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So this weekend was uber great getting to see Andrew again. It’s going to be so hard once school starts. I know that we’ll be able to keep in touch through phone/e-mail/aim. But that’s just not enough. I’m very worried about what’ll happen between us once the time comes though, relationship and friendship wise.

Waiting for him at the Airport I think was the hardest part of the week, that is after that part where he left. I was just very anxious to see him again. Just sitting there waiting for him to come walking down those stairs. It was very very nerveracking. I couldn’t wait any longer.

Once he got home we went and did all that stuff. Unfortunitally I got really annoyed at Outback. I didn’t want to, because I knew that Andrew liked going there. And I wanted to have a good time. I wanted Saturday to be a really good day. The original plans were to have lunch a Boston Market, which I have found out is no longer in DM. From there we were supposed to go out with Skinny and anyone else that wanted to see him that day, including Courtney and the like. And then go to Outback to have a nice dinner together.

Eh, Plans have to change, I guess. But anyways, I just got REALLY annoyed with the waitress there at Outback. Grrr.

Saturday night though was very good. We went hot tubbing and then slept in the tent. I got a good fingering. And there were a few times where it felt like Enfuego’s head was in, but I don’t know for sure. I was very confused as to how far that should have gone. But it was really really great that night. REALLY great. Unfortunitally I couldn’t get a comfortable posistion for jacking us off, so Andrew finished both of us. He did a lot of extra work this weekend, so I’ll have to re-pay him for that! lol.

Sunday was really good to get to just hang out and spend time together. We had a good time at the book store, though I wish they would have had more books that I liked. And I wish they were more organized, or somehow easier to read the labels. My head hurts after a while of looking at things sideways. lol.

Oh, breakfast Sunday was really nice too. And he paid, thanks for that!

Sunday afternoon we went back to my house and I gave him the massage. That was really nice and romanticish I thought, though it could have been more so.

I also massaged his ass, and amazingly he let me access! Very good times, hopefully I’ll get access again sometime because I didn’t get to finish what I wanted too! 😛

Camp was great and it was so nice to have him come up with me. I really wish we would have had a little more time. And that we could have actually gone to the campfire. Whatever though, it was nice to be back up there.

Overall this has been a really really great weekend, and I’m so glad that my Drew Bear is back.

Only about 6 more weeks left together though, and that’s really sad. 🙁

Wow, so this weekend has been uber great!

Let’s see. What all had happened though, it’s been such a great weekend it feels like it was a whole week, and not just 3 days.

Friday was great. Just hanging out with Andrew at his house and talking to his sisters, etc. Very amusing time. Though I did feel really weird about being at his house for his mom’s b-day. It wouldn’t have been that bad if Bryce had been there, but he wasn’t. It was a nice thing though and we hung around. Not much else really happened that isn’t on my public update.

Saturday was the day of really funness. After the Goodwilling/Daving we went to the top of the parking garage behind JJ’s. We went up there and just kissed and talked for a while. Then I told him about how I’ve always wanted to climb on top of this big thing on top of the garage. Well Andrew, upon hearing this, just jumped right up there. And I wanted to get up, but I was afraid of the implications of it. IE, cops, getting kicked out, etc. So I was uber scared, but I did get up there, and it was so cool. I’ve always wanted to mess around up there, or to even get up there, but Adam was always a big scaredy cat.

After we got off of there, we went over to this other place, and we were messing around. Making out, bj’s, dry humping, etc. When Andrew turned around there was this girl walking towards her car. So amusing cause we didn’t even see her. So we ran off all scared like. It was funny!

From there to Beak’s it was a good time there as well. Getting to hang out with him on the beach and just talking about completely random stuff. Get Rich Quick!

That night we went to my house and hot tubbed. Really great times. Apparently after wards though we were laying on the couch talking and I said that he could fuck me if he brought lube next time. But I don’t think that’s what I said. I believe I said, If you bring lube you can finger me. But whatever. Lol.

The ride back to his house was uber confusing, and then we sat in his drive way forever talking. I was so tired by then.

Sunday was a great day as well, though I didn’t seem to be able to find the right words for anything and thus caused a few annoyances with Andrew I think. I hope that things are alright now though.

Got back to his house though and we were laying on his bed talking about how it was only 5, and then all of sudden it was 6. I said something like, Time flys when we’re together. And it’s true, it does. That got me thinking about how fast this summer’s going and how little time we have left together, and I started to tear up. With a quick change of subject though, we just missed another cry fest. At least for me.

After that I left and I didn’t want to, I invited him to stay Tuesday night. I hope that works out.

A few other things I wanted to touch on before going. One is camp, after the experience last weekend I think that I’ll go to camp this up coming week, while Andrew’s gone. That way he doesn’t have to be drug though the annoyances that happened last week with Ginny. I really want him to come to camp sometime at least though so that he can see it, and so that we can talk about why I love the BSA so much. But I don’t want to make him go three times in one week. Plus, I’d like to go and watch the OA ceremonies some, which even if Andrew wanted to, he wouldn’t be able to go see.

