September 3, 2001 #2

Sept 3, #2 [Oasis, "It’s Gettin’ Better (Man!)"]

Ok, well I got Dreamweaver 4 installed and got those cool navigation buttons

working. I’m so happy! Today’s been pretty boring. Grrr. I hate boring days.

Last night I had written Adam a letter basically talking about random things

and how the weekend’s been and shit. I knew he was working all day, so I

went over there and got this card. And got him some flowers, you know just

to say, Thanks for such a great time this summer, I’m glad to have you as

a friend. I wanted to get him Carnations cause they’re more of a freindship

flower, but they didn’t have any good looking ones. So I got him two yellow

roses, and put them and the card and the letter in his car. I hope he gets

them alright. This really are getting better!

I really didn’t want to leave this morning though. I didn’t want to come

back here. But I know that I have to. I’ll have lots of other good times

with Adam and people soon enough, but sometimes school / work gets in the

way. When we move to AZ we’ll have lots of great times together.

Good times. I got back here and there were like a shit load of e-mails

for me. I got two from random people. One was from this

guy. I’ve seen this guy before. His

pictures are used in a brochure thing for one of the local studios that

does HS Senior pics. He said that he hangs out at Java Joe’s and the gay

loop alot. I’ve never seen him there, but then said he was at the Alliance

meeting and I didn’t remember seeing him there, but then he described what

he was wearing and I was like, "OH YEAH. I remember you." So yeah.

He’s damn hot. He’s from DM and not going to college yet this year. Then

there was this other guy. He goes to ISU,

but I’ve never seen him on campus. We’ll see if he e-mails me back. 🙂 Whatever.

Ok I suppose I should finish my randomness from last night, eh?

So first topic, Time With Adam. Over the last three days I’ve spent alot

of time with Adam. Personal one on one time. I’ve really enjoyed it and

we’ve talked about alot of wierd things. We’ve talked about those plans

to move to AZ, we’ve talked about anything and everything under the sun.

I fell so much closer to him now. I don’t really remember where I wanted

to taket his to last night. But lets just say I’m glad that we’re such good

friends.

Second topic, Julian. Last night Adam and I had to run an errand for his

mom. We went to Wal-Mart of course to get her some stuff. Well first we

went back to see Julian. He looked really mad. So we hung out and talked

to him for a bit. Then he got some more customers, so we left to get what

we went to Wal-Mart for. We had to get Adam’s mom a fish, and her film.

Well we went and got the film, no problem, then we went to get the fish.

There was a line and the person there, didn’t want to touch the fish so

she was really slow at it. Adam, being the crazy guy that he is. Jumped

in there and started helping people, then he got the fish we needed. Then

I had to go get some things. By the time we had gotten everything it was

late and we’d been gone for a while with Adam’s mom’s credit card. So we

left and completely forgot that we were going to go back and see Julian

until we were like pulling in Adam’s drive way. Again. I felt bad cause

we didn’t go back and see him.

Third topic, Adam’s mom. Well Adam told his mom that I was gay. She’s cool

with it. But some things have been happening lately that have been really

wierd. Well first. I gave Adam some rainbow colored condoms cause I found

them amusing. Well he left them in his pants pockets and his mom washed

them and found them. I can just bet what that conversation was like. But

later that day. I was at his house talking to him mom and they came up and

I was like, "I have every color of the rainbow." She just gave

me the wierdest look. But then later. I guess Rob said there was something

wierd about me to Melinda. He thought that I was gay. And I guess Melinda

told him that I was. So that’s oddness. I’ve written this down somewhere

today, but I don’t remember if it was on here, or in an e-mail. Adam and

I think that his PU’s think that we’re together. Whatever, it’s so amusing,

the life that is Adam’s. I bet it’s not as amusing for him, but from the

outside it is. And he’s got good PU’s I think they’d be cool with what ever

he tells them. I guess also they talked to him about Saturday night when

they came home and Adam and I were there. And about us wanting the house

to ourselves. They didn’t say it str8 out, but I guess the thing that Adam

got out of thier convo is that it’s ok if you bring your BF’s home, just

don’t bring them home to make out, or something like that. I was amused.

Forth topic, Angie and NP. The other day Angie randomly called me and said,

"What’s North Polk’s school song." Well since I played a low insturment

I didn’t get to play the chorus type part, so all I knew was my part, which

wasn’t what she wanted, so I put her on speaker phone and got my brother

(At her request) and asked him. Then he sang like a few notes of it and

then I broke into it and then Angie started singing the words. It was so

amusing. My mom laughed at us all.

Fifth topic, My Grandma. The other night as well my grandma called and

said that he computer wasn’t working. She said she didn’t have a start bar,

or anything on her desktop and that her mouse wouldn’t work. Well I couldn’t

think of anything that would be causing this and I couldn’t explain to her

what to do to try and figure it out (She didn’t even know what the shift

key was). So I told her to leave it there and I’d come down some weekend

and look at it. Well the next day she just showed up at our door with her

computer and shit. I was like, WTF? So she brought it in and we set it up

and stuff, I started it up and it worked fine for me, so she drove all that

way (2 hours) for nothing. Oh well. She hung out there for a couple hours

and talked to my PU’s and shit.

