So here I am at North Polk, AiS is over and it was all good and stuff. Julian randomly showed up as well. Ramsey and I talked and it was all good. He’s applied for a job at Krell.
I’m downloading pictures from the digital camera to thier machines. It’s all good.
I’m out. Not much really going on today. Adam gets to come up tonight WOOT!
So yeah I got up this morning and it looked quite warm, even though it was dark and cloudy our, but I was like “At least it’s not raining out.” So I went and showered came back changed, put the batteries in my camera and started to head out the door, when I saw someone walk by my room with and umbrella and raincoat. I looked again, and it was raining, fairly hard. I was like, SHIT. So I put my camera back and replaced it with an umbrella. Damn rain.
I went to class and no one was there, well ok there were alot of people there if you compare it to the attendance at my 2oclock class, but there was still very few people there.
Only 4 more class “periods” left before finals start, I can’t wait, yet I’m dreading it. I have so much that needs to be done, but really don’t have the ambition to start or do them. I have a Stat Project to do, and I have to read my Bus Law and MIS books. I have to study this weekend, I must, but there’s so much other stuff that I also need to do, I need to move my loft out of my room this weekend, otherwise I face the risk of “making too much noise” during finals week, which they can write me up for. Bastards. I’ll figure it all out I’m sure, but whatever. It’s very stressfull right now….
But now I’m off to take some pictures now that it’s bright and sunny out. Laters.
Last night I thought about alot of things… and I had a lot of stuff to post about today, but I’m just not in the mood to do it…
There’s two things in this world that I truly love, Adam and scouting…. Last night both of those came into my thoughts a lot.
First was the fact that yesterday was the first day that it was realy nice out, and that reminded me of all the weekend campouts, the conclaves, the pow-wows, the summer camping trips, the high-adventure. All the camping, the weekly meetings… I miss those and that really hurts. I want to go back and do that again, I miss all the weekend camping, the weekends out on our own, in nature, I miss the weekly troop meetings, the first wed of the month meetings, the second tuesday of the month meetings and the third thursday of the month meetings.. I miss it all. I want to go back to badly, why can’t something that I love so much, hate me so much.
Second was Adam, the story yesterday (yes, that was written about us, by one of our friends) really hit home for me, it really meant alot to me and there’s so much that I wish I could add onto that story. I won’t do that, but looking back, I’m glad things happened the way they did, and it’s another one of those times in my life where I wish I would have taken more memories from, I wish that we would have danced another song, I wish that we would have gotten our pictures taken professionaly, there’s so much that I wish… But I enjoyed the night for what it was and will always remember it, I’ll always have the pictures that were taken there, and the song that we did dance too. Those memories will never leave…
I also thought about alot of other things, mostly about last summer, at camp, just random memories of camping and things that happened, or Angels leaving in August, that made me cry again, because when it happened, Adam was so hurt, and I didn’t know what to do. I wish that I could have just laid there and held him, but that was still to close to after our break-up to do that…. I just stood there and told him it’s alright, and I don’t feel that was enough for me, I wish that I could have done more. I also thought about Linda Anderson, my Engl prof from last semester and how much I hated her, and the fact that when I bitched her out there was so much more that I could have said to her to make my point more clear….
Last night was full of wishes, but not wishes for the future, wishes of things I should have done.
“If I were not a Boy Scout… I don’t know what I’d be”
if I could only remember it all.
Well prom ROCKED. Like no other. It was so great. We got ready about 3:15 and then headed off to pick people up… We got to Annie’s about 4:30 or so and hung out there. Dylan was there, one of Annie’s friends from Lincoln. He was damn hot. We did the whole picture thing and then left there for Bucca Di Beppo’s. It was really packed there, but the food was pretty good. From there we headed off to the ballroom. We got there almost 45 minutes early, but they let us in anyways and the party started, and the nervousness increased…. Things went good though, we danced around with everyone and had a good time… Until 11:30, along it came… I was getting really nervous by then and I could tell Adam was. The slow songs were coming on and I wanted to dance, I was going to make him dance. I made him get up and helped him on with his coat. We walked out to the dance floor hand in hand… Chose a spot and I put my arms around him and we danced… The song seemed to go on for hours. I could tell he was nervous and I was getting even more nervous as every second went by.
I looked around as we danced, as did he. I saw that no one was staring. He was nervous, I told him not to worry, this was our time, we were dancing, but he wouldn’t let that past him, he wouldn’t not worry and just have fun and danced. I kissed him on the cheek and he turned away. We continued to dance with all our friends around us. Finally the song was over and we went back and sat down.. I was shaking so hard, it felt like it lasted for hours… But it was the best time and the worst time of my life.
We decided to leave after that… I would have liked to stay na dance one more song, but we didn’t, it was best to beat the everyone out of there.. And I’m glad we did leave, there was a bad accident on the Highway, so we had to take a detour home.
On the ride home Adam and I talked about things, he felt that he let me down because we didn’t dance more… I think it was mostly because Jessica and Mandy made him feel bad about it. But it was alright… He took a really big step that night, a step I know I never would have been able to take when I was in HS. I was really proud of him that night.
We got home and changed, and headed back to afterprom. Everything there went great. It was pretty boring until about 4am when the hypmotist started. He was great and made Dusting yell “I pissed my pants and I’m proud of it.” Alot. hehe, we laughed and made comments about the hot guys that were doing stupid things… hope not to many people get to see that video tape we made, lol. Lots of butt action shots there.
We left there about 6 and got to bed about 7ish. It was good. We slept tell 1:30 when we got up and took the tuxedos back. Then we went out to breakfast.. After that we went shopping then back to his house to watch movies and just hang out for the last couple hours before I had to come back to school. It was sad to leave last night, but it had been a really great weekend. I wish there would be more times like that, when I can just stay with him the whole weekend and we could have our house, it was our house that weekend. We lived together.
This will be a weekend I never forget….
Today’s been really long. Not much has been done today either. I went to class, we have a test on Friday. I think I should go to the review session on Thursday. It should help alot. Then I went to work, Nazanin was overly annoying today as well. I just hung out in my office most of the day and did random things. It was alright.
Then I came back and we had a test in ComS. I think I kicked it’s ass, but there was one things I fucked up on cause I couldn’t remember the syntax of it. Oh well. Hopefully I’ll get most of the points on it.
Then I came back to my dorm room. Last night at the House meeting Sri brought something up about things on people’s door’s. I have up three pictures, one has a lesbian couple on it, the other has a str8 couple, and the last one has a gay couple… All of them are of the couple kissing. At the bottom of them it says “Everyone has a right to love.” Well apparently someone on the floor had a problem with that, and they complained to Sri, he talked about it in the house meeting and said that we can have anything on our doors we want. So after wards I talked to him and he actually encouraged me to keep them up there. He also told me who it was that bitched. But back to the story, when I got home tonight, the one with the gay couple had been ripped down. Ha, I put one right back up…. I’ve got a supply of them.
Stupid homophobic people. They can’t beat me.