Ok well here is a bit more indepth update about what’s going on. Though there really isn’t much to say.
The basic gist is that I miss Chris a lot. A whole hell of a freaking lot. I really wanted to go visit again but then he said that it wouldn’t work out. I was totally willing to spend the money. But he wasn’t willing to take the days off from work, as I found out today. I got mad about it. I know I shouldnt’ve, and I’m not now. But still
I just want to see him so bad and it isn’t fair and I don’t want to wait till Christmas. Right now it seems like so far away. 11 weeks… about 72 days… 🙁 🙁
It’s too much for me to handle. I try not to think about it, but everytime I talk to him, I’m just like OMG I MISS YOU. I just want to be with him. I know he feels the same, and I know we need to save our money. But it’s still very hard.
I guess that’s all I really have to say about it. This year is going to continue to be very hard, but I suppose I will just do my best and attempt to work through it as best as I possibly can. And also try to be the best boyfriend I can. I feel bad that I have no money b/c I want to send him anniversary gifts (6 months is in a month and 10 days!) but I just don’t have the money to 🙁 I really need a job.. but that’s a whole other entry.
I miss Chris!!