Three Words…

The last 27 hours or so have been absolutely wonderfull!

Andrew got here about 7ish, we made supper. Some frozen chicken things, REALLY good. I had one, Andrew two. Blarg pants! Lol. After that we just hung around, he took a shower, and then I did. He joined me for part of it and that was uber hot. Though not as hot as I thought it would be. Eh, whatever!

From the shower we moved to the bed. Where I got some more rimmies and I gave him a few more as well! Also lots of dry humping in there, which I find really hot! No one has ever done that so much to me, but I find I really like it. Not as much as the real thing obviously, but it’s still really great. We both decided that it’s better in the hot tub though! Lol.

About midnight or so we both finally came, it took him longer, but then it usually does. It was still super good, and we came on him this time instead of on me. I didn’t quite like that as much though, it’s harder for me to cum standing up then laying down, I don’t know why.

Oh, there was this one spot where I was SOOO close, as in like seconds away, and then he laughed and I totally lost it, then it took forever to come back to that point, but it was all well worth it!

We went straight to bed after that.

This morning I got up late, about 8:15ish is when we finally got out of bed. I got dressed and Andrew just sat around the apartment. I left for class about 9:15ish and Andrew stayed here.

Class was so uber annoying. He went over the test in the first 30 minutes and then he acted like he was done talking. But then he went on and on tell 11:30. So Annoying. After that I went back to Andrew.

We spent a couple hours just hanging around here. We watched a few things on TV, and made lunch. After we got lunch started we exchanged our presents.

He made me open mine first, though I wanted him to open first. The first thing he got me was a Care Bear, the rainbow one. Which was my FAVORITE when I was a kid! And it’s so UBER cute. I’ve been ranting and raving about wanting one forever, all the way back from the time that I was with Adam, and he never got me one, and no one else has either. And it’s not like the little ones are all that expensive. I think it’s a really nice gift, and I’m very happy with it!

After that I didn’t think the next one could be any better, but it sure was! There’s one woman that I’ve ever seen so far that I think is cute! That’s Rachel Raye from the food network. She’s so cute, and I LOVE her show, 30 minute meals. It’s such a great thing. Well Andrew got me her BOOK! I’m in love with it, I just read some of the recipies and they all seem easy enough for me to do! I love both the gifts so much, and they’re always thoughtfull and nice!

After that we watched Rachel’s show, and then messed around with some other stuff. Once we were done with Rachel we went off to Goodwill/Usedbooking. We found goodwill alright, and Ginny is definitaly wrong, there is nothing good there. From there to find the used book store, but it was closed. The SalVal was right next door, but they didn’t have anything good either. Bastards!

So we went and got a movie from Family Video (Hello, only $.50!!!). Brought that back here and watched the first half of it! It was soooo good! I really liked the movie.

About half way through we paused it and I started supper. Andrew went and got gas for his car while I was cooking. I was hoping that I would be able to finish it and get everything together before he got back, and had the chicken cooked a little faster I would have had it done, but it took too long. I had the table all set up. A blanket on the floor in the living room, with three candles. I also wanted to go get some flowers, but I couldn’t think of a way to get those and be back before he got back.

He got back, and I finished making supper and then we ate it. I felt kinda stupid going all out like that, but I guess that he liked it. So that’s good! The food wasn’t as good as it was last time though, I don’t think the chicken was the best, and plus I used a fat free dressing and there was no sour cream, which is essential for it.

After supper we finished the movie. Again , I rant that it was GOOD!

Once the movie was over we moved into my room where we just layed in the bed talking. The whole time I was holding back tears…. Eventually they erupted. I don’t know who started it first, or how it came up, but there was another cry fest. I really hope that this doesn’t become a weekly event. That’ll be very sad, and I don’t know if I can handle that. Next Wed will be really bad though, because I won’t have anyone to cry with. :'(

We layed there crying together, and holding each other close. After a while we got ahold of ourselves, and were laying there talkinga bout liking each other. Then Andrew said, How much do you like me? And I whispered in his ear, I love you.

For the last week or so, I’ve been waiting for just the right time to tell him. There had been a couple times earlier in the that night where I wanted to tell him, but I just didn’t think it right. Finally I had found my time, and I told him that I loved him.

He started crying again, and whispered, I love you too. we layed there crying for a while longer and holding each other as close as we could. Unfortunalty he had to leave, we slowly moved our way to the door and talked some more, hugged and kissed. It was all so sad, I really didn’t want to see him go today. ::sighs:: I want my Drew Bear back now!

I don’t want to see us when we’re having to say good bye in August, or for that matter, saying goodbye this weekend. It’s going to be so bad.

Friday won’t come soon enough!

The Man

He stants in front of me. Right there, in my face. Blunt hatred, ranging loathing boils in my bones, muscles, veinds and mind. His red gleaming eyes reflect the fire in mine. Silence burns our nerves as we hold in the air that puffs out our chests. Bare and imperious, the curves of our daggers. The hair on our arms is sharp and erect. Fury breathes from our vapor as we sweat. My nostrils strain to maintain my ferocity. I will not relinquish any of my might, not even my air. We feed history to our fires. Every past incident, every forgotten moment, blazes on our sneering lips. Our cutting eyebrows, honed and greased, pull closer and closer. I can hear the pulse in my veins, on my temples, wrists and ankles. In the still of the moment, the time between each beat is a life.

