Author: Andy McGee

My Baby Christopher

So this has been a pretty eventful I suppose.

Ok let’s see, Friday we met up downtown and hung out with Dustin and crew for like 2 and a half seconds until theyditched us and did other stuff. So we walked around, and then sat down by the Amphitheater thingy and just talked and shit. After that we decided to go back to Chris’s b/c there was better than sex cake and we ate it for dinner and then made some mac and cheese and that was yummy as well.

THen we just layed around in his bed until it was time to go. I was uber tired and so I was just talking about really random shit, who even knows what half of it was. I do remember the important stuff though. The important things being that I told Chris I think I’m in love with him. He told me the same back, and we talked about how special we are to each other and cute things like that. I don’t really know how to elaborate on that much further. I really think I’m in love with him… it makes me happy… and scared of course b/c love is always scary.

Anyways, after that there was talk of me going to school and then Chris was crying. I didn’t think I would cry, but then I felt one of his teardrops hit my face, and I started up. So there are the two of us, just crying and hugging. And eventually we had to get up and leave and that night I really didn’t want to leave him. I didn’t feel that I could.

But I had to, and it was sad. Friday night was a lonely night sleeping by myself.

Saturday, I worked and then him and Court came over so we could go to the game. He was annoyed b/c Court (and me I suppose) made him drive, even though she was the one who had invited us to the game to begin with. But whatever. So we went tot he game and that was kinda fun, we won so that was good, and I think Katie was pretty happy that we showed up. After that we took Court back to the car and looked at computer stuff, where he again got annoyed b/c my mom was such a bitch to him. I’m pretty annoyed at her for saying what she did, but whatever, she is dumb.

So then we went out and ran a bunch of errands that we had to do, and that was fun, then Jenny called and wanted to go to dinner with Ginny and us. So we changed plans, and went to Jenny’s and then we all went to dinner, with the addition of Brian Niblo. Crazyness

So dinner was fun I guess, nothing really happened though Chris paid and that was nice!

Then we went to Chris’ house again, and it was really nice. We spent some time in the hot tub, talking, making out, doing what we do best. Tons of fun. Though it was raining and that wasn’t really fun.

Oh I forgot to include this, while we were waiting for it to be time to go to Jenny’s we were in this empty parking lot across the street making out in the backseat. TONS OF FUN! SOoooo scandalous. And I put on my new string bikini underwear, which I think Chris thoroughly enjoyed. At least I hope so!!!!!!

Unfortunately this is where the story ends. It is already too late and I need to be in bed if I am going to be up tomorrow to work out and then spend my day slaving away at WF.

So the deal is that I better have an update about the WHOLE weekend when I get home, and then I will finish this one up tomorrow.
I MISS YOU!

Fianally!

FINALLY!

Instead of eating and customizing my comp (things i SHOULD be doing) heres an update just for YOU.

So I totally missed Chris a ton on the trip, I even cried a few nights 🙁

But Sunday finally came and even though the plane rides took forever, I finally got off. Chris was there (I assumed he would be, then I insinuated that I wanted him to be) and it was soooooo great to see him again! We hugged and kissed in front of everyone and he met Danielle and Jessie and Danielle Passed him.

So we left and hung out and we did random shit at my house, I showed him the movie and gave him his souvneir from Jamaica. Which I doubt he will ever actually wear but eh, I thought it was a cute shirt. Mother said I could stay at his apt. that night, so we trekked up there,and the drive sucked b/c I was uber tired.

Well we got there and I read all his updates and they were reallytouching and then we just talked about our weeks and randomness. Talked a bit about how he is on meds and it worries me, but he assured me there is nothing to worry about. Though I guess he has already stopped taking them, which makes me happy, cause now he can orgasm! Teehee just kidding, I’d rather him not be able to orgasm than be depressed.

We also talked about the potentiality of him coming to NJ/LA when I leave for school. It was really nice of him to put thought into it.

Quick note on him putting thought into things. He has the weather for Orange up on his computer, and he bought OJ, and it was Tropicana and he was like “Isn’t that the kind you like?” It was just really sweet of him to do things like that. Ok maybe I’m just stupid.

Anyways, so I haven’t brought the idea up to mother yet, and I’m not quite sure how she will take it. But hopefully things pan out, it would be really nice to have him to support me when I go out there, so I don’t feel so alone and scared.

He also called me sunburndized or something like that, it was cute.

So I skipped work the next day and we just hung out all day, except for a several hour span where he went to class. I snooped a bit (not much) and then watched TV, got ready, and read some of Kevin. I fell asleep on the couch and was very confused when he came in and woke me up. For some reason I thought I was in my own apt. and I was like how the hell did you get in? Very crazy.