Number six. My Crazy Aunt. After my grandma left I checked my voice mail

on my phone. My Aunt had called at 11:38 the night before and told me that

my grandma was going to be coming up. I was like, "WHO THE HELL GAVE

HER MY CELL PHONE NUMBER!" Cause of all people, she’s someone who shouldn’t

have it. My mom said, oh she called last night and I gave it to her. Apparently

they all knew my grandma was coming up, but not me. Nope, don’t worry about

telling Chris. That’s ok.

Ok, so that’s all the topics. Adam called a bit ago and was said thanks

for the flowers. I guess Tara called and told him that they were in his

car. I had mentioned to her that I was worried they’d be wilted by the time

he got off. And she asked me if I wanted her to call him, and I was like,

I don’t care. So I guess she did. That’s cool though. Adam said they meant

alot to him, which is nice. He means so much to me. It’s going to be an

amusing story though when he tells his mom that I gave them to him. He said

he might say that Angie sent them or something, which is cool with me, cause

well. We don’t need his mom suspecting more then she does now, lol.

Ok this is long enough and I’m sure everyone’s bored, So I’m going to go

now, laters.

September 3, 2001

Sept 3

Well today has been tons of fun and excitement. It all started out I went

over to Adam’s about 3 and we hung out there for like 30 minutes and shit

waiting for Mandy and Vero to get there. Well they got there and wanted

to go to Ames to get Ryan and they wanted to just hang out there and watch

a movie or something as I understand it. Well Adam and I didn’t want to

do that, cause well I left Ames for the weekend cause I wanted to go out

with Adam here in Des Moines, not to be driving to Ames. So they went to

Ames and Adam and I went downtown to drop some stuff off at the GLRC. Well

we went there and then Vero called Adam and we met them all at Java Joes.

That was good times. We spent like two hours at Java Joes, it was like 7

by the time we were wanting to leave. We were all going to go to Perkins

and get food and shit. Well, Adam and I were riding in Adam’s car, we were

heading back there and Adam realized he didn’t have his keys. So we went

back to Java Joes and looked all around there. Couldn’t find them, so we

went back to his car tracing the steps we took to get there, couldn’t find

them. They weren’t in his ignition so we thought they had to be outside

somewhere. So we went back to Java Joe’s. Still couldn’t find them. Went

back to his car and looked around even more. They were laying in his seat

and his door was locked. So we had to call his dad. It took him like 30

minutes to get there, but he finally got the door open. We were so excited,

then we hung around there and talked to his dad some about cars and manly

shit. That was amusing. Then we went back to Ankeny and went to Hy-Vee,

by now it was almost ten. At Hy-Vee we remembered that we had been invited

to a party at Xak’s Apartment, so we went there, and hung out with Xak,

then we went to find the party, but couldn’t find it, so we went back to

Xak’s and watched a really amusing movie. After that we went out back while

Xak and this Luke guy smoked and we talked and told funny stories. It was

good times. Adam and I left there about midnight, I was sad to leave Adam

tonight. I really didn’t want to. It’s going to be a few weeks before I

see him again. grrrr. I hate this, being in Ames. It’s not that far, but

yet it’s to far to really be back here every weekend.

We had called Vero and them when we realized that we locked the keys in

the car. I feel bad about making them drive back to Des Moines, and then

we pretty much ditched them cause, well we couldn’t go anywhere. But I feel

bad about that. I really do. Sorry if that ruined your plans, I really wanted

to hang out with them, but by the time we got out car unlocked and shit

it was late, and we had no Idea where they might have been. So we just went

and hung out.

I’m really glad that I’ve had the time to spend with Adam this weekend.

Just the one on one time. I’ve realized alot about our relationship. I hope

that our plans to move to Arizona work out. I really do. It’d be the coolest

fucking thing ever.

There’s alot more that I want to write about. But it’s late and I hate

this keyboard, it sticks. Topics include: Time with Adam; Julian; Adam’s

mom; Angie and NP; My grandma; My crazy aunt; and other random things. I’ll

go away now though, cause this keyboard is really getting to me. Grrr.

September 1, 2001

Sept 1

Tonight’s been really great. I went out with Adam, just me and him. I love

being with just him, we have so much to talk about really. We can almost

always find some random thing to talk about. I really love him to death.

I wish we could give a relationship another go. But like I’ve said before.

