Sicky McSick Pants!

So I’m sure that I’ll start this post and then not get it finished because we are uber busy around here today.

CSGF Conf is going on we’re working on encoding those presentations. WE just got Tuesday and Wed’s in the mail today. Gotta love FedEx Overnight AM. This batch is going MUCH better then the ones from the SCC conference a couple weeks ago. Mostly because none of these have to have audio remixed, so we just encode and go!

I’ve only got 2 more left, so that’s good. One though has the screen saver pop up in the middle of it. So we have to fix that, but it should be an easy fix.

Yesterday was great, though it was sad to see mt Drew Bear sick!

Work from 7:30 to 10:30, and then I left here and got movies at Family Video, only $1.30 for 2 DVD’s and one of them was a new release! I’d like to see someone beat that shit! lol.

Met up with Andrew about noon and we just spent the WHOLE day laying around his house and hanging out. It was very good times. We watched Frita, and that was good. Andrew layed with his head in my lap, and he kept complaining that it looked like I was in a bad posistion, which I wasn’t! So funny, after that I watched Oprah, and then the news… Because Andrew fell asleep in my lap. It was so cute!

Once he woke up we watched Pumpkin, which was another very odd, but good movie! It wasn’t near as funny as the box said that it was!

By the time that movie was over it was like 7:30, so we went upstairs and made some supper. Andrew had pasta and I had a chicken sandwich. Yummy. I’m hungry just thinking about it! lol.

Once we ate we went back downstairs and laid on his bed talking about things. His mom randomly came in and we were both under the covers, but just talking and his door was open… She was talking to us about things and then took his temp. After she was done with that she was getting ready to leave and then she goes, “Could you please set a good example for your sister and not lay in bed together.”

It was just very annoying the way that she said it, etc. And then they got into a bit of a fight about it. It really annoyes me that his mom takes some of the smallest things and just really blows them up and yells about them. Very annoying, and I hate it even more because of the fact that she yells at them infront of guests. You just don’t do that.

Anyways, it came time to leave and it was really hard because I wanted to just stay there and take care of my baby. We went outside and hugged and I gave him his first kiss of the day. I wasn’t kissing him the rest of the day because I didn’t want to take any major chances of getting sick.

Anyways, I drove back to 86th and dropped off the videos at Family Video. Then I got on the interstate to head back to PC, but I decided not to, so I got off the next exit and turned around and headed back to Ames…

I got to the Elkarht exit when my phone rang, I looked at it and it was Andrew, so I answered….

“Did you leave some keys here..”
“SHIT, THOSE ARE MY HOUSE KEYS!!!”

Followed by many more shits, and “I can’t believe how stupid I am!”‘s. I had to drive all the way back to Waukee to get my fucking keys… I will be making copies of those tonight. By the time I got there it was 10:00, but it was good to see Andrew again!

By the time I got home it was 10:45 or so, and I went right to bed. I was so tired.

Today’s been going really really good. I got up early, for some reason I woke up at 6:30. Crazy I know. Got dressed and came to work. I’ve been here all day working on those presentations, now only one is left to do, YAY!

I’ve been wearing a stocking cap all day too, I wore it to work because I didn’t feel like doing my hair today, but now that I’m here, I’m really glad that I wore it. Because it’s fucking FREEZING in my office. And no, I’m not freezing because I’m sick (or at least I don’t think that’s why). I’m freezing because it IS freezing in this office. Everyone’s complaining about it, but we can’t seem to get the A/C to turn off! ::shivers:: I hope it’s fixed by tomorrow or else I’ll have to wear a sweatshirt to work! lol.

Just received a package from Symantec with our AntiVirus software updates, (About $1,500 worth of software)… The CD’s missing. Great, now I have to go through the annoyance of getting Symantec to send out another CD and I have to call DHL to complain. Bastards!

Anyways, I’ve decided there are TWO things I really want to do on the trip to New Jersey/LA. And that’s to see the Sunset on both coasts from the beach. I think it should be doable. But we’ll see.

Edit:// So plans for this weekend are as follows so far… Leave here about 4:15 on Friday and drive to KC, MO. Get to hotel, hang out, perhaps go out if we feel like it. Otherwise stay in. Saturday spend the majority of the day in Lawrence, KS. I’ve found lots of fun things to do there, it appears. And some other cool stuff. Saturday night, I dunno what we’ll do. Haven’t got that far yet. Sunday, we’ll check out and then go do something, I was thinking mini-golf, perhaps? Then drive home. Good times! I’m really excited and keep thinking that we leave today. I really really want to leave NOW!

And that’s my life…

Being a sicky mcsick pants means no kisses!

