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Long Beach

So yesterday was pretty good.

OG, asked me a simple question about mysql performance tuning and then I spent the rest of the day researching that stuff. Finially made some changes late last night to hopefully speed things up.

Our MySQL box in the 148 days that it was up and runinng served over 69 million requests. Which REALLY isn’t that many, but considering the type of box it’s running on, that’s a lot

Anyways, Austin picked me up from the office about 1:30 and we went up to Fry’s. I’ve never been there before, and OMG is that place HUGE! From there we drove up to Long Beach where he had an interview. I sat in Borders for the hour that it took and read a book.

I ended up buying it too, it’s called California Camping. It lists over 1,500 camp sites. This guy has PERSONALLY gone and camped at them all and he gives a short preview of them and a rating. So it seems really nice.

Camping this weekend, maybe?

So after the interview, Austin said it went really well. But there’s a posibility of him having to move to San Diego.

We drove around Long Beach for a while looking at things and talking. The area we were in is REALLY nice. Found a Sushi place and ate there. It was 50% off! Yay! We got Squid, Salmon, Tuna, Scallops and a California Roll. They were all pretty good. I’ve decided that I HATE the sea-weed they put around the rolls though.

From there we took PCH back down to Newport, which was a really pretty drive because the sun was going down. He told me that I need to act more excited and that I don’t show my emotions enough. It’s true.. Ever since Andrew, I haven’t.

We picked up my car and drove back to my area and went to BestBuy/CompUSA. He’s in the search for a keyboard. On the way there, this jackass cut me off, so I honked at him. Then he flipped ME off and then SLAMMED on his brakes trying to make me rear end him.

I don’t fucking GET people. When you fucking do something WRONG you have NO RIGHT to fucking do that shit. Jackasses.

After shopping we broke and I went home. Sat on the computer for a while and did that work stuff and then went to bed and read for a while.

Adios y’all!

I Did…

Haha.. So Andrew just updated his Journal… And He said the following:

Against the advice of Joe, I’m writing about this anyway. (Sorry Joe!) Chris called me late Saturday night (my phone was off) and he left me two very nasty messages. Basically he sounded drunk and kept telling me I was a fucking bitch and a fucking jackass and all this stuff. The second message said that he “hopes I fucking die” so those were definitely nice messages to wake up to. Instead of doing something heinous back (which I was fighting with all my being) I have decided to just not do anything. And just PS, my writing about it on my journal is just chronicling that it happened, not an actual response.

Well, I’m very glad to know that I DID infact call him a jackass, etc. Because he is a fucking dumb ass and I do hope that he dies.

So whatever. God I just wish that I fucking remembered what all I said to him.

Adios Yall.

It’s Over … Maybe?

Sooo… Long weekend. Lots to update about.

Friday at work was LONG LONG LONG. Nothing to do, I just wanted to fucking go home all day.

I finially got off and went home and took a nap because I didn’t sleep worth shit the night before. Austin called me at like 4:30, woke me up, and wanted to go to the movies. So I suggested the 7:40 showing so that way I would have time to eat and shower and wake up, etc.

But he wanted to go to the 5:30 showing, so I just jumped up got dressed real quick and went down there. Got there and wasn’t really in a talkative mood so we just went to the movie. Saw Date Movie. It was OK, but not all the best. They could have done it a lot better.

After that got out we went back to his place and talked and hung out and watched Beauty and the Beast. After the movie was over we laid in bed talking for a long time and it was really good. BTW, he got a job offer Friday, so we were talking about how that should go and what he wants to do.

It kinda upset me because he kept saying that he doesn’t want to learn more and he just wants an easy job. That’s really not what I’m looking for in a guy.

But still the talk was good, and I was happy. I was hoping that he would invite me to stay. But about 11:30 I said, “Well unless I’m staying, I should head home cause I’m going to fall a sleep” So I got up and left.

It always upsets me when he doesn’t want me to spend the night. I love sleeping with him, well I love sleeping with anyone. But still. He’s just so cozy to sleep with.

So I come home and went to bed.