I know that’ll never happen or work again cause he’s so wraped up in other

people right now. We started the night by going downtown and we went to

this big ass parking garage and we talked about the future, what it holds

for us and where we think we’re going to go. We have this big plan to move

to AZ. I dunno if I’ve mentioned it before or not, but I really like it

and I hope that we can carry it out. We talked about it tonight, and I think

it’s feasable if everuthing keeps on track like it is right now. If all

goes to plan in 2004 Adam, Angie and I are moving to AZ. I really hope that

it works that way. After the parking garage there was much randomness and

walking places. About 9 or so we went back to Adam’s house and we were just

going to hang out there and talk and shit. Well we went there and his mom

and like entire fucking family showed up shortly after that. They hung out

there for a while, and then his familyish type people left, (they all took

pictures of me for some odd reason). But Melinda and Rob stayed in and that

fucked up our plans for the night. So we went back downtown and walked around,

there was some beerfest thing going on so there were lots of amusing drunk

people there. Then we came back to Ankeny and hung out and talked. Now I’m

here, wishing that we could be together one more time, give a relationship

one more shot at where ever it might go. Let life take me to where it should

and let me be happy. When I was with Adam I was so happy, when I’m with

Adam now, I’m happy. But when I was with him. That was the best time in

my life. The best.

This morning my mom and I went to UBS and we bought Dreamweaver 4, Fireworks

4, Flash 5, and Freehnad 10 for $250. That’s like $1,000 worth of software.

I was so happy. It’s bloody cool. I’m going to have to learn Flash and shit

now. But I’m loving Student Discounts on software.

Aug 31, 2001

Aug 31, [Me First And The Gimme Gimmes, "Stand By Me"]

I can’t WAIT for tonight, I get to see Adam, I’m so fucking happy.

Fateback is being a bitch, it won’t let me upload things that are more

then one directory deep, for example, I can’t upload anything in the /pics/People

dir because that’s two deep, but I can upload stuff to the /pics dir which

is only one deep. Fucking them. I e-mailed them and they said, "Use

our file manager." I don’t want to fucking us it damnit. I want to

FTP!

Aug 30, 2001

Aug 30, [Craig David, "Fill Me In"]

Ok, well today’s been one busy ass day again. I went to class this morning

at 8, that was boring, we had our first quiz, it was easy, it was just over

the sylubus, crazy man. Oh well. Then I went to work and there was like

no one there, so I went in a talked to my boss person, all I did today was

get netmeeting working with video, audio and a few other things to make

sure they all worked before next Tuesday when they have to use them in the

conference room. Then after that I went and researched on electronic whiteboards,

some of them are pretty damn cool things. After that I came back here and

went to my math 150 recitation thingy. OMG, that’s going to be one long

ass semester in there, I can’t understand a damn word the TA says, and he’s,

he’s just. ARG. I hate him already. Oh well.

I got my Krell e-mail today, that

brings the total up to 9 e-mail accounts I have to check daily. I should

just start forwarding things to one e-mail account, but I don’t really want

to do that cause then I don’t know where things are coming in from, like

right now, all my junk mail goes to comet, and all my personal mail to att.net

now work e-mail goes to krell and school e-mail goes to ISU. I like having

Outlook cause it just checks them all for me. I just wish I could find a

way to convert my outlook mailboxes into something that one of the POP programs

for LINUX can read. Damn M$.

I’m so glad that today’s over, I get to see Adam tomorrow, I’m so fucking

happy. Oh speaking of Adam, the other day I posted some lyrics on my site

at the end of one of my posts, well usually if I put lyrics there, it’s

the lyrics from the song that I was listening to when I started the post,

well this time it wasn’t so I had to figure out what song it was, and I

just couldn’t fucking remember. It’s a great song, but I couldn’t remember

what it was called, so I called 105.1 and they didn’t know, so I knew it

had to be something they didn’t play that much. Savage Garden came to mind,

but just from the names of the songs that I had it didn’t look like any

of those. So I dug out my history in IE, and went back to that day, I found

the song, it was Savage Garden, "The Lover After Me." I love history.

hehe.

My roomie finally understands the concepts of vacums and other such things.

He turned the fan so that it faces inward. He got out of bed like midnight,

I think he thought I was asleep and wouldn’t hear him doing it, but I saw

him, and I was like, "THANK GOD." Cause it felt so good. Oh well.

I’ve been debating lately on a new storage scheme for my MP3’s. I’m getting

so many I need to start seperating them somehow. I’ve been thinking about

making a new folder for each artist/band and seperating them that way. That

would work, but it’s alot of work. I’ve also been thinking about seperating

them by music type, but then you get those dance remixes of regular songs,

and I’d like to have those with the regular song, and you get those songs

that I just don’t know what the hell they are. So if you have any good suggestions,

E-mail me or something, eh.

I need to read my Soc book. But I’m not really in the mood to do that.

I have all my other HW done for the week. I just hope that I don’t get anything

in my classes tomorrow. I know I won’t get anything in Math cause they would

have assinged that today. I might have something in English, but that shouldn’t

be to bad I wouldn’t think. Oh well.