I wish that I had written this last night, because now I can’t remember why I put the confused mood on here. But whatever. I’ll leave it for now. Perhaps another update sometime.

So yesterday was a very annoying day, well mostly just the night was.

Ginny, Jenny, Jerry and Drew Bear all got here and picked me up shortly after 6ish. All was good, Jerry’s hot, I got to see Andrew, and it was a good ride there. Amusing times.

We get there and all start to walk around, Ginny talks to people who the rest of us have no idea what’s going on. It was a good time, I really enjoyed being back in a camp. Even though it wasn’t my camp, it still made me happy to be at a camp. We walked around the whole camp and Ginny showed us what’s going on, etc.

After that we went to a talent show, which was fairly amusing, though we were all confused by the crazy guy talking crazy talk. They sung a song that I knew from BSA camp. Of course it had to be one of the songs that I most hate. That song, and Singing in the Rain, and The knob song. I despise them all. It comes from having to sing them 3 times a week for the whole summer for so many many summers.

From there we went outside and played this really cool game called carpet ball? I think that’s what it was called. Gerry kicked everyone’s ass. Except for mine. lol.

After that is when the annoyance really started. I was already slightly annoyed that we were at a bible camp to begin with, but I knew where I was going, so that’s alright.

We went over to the staff cabin, and Andrew and I just sat there for like an hour and a half just watching everyone get thier faces painted. Jenny, Ginny and Jerry all helped paint. I was affraid to say anything, because I might sound to gay. Andrew and I couldn’t hold hands, because we might be too gay. It was just very annoying. And then I hear Ginny tell this boy that, “They’re gay, incase you hadn’t figured it out.” I wasn’t too annoyed with that, but I could clearly see that Andrew was. I found out later that she had told a few other people that we were a couple/gay. That annoyed me because she specifically said that we couldn’t “be gay.” She didn’t say it like that, but you know what I mean. And yet here she is telling people that we’re gay. Make up your mind, can we be ourselves, or do we have to put on these fake masks that we’ve had to wear the rest of our lives.

It was just very annoying, and as Andrew said, “That’s not a Defining Characteristic.”

From there to the mime thing, which Ginny had said started at 9:00 and would be OVER by 10. It definitally wasn’t starting at 9. It ended up starting closer to 10ish.

The whole thing was just very annoying from there on out and as the night passed I got more and more pissed off at her. She was very persistent about bringing us. And also said that it would be OVER by 10. It was finally over at 11, more jesus crap speak, more praying. I hate religion!

I was not a happy camper at all. I’ll just end it there.

Ok, so there’s a ton of stuff that I didn’t want to write about in my normal journal…

The first thing is the friends fiasco. I’ve been very annoyed with a lot of people lately. And I’ve come to the conclusion that no matter how close you think you are to your “friends”. Really all that they are is a bunch of back stabing bastards. Angel has been back in town for a while now. At least a month. She sent me a wedding invite, but I think that was just as a courtesy thing. You see, apparently it was her birthday on Monday, and she had a get together of all our “friends”. Now, I’ll give you the fact that I’m not the closest of any of them. But I think of all of them, I was closest to Angel.

Well the story goes, she made the plans, she invited people. But she NEVER called me. She called Vero and Julian for sure that I know of, and I assume that there were many more people based on the way that Vero talked. It just really pisses me off that these people that I considered to be some of my good “friends” can just blow me off like that. And based on the way that Vero talks in her journal, no one even thought of me, “yeah, yeah. she asked about you when you came up in conversation, if that makes you feel any better. (hehe.)” What the fuck!

I’m just so annoyed with these people. And then the way everyone else has been treating me lately. (And by everyone else I mean, Vero, Julian and the whole Adam situation). The fucker is just stealing my “friends”. I shouldn’t have been such a nice person when I broke up with him. I should have stated right away why I was breaking up with him, and how I felt that the relationship should have ended far earlier. And how I had no immediate plans to get with anyone else. It just really pisses me off and all I could think about last night was two things, Andrew… And how much I wanted to go fucking punch all of these so called “friends”.

I’m going to call the woman here sometime. I just have to get up the nerve to do so.

Alright, on to other things, now that I’ve got that annoyance out.

The last week has been wonderfull with Andrew. Spending so much time with him. I just wish that this routine could continue through the rest of the summer. But I know that’s not going to happen.

Wed night was a very sad night. We were standing upstairs, and I don’t remember what happened, but we were hugging and something set me off and I started crying, and he was crying. Then we went down to his room and pretty much just cried the rest of the night. We held each other, and cried, we kissed. It was so sad.

At one time, he asked me. “What’s going to happen to us.” I’ve been wondering the same thing, and all I could think of, was “I don’t know.” Because I don’t. I’d like to think that a long distance relationship would work, but they never seem to actually work. Maybe one of only 9 months would. But you never know. It’s so sad. I guess this is something that we’re going to have to talk about sooner or later. I’d rather later then sooner though.

I’d hate to see us at the airport. Someone’s going to have to carry me off to my flight.