to be about working C.O.P.E. that would be tons of fun. but i don’t know. for those that don’t know what

C.O.P.E. is it stands for Challenging Outdoor Personal Experience. It’s basically

a team building and push yourself to the limits exercise, it’s a ton of fun.

i got to do it at the best C.O.P.E. course in the country last summer. that

was great. There’s bassically three different levels. the begining, the low

course and the high course. The begining is basically playing all kinds of

games, games that show leadership and team cooperation and stuff like that.

and then you move to the low course which is where you basically walk a crouse

logs and other various objects, but it’s harder then that, you have to figure

out how to get from one spot to the next and get everyone there. and there

are other tricks to it that makes it hard. that’s is basically building trust

in your team members. becuase if you fall they have to catch you, etc. then

you move to the high course. located of course HIGH, everything on the high

course is about 50-100 feet off the ground. it’s pretty amazing. and there

are all kinds of ropes courses and other stuff that you have to do. this is

the part where you build your confidence etc. because you have to trust in

your self that you can make it, you are attachted to a balay (sp?) but that’s

there just in case you fall and if you do you’re pulled back up to the spot

where you fell and you continue on the course. it’s a ton of fun, really it

is. but it’s also alot of work for those that work it and can be dangerous.

the confidense pole and the flying squeral are the best but also the worst

to get people to do. but once you do it you want to keep doing it again and

again. i remember the first time i did the flying squarel i was scared to

death, and they were counting down to “launch” and they hit one

and i took off. and they fucking dropped me. but once they got my up to the

top (about 150 feet where i was), you have to BEST view it was so cool i didn’t

want down, lol. and then to get down from there you have to sing a song. i

sung “ging gang gooley”. lol. it was great. Fuel is going to be

in lincoln on the 31st. i wish i had money i would drive down there and see

them. damnit. i want money.