Arrrrrgggggg!
Why do I obsess!
Make it stop.
Why why why!
I think that’s the thing I hate most about myself!
Going out tonight to a birthday party… Been invited to a birthday party for tomorrow. Possible date on Saturday night.
Going to see a play for sure Saturday. If Ausitn ditches, then it’s a date with someone else.
Ugh.. time to go now. Adios!
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Today’s supposed to be really emotional for me, based on my scope.. And it sure has been so far! Fuckers!
I had a date last night, it was a mess. The guy was like 5’4” and 24, not in college and has been working at Starbucks for the last 5 years. Yeah, not what I’m looking for. He was nice though, perhaps friends will work there.
So.. I moved into the new office today for good… I have a feeling some people are mad about that. Umm, who knows for sure, whatever. I like it. Though it’s very empty.
Lat night I kinda had a break down, with being alone again and all that… The date boy cancelled. Fuckers.
So I called Angel and bitched at her for a while. She helped. I kinda wanna just fly her out here for a week or something to hang out. Gah.
I’ve replied to a few interview offers, but haven’t heard anything from those people back yet.
My group is going good so far, there’s 13 people that have joined already! And one of them is a complete random! So that’s cool. Now it’s just to see if these people will ACTUALLY go camping or not.
This guy Nile called me like 4 times last night, but I was in bed.. I wonder what the hell he wanted. How random. I tried calling him back this morning, but he didn’t answer.
Adios
Ugh.
So Austin’s in San Diego for the week.
I’ve been having this hope that he’d call me and invite me down for a day to hang out with him down there.
I just got off the phone with him… Apparently the other day he went on a date with this guy Orlando.. Some guy who he’s been AVOIDING since we started hanging out.
And suddenly he really likes this guy, and is going to invite him down there for a night to hang out.
God. I just wanna cry. Ugh!
Fucking shit, why do I leave myself so wrapped up in this guy.
Why do all the dates that I have end up like shit.
I did a crazy self-esteem workout thing at my meeting today. It helped some, but I feel like it’s going to take a lot to really do it and make it help. He gave me this huge workbook of things to do.
I feel like I should do one for this.
Infact, I’m off to do that now.
Adios.
Well Ginny and Carl left this morning… I took them to the airport at 11:30.
It was a really good time having them come visit me though. So that’s good. Made me happy. 🙂
Yesterday was a great day. We went down to San Diego and went to La Jolla and Balboa Park.
It was tons of fun.
Called Austin on the way back to see if he still wanted to hang out. Of course he didn’t. Not a big surprise, but still annoying. So we just came back to my place, hot tubbed for an hour and then went shopping. I had a meeting from 7:45 till 8:30, so they shopped alone. Came back here and then watched Brokeback. Of course it was fun.
Other then that I haven’t relaly been up to anything.
Looks like I’ve got dates every night this week. So that’s exciting for me. Most of them are older men, IE 27, 28. So maybe they will be more sane then the rest of them.
I created a new myspace group called Gamping. It’s for LGBTA people who like camping in California. I’m hoping that maybe this can be a group where we all get together and camp like once a month. We’ll see how that goes.
I got my new phone today too, it’s charging. I’m so excited. 🙂
Adios yall!