Ugh.
So Austin’s in San Diego for the week.
I’ve been having this hope that he’d call me and invite me down for a day to hang out with him down there.
I just got off the phone with him… Apparently the other day he went on a date with this guy Orlando.. Some guy who he’s been AVOIDING since we started hanging out.
And suddenly he really likes this guy, and is going to invite him down there for a night to hang out.
God. I just wanna cry. Ugh!
Fucking shit, why do I leave myself so wrapped up in this guy.
Why do all the dates that I have end up like shit.
I did a crazy self-esteem workout thing at my meeting today. It helped some, but I feel like it’s going to take a lot to really do it and make it help. He gave me this huge workbook of things to do.
I feel like I should do one for this.
Infact, I’m off to do that now.
Adios.