Got some movies (Dogma and Chicken Run) Both amusing, though I’ll have to say Chris found Chicken Run more amusing than I did. Still funny though, he’s so cute!

Really really hard to leave that night, after being away from him for so long I just didn’t want to go. Eventually forced myself away and drove home.
Tuesday I didn’t even get to talk to him, though he called me like a second and a half after I turned my phone off!

Wednesday I went up there and we had another great day. The majority of it was spent making out/fooling around. He showered and was very nicely repaid for it in the form of rimmy/fingering goodness. My opinion is that he enjoyed it even though he didn’t get to cum, but he seemed ok with that. I had another crazy shooting orgasm.

I was starving from all the messing around, so we got dinner at Hickory Park b/c I was totally craving a Patty Melt and it was soooooo good!
Went back to his house, layed around in bed, apparently I said some things that scared him but I don’t know what they were and neither does he.
He indicates that he doesn’t believe me when I say that he’s the best b/f I’ve ever had. I don’t quite know what else I can do to prove it to him, I guess if he doesn’t want to believe me, then he won’t. But it’s the truth.

Hard again to leave, even harder for CHris b/c he couldn’t stop fondling my ass. I’m glad that he enjoyed my new underwear so much, I pretty much bought it to tease/seduce him and I think it works pretty well.

Anyways, not much else… I am veryglad to be home and very happy to be seeing my Topher again! It was totally hard to be without him but now we are back together and have 3 more weeks before I have to go away again! But this time, I’ll have access to a phone, so it’ll be tons better!

That’s about it for now

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I’m Just A Built In Threesome

Several things to update about that aren’t really appropriate for real journal lol.

Well, first off, a big thanks out to Chris for being so supportive this weekend. I totally was so happy to have him accompany me to all my parties, I’m not sure how fun it was for him, but I really enjoyed having him around. And my friends like him, so that’s good.

So Sat night, things got a bit frisky in the hot tub lol. I attempted an underwater BJ… yeah that didn’t work out too well b/c of my contacts. Then I tried to give him a rimmy while in the hot tub, but he refused to stand up so it was just him lifting up his body, and it was resting on my knees.. anywyas, it didn’t quite work.
We moved to the bed, where I proceeded to give him what I thought was a (hopefully) good rimmy. I did that for a long time, then I was doing this thing where I was fingering him with one finger, giving him head and jacking him off at the same time. I was trying to get all three things in sync (my sis just walked in how embarasssing) and I’m not sure I did it right, but I did eventually make him cum, and I think he liked it (he said he’d be screaming down the walls if we weren’t in his PU’s.. I Would’ve paid to hear that! lol)

So then I made him cum and that was good, then I came and that was really good.

Sunday night at his house there was more messing around and I got a nicerimmy and he jacked me off and I came like a mofo. Fun times.

He said on his journal that he was having bouts of depression. It concerns me b/c he hasn’t talked to me about it. It seems like all is right, but I still worry about him, and I wish he would talk to me about it. I just want him to be ok, and if it’s something I’m doing that upsets him, I want to know.

Well that aside, we did have a really good weekend and I was really happy that he was with me the whole time. Can’t wait till tomorrow to go see him!
Sorry so short, sis wants comp, she’s a Nazi.
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Current music: beatles–thanks hunny!

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So yesterday was emotional for me.

The fear during the license scare, the sadness during bacc, it was too much, I hate emotion!

I was glad Chris was there for me though, it would’ve been much worse without him. By much worse, I mean I would’ve been sitting in my room bawling with no one to hold me.

We hung out, I dunno, most of it is on my other journal. Lots of holding hands, lots of kisses, as always.

I jacked it b/c he made me so hot that I just HAD to. It worked out pretty well I think, welle xcept for Mother needing something right afterwards. THen it was just embrassing. Good thing I changed shirts!

We did lots ofrandom shit, being cute the whole time, though I felt bad for Chris being sick. Mainly b/c it’s my fault. I hope he doesn’t give the cold back to me, I don’t need it for thecruise! But he thinks he will be ok by the weekend, which is good b/c we will need energy for all the shit we have planned.

Blah blah randomness.

Eventually it was time for Bacc. We stood upstairs hugging and having the talk about him coming. I really did want him to come, but I understood about feeling out of place etc.. and told him that it was fine if he didn’t come. I really would’ve been ok. Then I started crying, for no real reason. Though I hope Chris didn’t think it was to get him to go. I just was feeling lots of emotions, and I was thinking about Bacc and my friends and I just started crying b/c it’s so sad to be leaving everyone. Though after my experiences today during practice, I realized that 90% of my class is big white trash and I hope they all die.