Saturday I spent the morning doing laundry and cleaning, etc. Left here about 1 and went shopping for a few things. Austin met up with me here at my house about 4, he was really pissed off because he was supposed to pick up his brother to come shopping with us, but his brother disappeared and didn’t call Austin to tell him where he was at.

It’s VERY understandable that he was pissed, but he really took it out on me, which upset me a lot. And he keeps telling me to “Shut up” or “Be quiet”. I know he usually says it jokingly, but it still upsets me. :'(

So he got here and we went off to Ikea, shopped around and I found a bed frame that I really like, but it was $300, so I didn’t buy it. Also found some other stuff. Either way, we left there and came back to my area and got food. On the way back we got into this argument about going out. Again, he doesn’t like the fact that I’m not out going when we go out and he says it’s uncomfortable being out with me because we just sit there and watch people. I’m sorry, but that’s what I do, I enjoy going to the bar and hanging out. I DO NOT DANCE, etc. So we got into it at Panda Express and started yelling at each other. It was sad.

Came back to my house and he ate his food. Then we talked some and made up and decided to lay in bed and watch Mysterious Skin, he hated it. I still think it was a really good movie. Whatever.

After that we got into another argument about something else. I can’t even remember now, but it ended up with him leaving and me screamning. “GOOD BYE” out the door. Cause he wouldn’t acknoldege that I was saying anything to him. He came back and I laid in bed and he sat there talking to me. I’m not even sure how it happened, but we ended up deciding to go out anyways.

So I got up and got dressed and we went to H Marys. It was lots of fun, and we laughed and talked and stuff. I got REALLY drunk and drunk dialed Andrew, Oksy, Jenks and a few other people, but I can’t remember who right now. And I lost my phone somewhere, so I can’t look it up.

We did end up dancing, but he said he was getting pissed off with me dancing. I don’t fucking know why though.

Anyways, we came home and I threw up some. And I’m sure he’s pissed at me for that too. So we went to bed and I passed out as soon as we did. Woke up this morning and he jacked me off. Then he went home.

I feel asleep again and didn’t wake up till 2, layed in bed and watched Project Runway till 4, then got up showered and made dinner. Now I’m laying in bed writing this.

I think I’m over this whole thing with Austin. I can’t deal with his attitude any more. So unless he really changes once he starts his job, nothing’s gonna happen any more. I just can’t deal with the emotional ups and downs of his.

Adios yall.

Honey

Hmm, so what’s going on with Austin….

He’s started on the whole calling me baby and honey thing again. He’s staying over more, and he left me this cute little note today:

thanks for letting me spend the night honey

xoxoxo

austin

Last night he spent the night again and I really wanted to just do him. I was so wanting it last night. But I held out. He did end up jacking off early this morning though.

So yeah, plus we were talking in bed last night and he was all, Why are you going on so many dates. And I told him that since he doesn’t want to date me that I’m looking for someone, and want to keep searching. So yeah. Then he talked to me about how he doesn’t want to jump into a relationship and that he’s still too young. Which I’ve heard it all before. I don’t want to force him into a relationship. But I do want one with him. As we all know.

I dunno, maybe I can live with this psuedo boyfriend thing for a while.. Add a little sex in there and it’d be pretty cool. But I feel things would get fucked up.

Dinner With Couples.

So dinner last night was pretty good. Although, very strange.

I got there and it was just Michael and I, cause Than was running late. So we talked a bit and had a good conversation. But then Than got there and things just went down hill.

He adds like this strange wierdness to the room. LIke you try and talk to him and he just has like one word answers and doesn’t really talk about much and it’s just so strange.

I get the feeling that they just want a threesome with me. They kept trying to get me to drink and stay later and stuff like that. It was so random.

I was thankful to get out of there. They invited me to a party on Friday, but I’m not going.

Austin and I had a nice talk last night as well. That felt good.

I went to bed at like 8:30 and crashed. My fucking cats have been going crazy at night lately. Moo Cow will play in the fucking litter box and make SO MUCH noise. Tux runs all over hell and uses the damn scratching post like crazy. It’s getting really annoying and hard to sleep. Grrr.

Oh well, adios yall!