So yesterday, even though I was uber sick, was a really good day! I wasn?t able to drive up to Ames (considering how tired I was, I probably would not of even made it up there) and so Chris drove down here to see me. I felt bad right off the bat b/c he had to drive all the way here and he?s driving all around Kansas this weekend. But he said it was no big deal. So he got here around 12ish, and we just layed on my bed and hung out. That was nice, it lifted my spirits to have him there. He wouldn?t kiss me though, which was cute, and frustrating at the same time, b/c I wanted to kiss him so bad! But I understand where he?s coming from, I mean who wants to be sick?

So after we layed around for awhile, my sister went and got some yogurt, gingerale, and soup. So we went upstairs and he made me the soup and I ate most of a thing of yogurt, which was really good. We sat on the couch, and ate lunch and watched Ally McBeal. After that, we went downstairs and watched ?Frida? which I thought was really good. Chris was in an uncomfortable position though lol. He let me put my head in his lap though, that was nice. When that movie ended, he went and got some stuff for us to drink and then after he came down, he went all the way back up to get me Tylenol b/c my head hurt. He was being so great the whole day, always asking me if I needed anything and getting whatever it was I asked for. Such a good boyfriend.

Then he watched Oprah and the news, and I fell asleep in his lap. I didn?t really want to fall asleep b/c I knew it would suck for him just sitting there. Especially b/c he couldn?t really move b/c my head was in his lap. But he didn?t seem angry about it, so that was good. I felt a little better after sleeping. Then we watched ?Pumpkin? another pretty good movie, and when that was over we had some dinner b/c I was UBER starving. So I made some pasta and chicken, and he had a chicken sandwich. Mine was good, however I couldn?t eat it all cause I felt sick and then also I was tired and could hardly get the fork to my mouth and then get my mouth to chew it all. So we broke and went downstairs. By this point it was like 8 and Chris had to leave soon.

So we just layed down in my bed again and held each other and talked. We both said that each of us is the lucky one in the relationship. I guess if we both feel that way, we both must be the lucky ones! I really do feel lucky though, not many boyfriends would come over when their boyfriend is sick, and spend 9 hours with them, just sitting on the couch and holding them and giving them little kisses all over. It was really sweet and I?m so happy to have a guy like that in my life. He had to leave eventually and I could hardly drag myself outta bed to go up and see him off. But I did, and we went to the garage and said goodbye. He left, and I showered and stuff?.

Then I was going to clean my room up a little bit, when I noticed there were some keys on the desk that certainly weren?t mine b/c I only have my one set of car keys. So I called Chris and I was like ?Did you leave any keys here?? And he?s like ?SHIT! Those are my house keys!? So he had to come all the way back, it took him like a ½ hour which means he was probably most of the way there already. I felt bad and apologized, even thought it wasn?t my fault at all. But still I felt bad. But it was nice to see him again, and we hugged and stuff!

I can?t wait until tomorrow, we are gonna have a really good weekend in Kansas City, even though it will just be the 2 of us! Grrr?. But yeah, it?ll still be tons of fun, hopefully we are both in good health!!

Where’s The Love?

What’s wrong with the world, mam
People livin’ like they ain’t got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that’ll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin’
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you’re bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that’s exactly how anger works and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y’all, y’all

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain’t the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don’t belong
Nations droppin’ bombs
Chemical gasses fillin’ lungs of little ones
With the ongoin’ sufferin’ as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin’ really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin’ wrong
In this world that we livin’ in people keep on givin’ in
Makin’ wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin’ each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin’ on but the reason’s undercover
The truth is kept secret, it’s swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where’s the love, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the truth, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the love, y’all

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I’m gettin’ older, y’all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin’
Selfishness got us followin’ our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo’, whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feelin’ under
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feelin’ down
There’s no wonder why sometimes I’m feelin’ under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love

The Meaning Of NON-REFUNDABLE!

So last night ended up being a VERY VERY annoying night.

I got home, and ate supper. Talked to Andrew for just a short bit, and listened to some 80’s music…

When all of a sudden, my interenet STOPPED working. I was so annoyed. But I figured it wouldn’t be long, usually it doesn’t take that long for it to come back up. So I sat there in front of my computer, waiting, and hitting “Login” on AIM like a million times. Finally I got really annoyed with it and was on my way to call Andrew when my phone rang.

It was him, so I answered it and he said “Sorry to call you, but I couldn’t wait any longer to tell you what’s happening…”

At that point I was scared…. I thought maybe something bad had happened… Well Something bad DID happen, but I thought something REALLY bad had happened.

Then he goes, “Dustin called me”

And I’m like, Great… I know EXACTLY where this is going.

So Dustin ditched us on our trip.. The WEEK OF the trip he calls and tells us that he can’t go.

This is all AFTER we confirmed with him the DATES and the PRICE of the hotel, and AFTER we booked a NON-REFUNDABLE hotel room.