The first trace of a sweat burns a line from my temple to hang on my chin, and then falls to explode on the concrete. The tension draws us closer, with my forehead now almost touching his. My muscles contract. My cails carve cresecents into my palms as I hold a fist. I pull it back; I turn my body and —

Click. Change the channel.

–Leo Kazitsky

Boring Days

So today has been uber freaking boring, and since there isn’t a boring mood on here, I guess I’ll have to use rushed, because I’m also being very rushed.

Got up this morning about 7, which is back to my normal time. Hopefully I can keep that up for the rest of the week. Showered, dressed partially, did my abslide. I can’t do as many as Andrew did, but I still did 100, which I think is pretty good. Perhaps I’ll do some more once I get off work. I felt good working out again though. Hopefully I’ll be able to keep this up now though, and maybe even work back into doing my arms. I’ve slacked off on that since Christmas, before then I was doing it every other day with 25 pounds.

After that I finished dressing and then sat around my house contemplating doing the HW for my MIS class. He said Friday that he would put the HW up that day, and one of them he would mark as being due Monday. So Sunday I left Andrew’s early so that I could come back and do the HW. I get here and check the website at 8 or so, and there’s nothing there. Well when I got up this morning, there was stuff there.

Ultimately I decided that it wasn’t worth doing and I just sat around tell it was time to go to class. Off I went to that and sat outside the room doing my group project. I really coulnd’t think of the entities and attributes that I would need for it, so I just kinda threw some things together and didn’t do much else. After that I read some more AdBusters. Which btw is really really GREAT!

Class was class and he changed the due date on that HW to tomorrow. So I still have that to do. Though it shouldn’t be that hard. Perhaps I’ll do it tomorrow before class. He also announced that our first test would be on Thursday. And that the first part of the project is due on Wed. So I’ve got a TON to do in that class. Tonight will consist of reading the book and looking over the notes.

After class I had to wait around for the bus. I was very annoyed. I could have made it into work if I rode my bike much earlier, but I didn’t because it was supposed to rain today and I didn’t want to get wet. So I missed some work today because of that. Though I’ll still be getting 7 hours in today. If I don’t get uber annoyed here and leave early!

I get to work and Chris G is back from SCC last week. So I knew it was going to be a long and tedious day. There were 20 speakers at SCC, all giving 45 minute talks on the future of Super Computing, and the National Labs. They’re all a bunch of PhD’s and the like, uber smart, but the MOST BORING people to listen to. So I’ve been sitting here watching presentations all day long, making sure the encoding that we did there was good, and that the audio was good, etc. I’ve gotten through about 8 or so and I’m about ready to shoot myself. They want them all gone through today, there’s still 4 left, and I only have one more hour to go. I dunno how that’s going to get done. And then they want them encoded into RM and on the web by tomorrow afternoon. We still have to take all the Powerpoints and convert them to PDF’s as well, and design the webpages.

In other words, there’s aboslutely no WAY this is going to get done by tomorrow afternoon. So I’m feeling the pressure from that, and that’s where the being rushed comes in.

And that’s been my day. Hopefully it’ll get better once I get home from work. I still have a lot to do before Andrew gets here tomorrow night and very little time to do it all in. Though I know I’ll be able to pull it off!

I can’t wait to see him again though. Next week when he’s gone is going to be very hard. I think that I’ll go to camp that week just to hang out for a couple nights. I know I’ll go at least Sunday/Wed/Friday nights for the major campfires. But I might also go a few other nights for the other activities. We’ll have to see though if I feel like driving all the way there or not.

While I was hanging up shirts last night I found out that I’ve now run out of hangers. When I first moved into my apartment, I bought like 3 big things of hangers and never thought that I would use them all. Now I have 10 more shirts that need to be hung up and no hangers to hang them on! How amazing really.

Eudora ia being a bitch. I love how companies follow standards. Learn how to read Qualcomm! The specs clearly specify how to impement SSL. Why couldn’t you get it right? And they’re coming out with a new version… 6.0 beta and it’s still not fixed. That means they’ve put out 4 defective products. Bastards!

Plans to go to EWR and LAX are coming together. Looks like I will be able to go, and I’m very excited!

Just a few other random things to clean up…
1) UnBrand America
2) Corporate America Flag Jam
3) The G5
4) Panther

Not Far From The Truth

Well, you know what It’s a really good thing that I didn’t type a 3 page long private update and have Microsoft Works randomly stop responding just as I was finishing up about today.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

UBER PISSED!

And let’s be honest, not that I don’t want to write it all again, but I’m just not going to, it was fucking 3 pages and took like 45 minutes.

Goddammit.

This weekend was very good.

Swimming at gray’s lake w/ creepies. Eating good dinner at Beckys. Rimming in the hot tub. Fingering all over the place. Cumming a lot that night.
Damn, now this update sucks b/c I’m cranky about losing the last one.

