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It’s been a bit since I’ve updated and so much has happened that I don’t even remember!

Got back from Mexico and EC and I went to the Wi Spa. It was very interesting. Lots of naked asians! There were only a few hot ones there. 🙁 We did the whole mens spa section hot tub, showers, I shaved, etc. We got an accupressure massage. I thought I was gonna cry. And we went to the desert in the 213 degree hot room! HOT! The next day my shoulders were KILLING me! It felt like I had done a crazy hard work out!

Went back to his place that night and spent the evening. Up early the next day and went home to work. I had a huge meeting on Tuesday morning that I needed to work on the presentation for.

I can’t remember what I did that night. Sunday I got up and did some stuff around the house and then went climbing with the gang. EC and I hung out after that and he spent the night? I think. I told you! I can’t remember these things. He says I need to start doing puzzles or my mind will go to mush.

Monday was a 13 hour day at work. Switched from Speakeasy to XO. Had a meeting with Trent, bitched about Julio, etc. Typical work day.

Tuesday was an alllll day meeting about Caborca. I did my presentation and got approval for the $5,000 to do a demo hardware unit. I’ve been having fun buying all that stuff today/yesterday. I hate that sales people are all basically checked out for the holiday! Ugh.

Tuesday night EC spent the night for sure! He came over late and let himself in. I don’t even remember him getting there but I remember all the heat he produced! lol. He drove me to the airport Wed morning. So nice of him!

Nikki from OC was on the flight, we chatted before boarding. I tried to save the seat next to me but someone else got it! 🙁 I dunno where she went too when we landed.

Mother picked me up at the airport. She drives so horrible! I remember when she taught me to drive she was a crazy ass driver. Now she’s like a 100 year old asian woman! Ugh I can’t stand having to ride with her.

Went climbing yesterday with Christy from St Loius. That was fun. She kicked my ass! Also climb Iowa is a bunch of nazi employees! Drove down to my grandma’s house after that and hung out for the evening. I fell asleep by 9pm! I really think someone is wrong with me. I’ve been so tired and unmotivated, plus I’ve been getting these really killer pains in my side sometimes I feel like they are minor heart attacks based on the pain! I dunno if I’m just depressed or if there’s something physically wrong. Ugh. Maybe I have cancer! lol.

Been emailing EC. It’s like the days of jason and I emailing back and forth all the time. He said “when you get back I’m going to ask you to go steady”. Made me think. I don’t really know him as well as I should considering how much we’ve hung out. Need to work on that. I was gonna try via email, but he was being slightly evasive. He’s a very nice guy. It’s weird how not my normal type he is though. lol

It’s christmas eve and I can’t get away from the idiots at the office. I need a new job!

I have to deal with so much fucking BS at my job every day. I can’t believe I don’t drink more. These people are so fucking retarded.

Two years ago I was demanded to put up Christmas music. At the time, we didn’t have control over the music we had so there was nothing I could do. I took a ton of heat and multiple demanding emails back and forth saying that we have to have holiday music.

This year, we have the control, so I put some up. “Baby, It’s cold out side”, “You’re a mean one, Mr. Grinch”, “The most wonderful day of the year.”. Nothing to crazy.

As soon as I put it up, they bitched. Bitch bitch bitch. “It’s too loud” (the same complaint they had about out hold music before). “You can’t understand it because it’s the middle of the song”. Blahb lah blah.

I ignored most of them. I don’t fucking care. If it’s too loud then fucking hold the ear piece out from your head or don’t put it at 100% volume.

I called it from my desk phone, my cell phone, aaron called it, matt called it. It wasn’t loud at all! It was just fucking fine.

So they CCed our CEO. I replied back. “Don’t you have better things to do? Like sell asparagus?” And removed all hold music. Now it’s just dead air. Fuck them.

Also remember I was down here a few months ago. Installed that fucking Driver check-in thing. Well guess who followed me down here. GLC’s Julio with HIS fucking driver check in system. Yep. That’s right, so now there are two of them siting there. I guarantee you we got billed back for that computer, monitor, printer, and his trip down here. Fucking assholes.

