Aug 02, 2001

Aug 2, [Live, "I Alone"]

Grrr. Fucking ass parents. So I get up this morning and I come down stairs

and sit down at my computer to do my normal morning stuff. You know check

my mail, etc, etc. My dad comes in and starts interogating me about things.

First he bitches about the solution that’s in the bathroom that I use for

my ear, "What’s that shit in the bathroom." "It’s for my

ear." "So what do you soak your head in it." Now what the

fucking hell would you say that for, do you have to have every little fucking

things explained to you, can’t I just fucking say, "It’s for my ear."

and that be the fucking end of the conversation, but no, he has to start

smart ass comments. So I said, "Did I say it was for my head?"

And he goes, "No but your ear is attached to your head." GRRR.

Dumb mother fucker. Then he starts asking me about the pond, "How’d

you get the pond so clean?" "I cleaned the filters." "Did

you let the dog in it?" "I don’t know." "What do you

mean, you don’t know, either you did or you didn’t." So now I’m thinking,

well gee, since I just let the fucking dog out the back door and I don’t

watch him, how would I know if he’s in the pond or not. So I say, "I

don’t know" and then he goes off on me about that. Then he’s like,

"Why’s the mop up in your bathroom?" And I said, "Cause Andy

left it up there last time he cleaned." then he said, "Well when

we got home there was water leaking from the ceiliing" "Well I

don’t know how it got there" And then he starts bitching at me about

how if I did something to just tell them, cause if a pipe is busted then

they need to fix it and such, and I told him "I don’t know" and

then my mom’s over there, mumbling, "If the toliet overflowed, it overflowed."

And I’m like, "THE TOLIET DIDN’T OVERFLOW." And I yelled it cause

it didn’t fukcing overflow, and they had asked me a couple times already

if that had happened. And then he goes off on me about that, and it’s like

god damnit, why the fuck don’t you bastards trust me. I fucking cleaned

up the house and kept it alot fucking cleaner then you bastards eer have

been able to. And then you fucking come home 4 days early and ruin my vacation

as well. FUCKING BASTARDS. I HATE THEM. But it must just be Rip On Chris

Day or something cause last night at work this customer fucking went off

on me cause something rang up the wrong price, and I tried explaining to

him how it came up to that price, you know the simple math of it all. And

like five minutes into the conversation he said, "Well the sign out

side says it’s such and such a price and it’s been like that forever. "

And ya know, if he would have said that five minutes ago I would have just

overrid the price and given it to him at the signage price, cause well,

it’s a new month and we missed taking some of the signs down. Well, I said,

"I don’t own the store, and I don’t memeorize all the prices."

And he just went off on me about that, you know how old people are, "You

young people today, think you know everything, and blah blah blah."

After he left Marlin actually came up to me and said that I had handled

that guy well. Cause ya know, I just counted his change back and said, "Have

a nice day sir" and he just stormed out. On his way out he ran into

the door that didn’t work and had a big sign that said, "Use other

door" on it, that was amusing. Grr. I hate people.

In other news, I went and regiestered for classes yesterday. I’m taking:

Engl 105; Soc 134; Math 150; Acct 285; Bus Ad 101; Econ 101; Lib 160. It’s

going to really suck, on TR I have an 8 AA class and a 6 PM class. And I

don’t have any classes inbetween them.

July 31, 2001

July 31, [Dido, "Thank You"]

Life in my life has sucked today. I don’t really know what it is. I’ve

just been really depressed and everything seems to annoy me really easily.

I’m getting quite fed up with it all. This quote seems to work nicely now:

"Every day it’s the same thing — variety. I want something different."

Nothing seems to really cheer me up any more. Well, there’s something that

would, but I know that’ll never happen. I’m really not looking forward to

going to college this year either, I just don’t know what it is. I’m depressed

yet again. Hopefully it’ll go away soon, I think people are getting annoyed

with my depressed state of mind.

The PU’s came back from vacation today, 5 fucking days early. I hate them.

I had plans for this week, I didn’t want them here. I got home tonight and

the house is already a mess. There’s clothes all over down here and dog

prints on the floor. God Fucking Damn them. I hate my family. Sometimes

I just want to shoot them in thier sleep. Life would be better then.

Grrr. Just generally bad times.

July 30, 2001 #4

July 30, #4 [Collective Soul, "Where The River Flows"]

Well today after I wrote that last update Adam, Ang and I went to DM to

schedule a hair cut appointment with for Ang. While we were in there there

was like this 12 year old kid that was so gay. Well Adam pointed him out

and we were talking about him, and I said something like, "What because

you can’t decide" and he informed me that he had decided, which was

news to me. As far as I was informed he was still in that questioning state.

Well this news just made me really sad. If he’s decided then why, why has

everything that’s happened happen? We started this as a break until he was

able to decide, but now he’s decided and broken it off completely? I just

don’t get it. grrrr.

July 30, 2001 #3

July 30, #3 [David Gray, "Please Forgive Me"]

So Adam and Ang are here now. We highlighted me hair. It’s cool. We also

tried Adam’s hair, but it didn’t work out as well. But yeah. It’s good times.

I don’t really know what the point of this update is, I just felt like writing

something here. But yeah, we’re supposed to be going somewhere here soon.