Anyways Chris decided to come and then I felt bad b/c I felt like I forced him. He assured me that wasn’t the case, but I still felt bad and I felt stupid for crying, and I just felt a lot of things. So we sat through that, it was stupid, and afterwards I hugged Chris and thanked him for coming.

Awards was next and that wasn’t as bad, especially b/c I got Wooed for and that totally made my day.

Went home, layed down on my bed, I didn’t want Chris to go. I needed someone to hold me. So we layed there for a little bit, but all too quickly, Topher had to leave. I thanked him more for coming. It really meant a lot that he came, even though it wasn’t a very good time.

Made our way to the car and talked and kissed and couldn’t let go. He tried to throw me in the trunk and kidnap me, but I had to veto the idea. lol. I miss him. At some point, we were able to tear ourselves away from each other and he left and I went home.

I heard my phone ringing later and was wondering who the heck would be calling me? It was him, he had gotten a text message that said “I love you.” And he didn’t know where it came from. I assumed he thought it was from me.. b/c well, who else would say that? But considering I don’t even know how to text message, nor would I of had time, it wasn’t me. For some reason I felt bad telling him it wasn’t me. But whoever it was best be watching out, cause aint no one stealing my man!

Went to bed w/ dreams of him.

He got a raise so most likely he won’t work at WF if he gets the job. That’s ok, He really does need to be where
the money is. I just thought it would be extra time to spend together. Hopefully we get enough time together. I’m
afraid that this summer will just end all too soon and then I’ll be gone, and my Topher will be here. 🙁

Speaking of ending, this is the week that won’t end. I really just want it to be over, I want graduation done with. I’m feeling many conflicting emotions right now, I don’t feel very stable, and I’m not very happy. I just want the whole ordeal over with. I want it to be Sunday night, and I want to be at Chris’ and I want to be in his arms, and sleeping with him and being completely at peace and know that I’ve left all the high school bullshit behind.

Just 3 more days… 3 more.

I can make it.

I miss Topher. Isn’t it Friday yet??

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SO this weekend was soooooooo great!

Friday night we walked around, and held hands, and scared breeders on the bridge. We yelled at everyone who stared out their window. And by yell, I Mean we did this crazydance thing and flipped them off lol. And Chris looked uber yummy! *slurp!*

It really says a lot to me that he isn’t afraid to hold hands in public, even though no one else likes it lol, it’s still cute!

Saturday was good, we didn’t really do a whole lot, layed around, he held me during the wall.

Now Sat night… ooh got a little crazy there, lol. After we got home from Dinner, we were just sitting around and making out cause… well just cause!

So we moved to his room upstairs b/c I hate the stupid couch downstairs, it was all slanty-like. Anyways, it was so heavenly that night, I don’t know why. Everyhing just felt SOOOO good. He took off all my clothes and literally licked me from head to toe. I was dying…. lol. We made out for a long time and then he headed down to Enfuego. ANd here’s where it gets crazy!!! He was giving me head and suddenly I was like “I AM GONNA HAVE AN ORGASM!!!!” Well I didn’t quite scream it like that but I did let him know, and then outta nowhere, I start shooting in his mouth. I couldn’t believe it!!! I was in shock the entire next day or two. I have NEVER EVER hardly even come close to cumming when I’ve been getting a BJ before. And Chris made me cum in seriously 2-3 minutes. That really says something. I know it sounds dirty and stuff, but it really means something that I can orgasm with him. At least in my mind!

Sunday was tons of fun as well. Holding hands in the Art Center, discussing what we liked and didn’t like, just looking at the art, talking about our futures what we want to do, how we both want to travel. Some of the art was so confusing, and it was really fun and interesting and intelletually stimulating to talk about it with Chris. To steal a line from Alannis, sometimes I do need “intellectual intercourse” and Chris gives it to me, which is just great. Hopefully we didn’t scare too many people lol.

Back to my house for randomnes, then we were cute the whole time at the drag show. Holding hands, singing, dancing etc… we are sooooo cute! Everyone should be jealous of what we have.

BS was fun, we talked about HS PE. So stupid (PE, not the talk) then we split. I didn’t want him to leave and I guess we stayed in my car and talked for a good 25 ish minutes or so before I’d let him leave. Then about 5 more at his car saying goodbye. We finally broke b/c it was cold. Geez, when it’s warm I don’t know how I’ll ever break away!

Speaking of warm, the house is freezing, but anyways.

A great weekend, my Topher is soooooo beautiful! And now that I get “more leeway” according to Mother, I should be able to spend more nights w/ him which I just love! He’s so warm, I love the feeling of his arms around me.
Well, he can read this now, and I BETTER have a private update for when I geth ome from work!

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Current mood: chipper