Author: Cj B

Drama… Drama!

OMG, Ok. So I wanted to also talk about this in the post #2000, but I was too destressed about the whole issue about my notebook, so here goes with this update.

So we all know that Robert sent hookup boy an e-mail on myspace, well hookup-boy sent Robert a reply saying that he’s just looking for freinds because he’s got a boyfriend and all this… SO that’s the first OMG!

That stupid whore had a boyfriend and was CHEATING! Wholy shit!

SO THEN! Like 10 minutes after hookup boy sent Robert that e-mail, Chris (hookup-boys boyfriend) sent Robert an e-mail telling him to back off, and blah blah blah…

This is where things start to get interesting! Robert and I decide to play a little game on the both of them!

Robert e-mails hookup-boy, and says.. “Thanks for having sex with my boyfriend, you whore” or something along those lines. lol.

Pretty much as SOON as he sends that he gets another e-mail from Chris asking when and what happened and all this stuff. So it’s like, is hookup-boy just that stupid that he’s sitting there reading with his boyfriend looking over his shoulder, or does the boyfriend have hookup-boys passwords and is reading his myspace e-mails, etc?

So then Robert replies back to Chris and starts telling him what happened and this and that. It was really funny and I was freaking out cause they are both military boys. It was crazy! But hookup-boy was only 19 and this Chris guy was like 30! Eww.

Eventualy Chris just starts e-mailing me and bothering me about it, and we start talking on line and he’s asking all these details and stuff. And I was so damn nervous that night, that I don’t even remember what hookup boy was wearing or anything. And Chris was asking me about like these tattoos that he has and this birth mark. ANd I was like, “Dude, I don’t remember any of that shit and he didn’t take his shirt off”. So of course it looked like I was lying

Then he’s like, “Look You have the wrong person” and so I was like, “NO dude, it’s the same guy”. So I finially just decided to send him our AIM convo, which apparently convinced him, cause he said he was going to go yell at his boy.

I dunno, like I feel good about it, because if someone cheated on me, I’d want to know, but at the same time I feel so bad about it.

That stupid hookup-boy got what was coming to him though!

I’ve been kinda hoping that one of them would contact me today and let me know what happened. lol, I’m evil like that!

But OMFG! I cannot believe this shit! It’s just crazyness!

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In other news, the mac is still dead. I’ve been doing some data comparisons from my past backups (The last full one was in Sept! :'( .. ) and it looks like I got everything except for my pictures directory. Which isn’t a big deal because I have that backed up at home. So that’s good news, although I’m having issuees with getting the correct tools to freaking take the damn thing apart.

I looked up a Lowes on yahoo and google today and found one that’s like a mile away. So I drive there at lunch only to find that the damn directions take me into this fucking gated community, and it’s NO WHERE near a freaking shopping center. I came back to the office and did a satelite view of the area and sure enough there’s not a fucking Lowes there! So I’ve got to stop on my way home and get what I need for that.

I’m in my office that was offered to me today too, because it’s the only place with a free mac right now. I’m really liking it. Though I’d have to change some things around, because I have my back to the door right now and if anyone remembers Krell…. Well that just freaks me out!

Yep… Plans for this weekend are coming together.. We’re going to The Abbey for sure on Saturday, and we’re getting a hotel to stay at up there! 😀 Exciting!

Anyone wanna come on Saturday, let me know!

Adios!

My Baby…

Well, everyone…

This is post number 2000!!!!

Yay.

I was going to write something really long and boring about how things have changed so much, but alas.

Something more important

My baby died today!

My Zettta Bytes. 🙁 She’s dead.

I woke up this morning and turned her on, and she started making this HORRIBLE screeching sound. It was deathly ill.

I rushed her to the emergancy room, and plugged her into life suppport to try and save her memories.

But she died on the operating room table.

I was only able to save 3.03 Gigs of the 9Gigs of stuff I have on her.

Today is a sad sad sad day. :'( I dunno what I’m going to do to get that stuff back!

And just the other day I was trying to back her up and get a bunch of stuff off her… God damnit! Why did I give up so easily on that. :'(

Now I dunno if I should spend just the $500 to have her fixed, or if I should go with the $3k to just get the new Intel mac. Oh god, what to do!?

First Session…

Ok, well I had my first session today. The guy was really nice.

I walked into his office and was attacked by this tiny little mut dog thing. It was cute, but kept trying to lick me and stuff when I was filling out the paper work. Which is annoying.

After getting all the insurance figured out, which was a pain in the ass. We got started. Like I said, he was really nice, but I felt that he spent a little too much time talking about things that didn’t matter. I would have rather just gone in on the first day and told him what I wanted to tell him about everything. Like the story of WHY I’m coming back in and all that. But Alas, I’m sure he got enough information.

I find it strange though that the sessions here are only 45 minutes. But I guess it also makes sense. So whatever. He said that he wants me to go to group therapy. I’m not sure how I feel about that. He offered me two different ons, I took the one that had the smaller group. So yeah. We’ll see how that goes. Gah.

