what do i dooooo???

Ok, everyone give me some help.

When I got back to my dorm room, there were messages from Chris saying to call him ASAP. I was wondering what was up, so I called. He finally told me what the deal was.

He said that he found a flight for 196 on ATA airlines. He said that if I book it and pay for the whole flight, he will pay for all the gas to get to Chicago (where the flight goes) and also pay for any food that we have that weekend. Now… this is like an offer I can’t refuse you know? I don’t even know why I’m deliberating it. I want to see him again so bad. I just talked to my Mom about it and she asked if I needed any money or anything, and I said yes, I do, I want to take this flight and does she want to help? So she said she will “try” to send me some money. What that means is that she most likely won’t. Now I understand that we are hurting for money and stuff… but I mean honestly, she didn’t even pay for my books, which was 500. And I didn’t complain about that at all. Now I’m just asking for maybe 100-150 dollars so that I can fly home b/c I miss it. I really hope she comes through. Because I need to book it soon before the price changes.

So here’s my last ditch plea effort– If there is ANYONE who would like to help me get to Iowa, help the two cutest gay boys in the world reunite for a few days, help me see my friends, PLEASE let me know. Any and all contributions would be totally welcome!! 5, 10, 15, 20 bucks… if even just a few people contribute, it will make this trip a reality. As if that wasn’t desperate enough, I’m going to call Dana today to see if his roomie can still get me the WF job… and I’m going to apply at… Starbucks *hides head in shame* I know I know I know. But I want to take this trip so much that I am willing to put my moral conscience aside.

Leave me messages if you want to help.
Thanks in advance everyone, wish me luck on the jobs!
BREAK!

Ok well here is a bit more indepth update about what’s going on. Though there really isn’t much to say.
The basic gist is that I miss Chris a lot. A whole hell of a freaking lot. I really wanted to go visit again but then he said that it wouldn’t work out. I was totally willing to spend the money. But he wasn’t willing to take the days off from work, as I found out today. I got mad about it. I know I shouldnt’ve, and I’m not now. But still
I just want to see him so bad and it isn’t fair and I don’t want to wait till Christmas. Right now it seems like so far away. 11 weeks… about 72 days… 🙁 🙁
It’s too much for me to handle. I try not to think about it, but everytime I talk to him, I’m just like OMG I MISS YOU. I just want to be with him. I know he feels the same, and I know we need to save our money. But it’s still very hard.
I guess that’s all I really have to say about it. This year is going to continue to be very hard, but I suppose I will just do my best and attempt to work through it as best as I possibly can. And also try to be the best boyfriend I can. I feel bad that I have no money b/c I want to send him anniversary gifts (6 months is in a month and 10 days!) but I just don’t have the money to 🙁 I really need a job.. but that’s a whole other entry.
I miss Chris!!

A Bit Sad

Sorry, I’ve been falling behind on the whole updating thing. But really nothing’s been happening.

I’m a bit sad… I think perhaps you can call it on the verge of depressed. I really want to see Andrew again. I wish plane tickets were cheaper.

Other then that not much else going on…. It’s NCOD’s this week. So that’s exciting, but I’ve yet to actually go to anything. Perhaps tomorrow I’ll go to the thing that night. I forget what it is though.

Classes are classes, and my Tuesday/Thursday schedule is getting a bit tedious. Very annoying.

Nothing really going on again though tell early Nov. So that’s good. But Nov 11th is going to be a pain in the ass. I have two papers and a test that day. And the test is essay. Grrrr. One of the papers I have the topic for already, and I just need to type it. I think perhaps this week I’ll do that cause I’m sure Jed won’t call as he said that he would.

The other paper I have no idea what it’s about. Though I feel there’s going to be a book involved. Which I really don’t have time to read. Welll, actually I just don’t want to read it, cause it’s a Poli Sci book, and it’s really stupid.

Anyways, that’s about all that’s going on in my life.

I’ve been thinking about things that I can eat for lunch/breakfast. I need to start eating better, well not really better, just more. Right now all I eat is a breakfast bar and then about 6pm I eat supper. But as we all know, you’re supposed to eat many small meals, to increase your metabolism. And such.

Anyways, I’m down to 168. Which is exciting. And I’ve held steady there for a couple weeks. I was down to 166 before Andrew came back… I blame him for my 2 pound gain. Whore. 😛

Andrew says that I’ve been very fishy lately. Me no understandy.

Well, I’m out. Laters all. GG is on!!

Sad Drew Bear

Andrew’s very sad right now…

And it hurts me so much to know that he is, and that I can’t do a thing about it… Not even hold him, or hug him or kiss him. It’s so sad.

He’s found a flight from there to ORD, for $180. I keep going back and forth on him coming back here… I really really really want him to.

But I also think that neither of us should be spending any more money.

Thought I want to see him so much again.

He e-mailed his Sue… Hopefully she’ll offer to pay for some of it.. Then it’d be good.

I hope she comes through. Because I don’t want my Drew Bear sad tell christmas.

Cheer up honey pie. Things will be good. 😀

With Love,
Topher Man.