They are such fucking idiots here. I’m so fucking over this BS. I’m also really fucking pissed that our company holiday party is 5 fucking hours long on a fucking boat on saturday. I fly back to LA on Saturday morning and have to be at this fucking office party all night. I’m missing out on 4 other personal parties. This is so fucking redic.

I’m in such a bad mood today!

It’s been so difficult for me to even get out of bed recently. I dread going to the office every day and dealing with this BS. Dealing with all these stupid requests from idiots who have nothing but time apparently to bitch about shit like hold music or other SHIT! Yet they claim they are so fucking busy all the time that they just CANNOT get things done that I actually NEED to get my job done.

The same goes for our management team. I have all these projects that they want done in a very short amount of time and NO FUCKING MONEY or authority to actually MAKE the projects happen. How am I supposed to get my shit done if I can’t MAKE it happen. No funding or authority = useless IT teams.

David has been txting me a lot. I tried to ignore him, but he sent me all these messages. I replied, we chatted via txt for a bit, then a couple days went by, he’d text me again, couple days, txt again. Ugh. I need to just call him and tell him what’s up. But at the same time I feel that things would fall apart if I did.

Other things have been happening. Climbing, I’ve been getting better… Finally! Still no boys, no dates, etc. Been having feelings for a new boy though who’s in the climbing group. Not a good idea to have those though. We all saw how well that worked with Morgan and Davey. lol.

Invited some random to the last climbing night. He was creepy as all hell!

UGH! I want to just go home and drink and cry on my couch.

So this past weekend was bishop. Very interesting trip for sure.

Morgan

Yep. He was there. I knew he’d be there, we had been exchanging emails for the week prior. I didn’t think it’d be so hard to see him though or that things would go down the way they did. The last email I had sent to him said that if he wanted to chat or climb or whatever that I’d be down. I gave him my contact info and where I’d be climbing. No reply from him. We get there and go climbing Friday.

Friday was a great day of climbing. Did the upper gorge. Froze our asses off. It was just EC and I. Gavin and NoNo arrived later. EC led this 5.9 and then a 5.10a. The 5.10a was really cool cause it was super exposed. I’m glad that he’s been leading so much because I’ve been kind of a pussy and plus my shoulder. Once the other two showed up we did another really long 5.10a and then scurried out of there cause it was so fucking cold.

Went to dinner with Mikey and gang… Who just so happens to be there at the register NEXT to us.. Morgan. He ignored me. I ignored him.

Dinner was great fun then we tried to go to the hot tubs. There was a lot of snow. The infiniti does not like snow. We got stuck. Dug for like 30 minutes and then thankfully some hot boys showed up with a 4×4 and towed us out of there! yay! Had to use my old climbing rope to do that. So I threw it away. 🙁

Got back to the hotel, ate some yummy cheesecake and then went to bed. EC and I fooled around…

We got up the next morning and went to this tiny bakery in across from the hotel. We were sitting there eating and who walks in but Morgan! He sits at the table RIGHT next to us. Gavin says it looked like he was about to say HI to me, but I guess he changed his mind or something. I got up and left shortly after that.

That day the four of us went climbing at the central gorge. Warm up wall and then Warning signs wall. Good fun there as well. It started snowing. We bailed around 2pm.

Drove up to the buttermilks and it was amazing up there. EC and I went back to the hotel after that. Putzed around there for a while. He watched movies and I read a magazine. Left for dinner at 6 go to Amigo’s for mexican. And guess who’s fucking sitting in there. MORGAN! Ugh. Bishop is just not fucking big enough for the two of us. I’ve managed to avoid him for 1.5 years in the climbing community. Now in one weekend I can’t go anywhere without running into him. Ugh. I walked out of there and went to Las Palmas instead.

Got up the next morning and went bouldering at the happy’s. I wasn’t into it. The whole weekend I wasn’t into it. Seeing him there not talking to Davey, all this stuff just brought back to much and was bringing on to much to deal with all of that. It was like the last weekend that Morgan and I spent in Idyllwild. I was so bummed and out of it that even though we did so much climbing, I just wanted it to be over.