He also suggested that I start drugs again.. But I told him that I’ve been on pretty much all of them over the years and I never really felt any change for the good. So then he suggested this other things called a Alpha-Stim. I dunno how I feel about that though! Seems very strange and like something you would see on a late night infomercial.

He also gave me homework to do! OMG! So I ordered the book today and will hopefully get it by next week… I’ve got another appointment with him on Tuesday though, which I’m sure I won’t have the book by then, but whatever.

I ignored Austin last night and this morning. Well, ok. When he got off he talked to me on AIm for like 10 seconds and when I started asking about his day he was like. “I’m to tired to talk about it”. So I just said “whatever, bye”. But yet he was still online for like 2 more hours.. One can only assume he was talking to people during those two hours, so why was he “too tired” to talk to me about how his day was. Whatever. He IMed me again at like 9:00 that night, but I ignored him then, and then he IMed me again this morning at like 8. Ignored him again. He finially called me at like 10 to see where I was at/etc. But I just told him I was in the doctors and would talk to him later. He called me back at like 11:30 to see why I was at the docs and I talked to him for like 10 minutes.

Ugh, I was talking to my friend Robert last night online. He’s hung out with both Austin and I a lot. He agrees with me that if Austin changed just a little, and wasn’t so needy that things would work out and tha we’d be a cute couple… I think part of the problem is that I expect way too much out of people, specially Austin since I liked him so much, that it just causes fights, etc.

Either way, I’m going to continue with mostly ignoring him for the rest of the week. I AM however going to invite him to come up with me to get Ginny from LA, as my plan for now is to go get her and Carl from LA and then go to Santa Monica for dinner and then maybe The Abbey after. I think it’d be good, cause Ginny can play the Bitch protector friend card, and hopefully see what the fuck is going on… (You’d do that right, Ginny?) lol. Plus I really want to go back to The Abbey, as it was lots of fun!

The rest of the time that Ginny is here isn’t very well planned and it’s kinda freaking me out. I don’t wanna be sitting around once they get here trying to think of things to do. I was thinking Luckys on Sunday night if they wanna go out both nights. But the days are completely empty. She said she wanted to spend some time at the beach, but it looks like it’s going to be too cold to do much more then go and look at it and leave. (Mid-60’s is the forecast)… Either way. It’s going to be fun hanging out with her!

Robert’s birthday is this Friday too.. I want to do something nice for him like he did for me, but I don’t really want to go out with his boyfriend, who I don’t really care for. So I’m not sure what I’ll do for him yet. Perhaps I can lure him away for a dinner or something, maybe lunch on Saturday.

Not much else going on here… Did I mention the hookup boy hasn’t responded to me? Not a big surprise, oh well. When I told Robert about it, he was so SHOCKED, it was hilarious. He forced me to show him the boys Myspace and then proceded to add him as a friend. It’s so funny… Honestly, I’m still in shock!

Anyways, that’s about it… Adios!

My Issues?

Sooo.. I’m starting therapy again. My first appointment is early tomorrow morning. We’ll see how it goes. Hopefully I can find one here that I like. I tried a few different ones through the years of college, and none of them were very good. So we’ll see.

Today I broke the $20k mark in my cushion fund. Angel said I should just move back to my parents house and live for a while. I could easily live for over a year on that amount. But for anyone who knows me, knows that I’m obsessed with saving money, and I HATE spending money if there’s no income. I think I can hold out for a little while longer. Plus like I said before I’d feel like I’d been beat if I do move back there to my parents… I think just moving back to the midwest in general would be better.

Just to give you a sample of the crazyness that’s on myspace around here… this random guy sent me a message yesterday. It said “How long have you lived in Cali? Midwest boy’s rock my socks! :D”… So I read it like 5 minutes after he sent it… I really didn’t feel like replying to it right then and there, because I wasn’t in the mood to be friendly towards someone random, and making small talk. And since he didn’t give hardly anyting to talk about I felt it best to wait. So then like 20 minutes later he sends me this NASTY message bitching about how he expects people to reply to him and blah blah blah… OMG calm the fuck down people!

Yesterday was a really productive day here at the office, but now I’ve got nothing to do today and my boss is out of the office. It’s been getting harder and harder to get my ass out of bed every morning and to come in.

Ginny is here on Saturday! Woot! 😀 Thank god!

OMG

Omg, I just hooked up with someone!

He’s this really cute Military boy, who goes to Soka just down the street from me. And he’s into Computers and stuff.

He was really nice, but ummm.. we did it.

He didn’t finish though cause he said he was nervous, which I suppose is ok. But makes me feel sad, cause what if he just didn’t think I was hot enough?

Hmm.

Anyways it was pretty hot. I’m going to try and get to know him more.

I also applied to 15 jobs back in the MidWest. Mostly Chicago area.