Author: Cj B

july 15, [amber, "can you feel the love"] ok well tonight’s been

ungood times. i guess you can say that. well it’s been a pretty good day in

all. work was good, there was no marlin, there was no one to bitch at me,

the peole were nice today. it was a good work day. it was so good i didn’t

even bitch at karen when she got there. then i went out with mandy. we went

to java joes, since adam didn’t call like i told him too and he didn’t anser

his phone when i called. but yeah, we went there and we were sitting out side.

and adam pulls up, and we sit there, and he gets out and stands next to his

car, and he checks his phone, and then goes inside. and just as he was walking

in the door i call him again, cause i was going to say "well just walk

past me and not say anything" but he didn’t answer yet again, so mandy

and i went and stood next to his car and waited for him to come out. he did

and we went to the loop. i dunno, tonight was good, i just felt a little ignored,

i dunno, maybe i’m just being in one of those, pay attention to me NOW moods,

but yeah. i felt a bit ignored. i can’t wait tell tomorrow though. i’m thinking

i’ll have to sleep in tell like 1 so that i can stay up late enough, hehe.

it should be really cool. i’m sooooooooo excited.

july 14, [acdc, "back in black"] ok so sorry about the no update

ysterday, but it was just a sucky day. however, today’s been great. i went

to work, and there was no marlin, so that was good. but i should never work

with mandy for extended amounts of time, i think we would kill each other.

but then after work i went out with adam to that summerfest thing, that was

great cause i got to meet all his friends. and i finally got to meet that

mike guy, i think that’s his name, he’s damn fucking hot though, lol. we talked,

it was good times. adam told some other girl about him being bi and such and

that was amusing for me. cause he was like, i need to talk to you over here,

and this other girl that was standing there was just going "he’s gay,

he’s gay" and i was amused. but yeah. and then earlier we were talking

and he was like, "ya sometimes i’ll introduce you as my bf and sometimes

just as my friend" and i’m cool with that, but he feels so bad about

it, cause well i dunno really. i mean i can understand why you would want

to do that, and i’ll do it sometimes too when he meets some people. but i

understand the whole in the closet thing, and i’m thinking i’m just lucky

that he wants to go out with me. 🙂 but yeah, tonight was good times. we hung

with his mom some too, that was amusing. but other then that it was just a

good night hanging with adam. good times. good times. well i have 5 people

IMing me, so i’m going to go talk to them now. laters.

july 11, #2 [bush, "swim"] so this morning adam called and said

he couldn’t go out with me this morning cause he had to paint or something,

sounded like he had just got out of bed, but yeah. so i went out by myself.

i didn’t find anything i thought she’d like, i called shiela, her mom, and

she said that she was wanting like ivy stuff for her kitchen so i focused

on that. i went to kohls, target, wal-mart, k-mart, and younkers and didn’t

find anything. but i did get some things for myself, hehe. but yeah so i got

home about 3 or so and i came inside and went to the kitchen to get a pop,

my dad was in there and i thought it’d be nice to tell him i’d be home for

july 11, [alanis morissette, "ironic"] ok well today’s been okey

i guess. work sucked like normal, but then i went out. i went to java joes

first and ran into candice and jamie, that was cool we talked a bit, then

i went and called adam, and he was at the loop, so i went there to see him.

we met up and i was like, hey wanna go back to java joes and see if candice

and jamie want to come to the loop. and they were like yeah, so we were heading

back to my car when we saw jules and dean, so we got them and all went back

to java joes, candice and jamie had left though, so that was sad, but we stayed

and talked a bit. it was good times, then we went back to the loop and jules

and dean left. so adam and tara and i hung out there. adam ran into an old

friend down there, which was amusing for me, but he was freaked out somewhat.

then on the way home we talked about like the whole touchy feely type things

and i’m cool with touchy feely stuff, but yeah. it’s kinda wierd, the whole

relationship thing. it’s like, how far can i go, how far’s he want me to go.

you know, and of course i’m not the kind to take the first step, so yeah.

it doesn’t work out to well. i mean i don’t mind the touchy feely at all,

i like it alot. i like the feeling of him there, but i mean, it’s like, how

far’s he want to take this, it’s the whole not knowing, sometime i think we

should just like sit down and have a long talk about everything in general,

but yeah. things are good between us, i think. and i’m really liken’ being

with him. i really am.

july 10, #2 [live, "selling the drama"] ok well today’s been really

great. really really great so far, hehe. adam came over this morning, we hung

out here and talked and walked around and yeah, it was great. we burned him

a cd of songs that he wanted and we sat on the couch and talked about such

things. i found out he’s still a virgin, hehe, cool cool. we also talked about

se and such and he said he’s not ready for it, neither am i really, so it’s

good to know that there’s no pressure or anything about it. things are good.

life’s good at the moment, and yeah, good times, really good times. i know

this is a vague update, but yeah. it helps. tomorrow night adam and i are

going up to camp. i have to pick him up from work about 8 and then we’ll head

up there, campfire starts at 9 (i think), so we should make it there in time

to see the whole thing. then after that there’s the call out ceremony, which

will be nice to see, not only cause of the hot guys wearing pretty much nothing,

but because it’s something that i’ve grown with, something that i’ve seen

every summer since i was 11 or so. and it’s a nice little ceremony. it’s kinda

like it’s a part of me now, the boy scouts and all, it’s going to be hard

to let them go completely, i should stop telling people that i was a boy scout.

but it’s hard to even do that. you know, it’s been such a huge part of my

life in the past years. grrr. damn boy scouts. i think my dad scared adam,

he came home and started yelling at andy cause he didn’t get the things done

that he was supposed to get done. so yeah, adam left. but we had a good time

this morning. well i’m heading to work, laters all.