Now, in case you can’t tell my all of my CAPITAL LETTERS I’ve VERY VERY annoyed by this. You don’t fucking do that to people, if you don’t have the money, then FIND some some where.

It’s not like he DIDN’T know that we were going on the TRIP, or that he KNEW how much he was making, or that he KNEW how much he was SPENDING.

With 4 people going this would have been a VERY CHEAP trip, about $40-$50 each for TWO nights in a MARRIOT hotel, food and GAS!

Now ANDREW and I are going to have to PAY for it all, that means about $80 EACH! Which only leaves us with about $20 to spend, based on what WE HAD BOTH BUDGETED, YES budgeted, for the trip…. Beacuse apparently we know how to handle money, and plan ahead and BUDGET money.

So in short, if you want to go to KC this weekend, and can leave FRIDAY afternoon and return SUNDAY afternoon and can afford $40-$50, PLEASE CALL ME!

And that’s my LIFE!

An Emotional Weekend.

Like Chris said, this weekend has been very emotional but also very good.

Nothing really happened Friday taht I won’t update about in my normal journal. We just went out and had a good time and saw Legally Blonde which is the best movie, so uber cute! I wish I was her! lol

Saturday was also a good day. Chris came over and we spent a lot of time here packing and stuff. That was very stressful on me. I basically just went through my clothes, then realized I had a keyboard I could sell, and yeah. So we called around, I sold it for 15 bucks, eh whatever, it’s money right? But yeah a few times I had to just sit on the bed and hug and kiss Chris b/c it was just too much for me to be packing, it’s all coming too soon!

Then we went bowling and that was fun and we bet that whoever lost bowling would pay for dinner. For some reason I bowled really good, and ended up with a fairly decent score. And yeah so then we went to the new porn store, which was also fun. The guy was VERY nice and that was fun and there was lots of porn so that was good too lol.

After that, we went out to dinner at this buffet place and it was really pretty good, I enjoyed the food. Topher paid, since he lost bowling and I spilled my drink all over the wall since I’mdumb.

After that we went home to his house andhung out. We hot tubbed for awhile but the bugs were really getting a bit too much, so we broke and went inside. It sucks that there are so many bugs b/c I really like to hot tub. Anyways.
We went inside and started doing stuff like usual. Rimmed Topher and did other stuff too, we just had a good time. I told him that I wanted to make love to him. I was ready and I wanted to express my feelings for him. So I told him, and he didn’t say anything so I thought that was weird and I didn’t know what to think. After awhile he told me that he loved me, and I said it back. And then eventually we got to a position where it was easily accessible and I went in and we had sex for the first time. It was really amazing, all the feelings that were going on. Like Chris said, indescribable.

After awhile we both jacked off and came. Then we kissed and stuff and went downstairs. Immediately I felt bad. I didn’t regret anything, but it was a much bigger deal to me than I thought it would be. And then it didn’t seem like Chris felt the same way and I got really upset. Like as soon as we were downstairs he said something like “oh yeah I was so close to cumming, IF you hadn’t of pulled out.” and all I could think was “Well I’m so sorry that you feel that way, I was more into the emotions of the thing than the physical pleasure.” And he made a few jokes about it during the subsequent night/day and I just felt bad, like all he wanted out of the deal was a good fuck. But we did talk about it last night and it was all straightened out and I knew all along he didn’t feel like that, but it was just hard not to think so, plus I was really stressed from the packing thing and so I was just blowing things up.

So we watched Sister Sister and the Proud Family and then went to bed. We slept pretty good and when I woke up my back didn’t hurt so that was good. But yeah, we had a good Sunday too, although a bit more emotions again b/c I was packing a lot. So that was bad, but we took lots of pics of stuff for Ebay and I’m hopefully gonna sell it all. I really need to! I need the money bad. So we walked around the lake for a little bit, that was nice, I just wish there weren’t any people there… or bugs for that matter. Just me and Topher and a nice path and no bugs or other people. That would be sweet.

Picked up Jenny, blah blah didn’t do much, just hung out with them. Chris was sassy to Ginny.. I think she liked it though. lol.

That night we were emotion filled again. laying on my bed, I apologized for being weird all day and that’s where we talked about the whole sex thing. I think I was also weird b/c I wanted us to talk about it and stuff before it happened but then it just did and it was all so fast and then suddenly we’d had sex for the first time. but I don’t regret it… I haven’t had a lot of sex at all, like really not at all, but that was the most meaningful sexual thing I’d ever done with a person. I was very happy to be sharing it with my Topher, he means so much to me. He eventually had to leave, it was sad but we both knew it was coming. So we started saying goodbye, and eventually he left and it was sad and I miss him.

But just one more day and then I’ll get to see him again. And then we get a whole weekend together, and potentially by ourselves. But that’s a whole other situation.