Adventureland today was really really fun. Chris came over at like 10:30, and then we left w/ Erin and Court and headed out. Got there and got in and started riding rides.

There was a bit of a problem w/ the roller coaster situation. Chris doesn’t go on roller coasters but I really wanted him to. In my mind, I was hoping that one day he would be able to tell people that he hated roller coasters but that this guy Andrew that he knew forced him to go on one once, and it changed his life forever, and now he isn’t afraid at all. I just wanted to help my baby. But it’s ok, he didn’t see it that way and that’s fine. Everyone likes different things. It wasn’t enough to cause a fight or anything, just a minor annoyance on Chris’ part and a little frustration on mine. No biggie though.

The Race thingy was uber fun. As soon as we got our first clue, Ryan was off running. We tried to keep up but we had to run. Anyways Chris and I ran a LOT. We had to keep going on different rides, and it was fun b/c we would try to barter w/ people in line so that we could get ahead of them and make it. Anyways lots of running, lots of laughs and our team ended up coming in first!!!! YAY!!! We got 20 Adventureland Bucks. I used mine on food and games. I lost all the games, and was really pissed about it. More pissed than I should’ve been, since they were just stupid games. But it really annoyed me.

Didn’t really do much after that, came back here and layed w/ Chris for awhile, didn’t really want to ever get up but eventually we had to. Chris apparently thinks that he is the one who suggests that it is time for me to leave when I come up on Wednesday, which is completely untrue. I always do. Then he states he forces me out and feels bad. I never really feel forced, but it makes me feel really stupid when he says that. I can’t really explain it, it almost feels like he’s saying Yeah so you can’t leave on your own, so I have to force you out Anyways, I know that isn’t it, so no need to dwell on it.

Said goodbye and it was sad and I think at one point Chris was either A. About to tear up or B. tearing up. Which I find so incredibly touching. I mean David cried a few times during our relationship, but it was usually over something stupid, and not anything actually involving me. It just shows me that he cares.

Now he’s gone and I’m sad. But he asked me to spend the night on Tuesday, so hopefully I can. And then Wednesday is our 2 month! My 2nd longest relationship, set to be the longest.

Here’s a little secret: I don’t have anything for him yet. I was SO fucking busy last week, plus I saw him EVERY day, so there was no time for me to get something. Plus, the damn thing I’m looking for, I can’t fucking find. So annoying. And I feel bad b/c I didn’t plan this well enough, and I wanted to do something original and creative, but yeah doesn’t look like it’s gonna happen. I will make myself a note to begin work on a 3rd month present to make up for my lack of preparedness this month. And I know the material things are not a big deal, but I still want to get my Topher something nice. Hopefully he will like what I end up getting.

So random thought: the other Saturday at work before we went to the zoo, I was talking to Cara and Jean about going to the zoo etc, and completely randomly Cara is like So you’re in love with Chris? And I was like What?? Where did that come from? And she was like Spending the night with his grandparents, going on a trip to the zoo, you two are obviously in love. I was like Ooooook….. Very odd, but I don’t feel it’s far from the truth. Well, I hope it’s not.

Anyways to recap quickly since it all got lost, last week was very good. I surprised Chris on Monday in Ames and spent the night, he came down Tuesday and spent the night and we hung out all day Wednesday. Didn’t do much of any real importance.

Had a cry fest Wed. night b/c I suddenly had a panic attack about leaving and stuff. I just got in one of those moods that I can get in. Yeah so we cried and kissed and talked about stuff, I felt better afterwards but I did not want Chris to leave me. So sad.

And now I’m gonna be gone in a week again too. That will suck. Even more so than the other week. Well, it will and it won’t. It will b/c I won’t be doing anything there, like I was on the cruise. But it won’t b/c I will have access to a phone so I can talk to Chris whenever I want to. So that works out pretty good.\

Hmmm anything else important?

Other weekend memories
Screaming Woman
I really wanna fuck your hot ass
Reinstating Sister, sister The Proud Family

And a couple weeks back, it was really really funny, we were leaving my house and Chris was like Damn I should’ve brought my sunglasses, it’s so bright. And I was like Yeah, you are probably blind. And he goes I am. Then he proceeds to walk with his hands out, like he’s searching for something and going Where’s the car??? It was SOOOOO funny. I still laugh when I think about it.

Anyways.

All in all a great week. Can’t wait to see him again. Lots of scandalous ness to talk about real quick. I gave him head in the skywalks, and just recently on top off the parking garage by Javas. It was really embarrassing though b/c he was dry humping me and licking me and I turned around for something and there was definitely some woman who came out of the building and who was walking towards her car and saw us. I was so embarrassed, I just ran away. Funny though.

Dinner at Becky’s was uber good, even though there were really scary people at Gray’s Lake.

And so my WinAmp keeps going pink floyd, alanis, erykah badu, pink floyd, alanis, erykah badu it’s really fucking annoying.

Anyways, that’s about it, I miss my Topher man!

BREAK!