July 4, 2001

july 4, [crazy town, "only when i’m drunk"] well last night was

really cool. it’s noon here now, and i’ve only been up for like 30 minutes.

after work i went out with adam and them, his friends, i can’t remember all

their names right now. but yeah. it was cool. the loop was really busy last

night and we had our own fireworks. hehe, it was cool. adam was like obsessed

with taking pictures he got a couple of me and then he also got a couple of

both of us. hehe. it was good times. well i have to go up to K & G now

so that i can get my payroll info done. laters all.

June 2, 2001

june 2 [fine young cannibals, "good thing"] ok well i’ve got an

hour or so here before supper so i thought i would tell yall what’s been up

in my life since i got here. well last night after i wrote that last update

i went to the ampitheater and worked there they were cutting railroad ties

for the steps, it’s not fun cutting those. i have five blisters on one hand

now and they hurt. then we went and worked in places once the rest of the

staff showed up. my tentie, grant, doesn’t have to move in tell the 8th so

i’ll have the tent to myself over the next week or so. it’s been going pretty

good so far. todays been pretty boring we’ve just been going over all the

rules around camp and been working on getting everyone certified. i had to

get recertified in CPR, that took 5 hours, my god that’s boring and the teacher

guy, he was crazy i swear. and that brings us up to now. it’s 5:11 now and

i have to be at the flags at 5:55 for flag retreat. ya know it’s been really

hard lately. i’m at scout camp, so ya know i can’t check out every guy that

walks past anymore, and it’s hard, there’s so alot of really cute guys on

staff. like the the lakefront director, he’s about 6′ 5" or so, and he’s

got this really boxy face, but he’s fucking ass hot. omg. yeah, i’ll try and

get pics of everyone before the summers over, but ya know i’m not the picture

taking kind and yeah, it would just be weird cause i don’t really know to

many people here. and plus i’m trying to kinda hide out cause i’ve been so

used to just like, saying, hey he’s cute and shit like that and now i’m here

and have to watch what i say really closely. you know what i’ve realiized

is that i always go through more then one song while i’m writing these, but

i don’t really notice it when they change. i’ve gone through three just writing

this one. yep. it’s funny. but ok, so i have to watch what i say, and i’m

affraid that i’ll slip and say something really loud and like, yeah that wouldn’t

be good. i’ve also been thinking that i’ll go ahead and send that letter like

soon, instead of waiting. cause since she knows already. might just as well

as make it official. and plus i don’t think i’ll be able to stay the whole

summer up here. i really don’t think i’ll be able to handle it.

June 1, 2001 #2

june 1, #2 [foreigner, "feels like the first time"] well here i

am at camp. tony, a total asshole is right across from me in tent city. great.

i’m all moved in. i’m suposed to be looking for pete, but i felt like writing

something real quick. i got an e-mail from someone today, his name is thomas,

and he was down at philmont with me. at least that’s what i’m guessing. he

said that he’s in one of the pictures taht’s on my site and the hint he gave

me "phish" refers to philmont. here’s the pic

he sent me. well there’s actually 8 there, just replace the 01 with 01-08

and you’ll get them all. i dunno who he is, he doesn’t look like anyone in

my pics. at least not that i see. it really freaked me out when i read that.

i was like OMG. but yeah. i also talked to my mom before i left, she said

she found the advocate in my scanner and read that article about steven cozza

and that made her resign, so that’s a good sign. yeah i’ve got more to write

but i feel like i should be places. i’ll write more later today, we have 2

hours of "move in" time when everyone else gets here. i dunno why

he told me to be here so early. but oh well. laters all.

May 25, 2001

may 25, [Billy Joel, "Blonde ovver blue"] steven

cozza is

my idle. (there’s four links there

for those that are link challenged). i’ve always repected him since i first

heard of scouting for all. he

was only 12 when he started it, he’s now 16 and pbs is doing a special on

him, it’s called scout’s honor and it’s airing in june. i don’t know for sure

when that is though, i e-mailed them so i’ll see if they tell me. i suggest

everyone watch it, and also go get this months edition of "The Advocat"

i usually don’t like that mag, but BN didn’t have the new XY yet and i wanted

something to read. and they had a huge picture of steven on the front so i

was like, yeah, scouting for all. and it’s a really good article, even though

it’s only like 3 pages about him. it’s damn good and worth the $4. But yeah,

go get. read. be informed. i wish more people could be more like steven, i

wish i could be more like steven.

May 13, 2001

may 13, #2. [craig david, "walking away" remix] ok so i guess it’s

been a pretty good weekend with the family and all, seems to be getting along

with them fairly well, nothing really big yet. it’s been a great two nights

though, i’ve gotten to see alot of the people again and yeah, it’s all good.

last night i went out with xak and nic. well first we went to wal mart cause

nic wanted to fill out an application and julian was working in layaway, so

we did that, and that was just funny shit, then nic went off an a tangent

that he needed to get a mothers day gift for his mum, and he was going to

get her a teddy bear. so we started heading for the toy section but somehow

ended up in the cd/dvd section and he decided to get her a cd of some sort,

but anyhow we had to go to target to get that, and that was fun, i’d never

been to the target in ankeny before. so yeah. then we went to java joes, and

there were alot of cute guys there, lol. then we went to the sky walks, and

that was just major totally cool fun. yeah, yeah. we saw valleys prom and

some wedding, and yeah, nic and xak tried getting into both places and got

kicked out, lol. then we went back to java joes, more cute guys. lol. then

we went to my house and sat in the hot tub, that was cool. nic’s going to

try and get some X and bring it over next time, so that’ll be cool if he does,

i’ve been wanting to try some. then after the hot tub, i called danny, and

that was sad times. i dunno, it’s all confusing times there. he says he’s

got two "legal" names, and i’m just lost as to what to do. i mean.

it’s weird. but i’ve thought alot about it today, and i mean i dunno really.

but i want to try to give this a chance once i get out there. i really do.

we talked today though and that was good times, he talked to my dad too. lol.

when i got home my room was packed full of all kinds of shit, so i took pictures

of it. i’ll get them up in the fall sometime, it’ll be after camp and such,

unless i find lots of other things to take pictures of before then, 😉 i got

most of it cleaned out, i just kinda stacked it in the corner. so yeah. and

i’ve started packing for camp, only two and a half weeks before i have to

leave for there. i also got my computer hooked set up all right, so that the

only thing of mine that people can access is my mp3’s and i’m ripping a whole

bunch more of them right now. i told danny that i was going to come out to

my pu’s as soon as summer camp was over, but he’s like, "you should talk

to your friends about that" so i dunno. i mean i _want_ to tell them

so badly, but i mean if things go bad, it’d be a sucky rest of the summer.

i still need to find somewhere to hide all my XY’s and stuff. that’s going

to be more of a problem then i thought it would be, cause it appears that

even though i’ve moved out my brother has decided that he likes going through

all my stuff even more then he used to, so it’s hard to hide anything now.

so where everi do end up hiding them, it’s going to have to be outside my

room some where. my pu’s and i also talked about going to philly, like i said

some where up there, my mom didn’t get her arse in gear and didn’t get things

linded up, so we aren’t going to make it out there this month. she’s now saying

"in late july" but then it’s going to be a whole family thing, like

my, both pu’s and my brother, so that’s going to just suck. but whatever,

i still get to go there, that’s good i guess. i’m going to go sit in the hot

tub some again. laters.