It’s been so hard to not text Davey. I haven’t really talked to him since like last tuesday? He texted me happy thanksgiving on thursday. I replied. Then on Monday he sent me a text that he got my box I mailed him last week… I replied but was short with him about it all. I haven’t heard from him since. It’s hard not talking to him every day. I’ve gotten so used to just txting him and sending him random shit all day long and what not. Ugh. I fucking hate this shit… Why the fuck am I still single!

This week I have been a major bitch at work. Just as an example one of my emails yesterday was “I understand the problem 100%. It’s YOU who does not”. This was after multiple emails back and forth from me to this other girl. I had explained to her in detail and mathematical formulas the problem asking her to tell me how SHE wanted it resolved. She sent me an email saying: “I don’t think you get it”. So that was my reply to her. Fucking bitch. I also sent this formula to someone else the other day:
((PO1Cost * PO1Qty) + (PO2Cost * PO2Qty) + (POnCost * POnQty)) / RepackOutputQTY.

She replied back with “What does POnCost and POnQty mean”. Did you fucking FAIL high school algebra!?!? Ugh.

Yesterday boss and I were in a meeting. He wants me to visit all 62 of our pack sheds in a 3.5 week period spread across 5 countries and 10 regions within those countries…. Ugh! I want to travel to these places, but I don’t want to do it ALL in such a short period!

Last night I went climbing at the gym with the gang. Did my first full 5.11a! I was so excited… Then went out to this improv thing with Justin Black and EC. Leigh and his gang showed up as well. It was pretty funny. Leigh was making all kinds of audience remarks which really added to it! LOL. A couple of the guys were super hot too! Yum.

I might be traveling to Mexico on Monday. So I’m thinking about heading to PHX this weekend…

Later.

Hmm. It’s been a busy busy couple of days….

So this past weekend we went up to Robbers Roost. Robert Jolly was supposed to join us, the guy that had cancelled on me the day of our date that I had tickets too… Surprise! He cancelled on me again. Fucker. THEN he deleted me from facebook… WTF!

I picked up Leigh and this guy Jerel. We drove up there around noon got there by 3 and set stuff up. It was already cold and windy when we got there…. It was gonna get colder and windier.

Everyone was late… Like 2 hours late so we went into town and bought some more wood then back out to wait for everyone. They showed up. Good times, climbed, ate dinner, drank. Had a great time. This guy Jerel was a mess. Drank way to much. Disappeared into no where, passed out in the middle of the desert, etc. And really gay.

Went to bed around midnight. Didn’t sleep worth shit because the wind was blowing 70mph+ and it was raining, etc. Eventually woke up around 6, went out to tear down and the snow line was maybe 100yards away! It was so beautiful. I wish I had had my real camera!

So the drive back was a mess. Leigh fucking SMOKED in my truck after I asked him not too. Then we get to Mojave and he disappears. Come to find out he went to Subway to buy himself breakfast. Excuse me. You’ve got 3 other people who are also fucking hungry and you just run off, holding us all up to go get yourself food and not ask if anyone else wanted food/etc? So I yelled at him and apparently he was all pissed at me after that. Whatever fucking selfish.

Got home and unpacked (threw everything into my living room) and packed real quick for napa. Took a nap then went to the airport.

Had a great evening out with Leo and Tim, back to hotel. Drove to napa with Sylvia. Great times. Had an amazing trip. WEnt to Paloma which was so much fun. The lady was just so informative and cool. It was just Syl and I with a private tasting! I really wish that I had a bf there with me to cuddle and wine taste with.

Got home late yesterday. Called David. Chatted for an hour. Then he went to Jesse’s house at 10:30pm and didn’t get home till after midnight. WTF. Ugh there’s gotta be something more then just friends going on there that he’s not telling me about.

Syl, Leo and I discussed. I need to move on. I’ve said it before. But I really need too. I’m gonna try and not talk to him for a while.

I’m going to Austin to climb for my Birthday. He’ll probably be there….