Nov 18, 2001

Nov 18, [Shawn Mullins, "You Mean Everything To Me"]

Ok, so this weekend has been really long and really great. Friday Adam,

and I went out with Mary, Mary, and Beven ::shudders::. It was alot of fun,

but Beven just creaped me the hell out. Gross. I won’t really go into what

all happened there, it was the basix downtown stuff that I do every weekend,

so it was great.

Saturday night there was supposed to be that lonid shower, so I stayed

at Adam’s house. We watched movies, and had a good time just talking about

stuff. About 3:30 we went out and it was all cloudy so we said screw this

and went to bed. There’s just something about sleeping with him that makes

things so great. All my worries in the world disappear and this constant

pressure that’s on my heart, and mind is gone. It’s just so relaxing to

sleep with him in my arms. To know that the person I love is so close to

me. I just love it so much. I wish that we were still in a relationship,

and that we could sleep together more offten. It’s just such a great feeling

to wake up in the morning with him there. And to look into this eyes. God,

there just aren’t words to describe it.

But speaking of relationships. I’m probably blowing things a bit out of

the water, but it’s something that surprised me. On Friday night I parked

my car next to his in the Hy-Vee parking lot. Well when we came out, Adam

goes, “Look, it’s boyfriend and boyfriend’s Saturn’s.” And that coming out

of his mouth just really surprised me. I don’t know if it’s something he

meant to say, or what.

Other then that, I haven’t really done much this weekend. Lots of good

times with Adam and such. That’s about it.

I’m tired now, so I’m going to go to bed, night all.

Nov 15, 2001

Nov 15, [Backstreet Boys, "Larger Than Life, Dance Remix"]

Is it really Nov out there? It sure doesn’t seem like it, I could almost

go for wearing shorts, but I know no one wants to see that, so I wont. lol.

Not much has really been going on the last couple days. Yesterday I didn’t

do shit, well ok I did get a lot done, but it doesn’t seem like I did shit.

I got Greymatter working, so I’ll be switching over to that the first of

Dec. Then I started changing all my pages over to PHP. That’s fun. Well

not really, cause the find and replace isn’t working right, so I have to

go in and replace code in everyfucking thing. And dreamweaver doesn’t render

it properly for some reason which I have yet to figure out, so I’ve got

to get that fixed. I think one I get Greymatter up and working I should

be able to do a little more PHP work. I’m not entirly sure how that’s going

to work though.

Adam hasn’t been online near as much as he usually is and that’s sad. I

didn’t get to talk to him at all Tuesday, and I only got to talk to him

for like 10 minutes yesterday. :'( Oh well. I get ALL next week. We’re going

to go see that Harry Potter movie and Life As A House. Both are supposed

to be good movies.

Julian and I also went to that meeting now. I forget what it was called,

but it was fun. There were two hot guys there 🙂

I don’t think my roommates left the room in like a couple days now.

I got my Accounting test back. I did a hell of alot better then I thought

I would.

Oct 14, 2001

Oct 14, [Rent, "Seasons Of Love"]

Seasons of Love is right.

So this weekend has really sucked. Adam’s been really busy working all

weekend, and we went out both nights. Not that that sucked. I enjoyed going

out with him. But I’m sad that we didn’t get any personal time together

that we could just hang out with each other and talk about things. I miss

not being able to do that. Also Saturday night I get really pissy with him,

and I hurt his feelings and I feel really about that. I mean, he did nothing

to deserve that from me, other people had pissed me off and I was taking

it out on him, and I feel so bad for doing that to him. I love him and I

can’t beleive that I did that to him at all. Another bad thing about this

weekend is that we didn’t get to spend as much time together as we usually

do. He worked all day today, and he worked yesterday. Friday however was

really cool. We went out for his b-day, which he wasn’t really having that

great of time cause Melinda and Rob were yelling at him all day for stuff,

you can go read about that on his page here.

But then we went out to Villige Inn with Andi, Leah, and some other people

and had a really good time there, the waitress was really cool and we had

a bunch of fun. After that Leah, Andi, Adam and I went down town and hung

out tell 1am. It was good times.

This weekend has also been full of much yelling in the house. I woke up

both days to my dad yelling about random things. I didn’t really care. I’m

also trying to buy a new car and he’s being of no help in that area either.

Gwar. I don’t really want to get into that right now though.

I didn’t get to talk to Angel this weekend either, 🙁

Adam’s mom got me some cool stuff while she was in AZ, it was really cool

to hang out and talk to her for a while about that. She invited me to come

with them next year. If I can save enough money I might think about that.

But the thing is that it’s during the school year and missing a week of

school would be really bad.

I got a new HUB!!!!

Not much else really going on though….

Mandy and I went out tonight, that was really cool. We went to a movie

and hang out at Hy-Vee and talked to Adam. Good times there. Ok, I’m off

to bed now, I’m dead tired….

Sept 27, 2001 #2

Sept 27, #2 [Beach Boys, "Wouldn’t It Be Nice"]

Ok, so I’m so stressed out right now. I just want to scream and scream

and scream and then scream some more. I’ve got so much HW to do right now.

I’ve got two tests next week, Soc on Monday and Acct on Tues. Grrr. I’ve

got Econ due on Tues as well and I’ve got an English thing due on Monday.

Why’s it that everything is due on Monday or Tuesday. RARR. I’ve got math

to do as well, but I can do that during class, so I’m not really going to

count that, but it’s still there as something that has to be done. I told

them today that I wasn’t going to be in to work next Tues. It’s cool working

at a place that you set your own schedule. It’s cool.

Speaking of work. I know alot of people wonder what the hell it is that

I do. Well here’s your answer:

That’s a link to a movie about what we do there. Well, it really only covers

one of the programs that we sponsor, but this is what I’m working on right

now, Digitalizing all the promos that we have and other such stuff. Hey

all you people that have been in AiS. You should recognize that video, and

alot of the people in it (Omar, Lindsey, Sara Luke, Lude Rolfes, etc.) Good

times.

Sept 25, 2001

Sept 25, [The Doors, "The End"]

So 12 hours after I left my dorm room this morning, I’m just returning.

Grrr. I hate Tuesday’s cause they are such a long day, but today, today

would have been a FUCKING PERFECT day had I not had to work all day.

Things I LOVE about Fall: The cool, perfect sweater wearing weather, the

perfect sleeping temp, the changing leaves, the crunch of the leaves on

the ground as you walk, the smell of firewood in the fireplace, the perfect

sunsets and sunrises, there’s just so much that I love about this time of

year.

Today Adam and I had a really long talk. He’s not doing too well. I’m here

for him and he knows that, so we’re talking about everything. I hope he

gets better soon. I don’t like seeing him like this.

Work was work today. I sat around for most of the day cause I was encoding

stuff on all my machines that I use, All four of them. It took all day to

encode all the shit that I had to get done, once I get the ports in the

firewall opened I’ll show you what I’ve been doing. I saw funny movies of

Omar, Sarah Luke, Lindsey, and a bunch of other NP’s today. I laughed at

them, and so did Barb. I see how people that sit in offices all day get

fat. It’s really easy to just sit there and munch on things and no realize

it. I’m going to have to stop taking lunch to work.

I took my roll of B&W film in today. They said it’s going to take 7

days to get it back, bastards. I wanted it done in the normal 2 day service.

I don’t understand why it takes so much longer. Neither did the techy that

was working.

I guess that’s all for today. I’ve got a big test tomorrow that I don’t

want to study for, and I’ve got the alliance meeting, and I’ve got the Career

Fair that I have to go to for a damn class. Grrrrr.

I can’t wait tell Oct. 😉