Tag: grandma

I’m going to prom… After wondering for so long, he asked. I’m going. It’s in early April. I dunno, how’s this work? When do you get your tux… Do I get him a flower thing… I don’t even know what those things are called. lol. But I’m going. It’ll be fun.

In completely different news. I switched over my nameservers on the registrar. So I don’t know if my website will work tomorrow or not. I guess we’ll see won’t we.

I also got the following e-mail (A forward) from my Aunt…

(From Belinda to Sheila):
On Sun, 3 Mar 2002 18:17:29 -0600 “B. Lawson” writes:
Talked to grandma said your mom was feeling pretty good still not going
out much. She said Jim’s came down last weekend to help her out. She
also said Chris and his boyfriend came down this weekend to help her
around the house and cook. I bet she was grateful for that. Well, I
better go, Talk to you later.

Belinda

(From Shiela to Belinda):
Yeah, it was Jim’s turn last weekend. I was (along with Beckie) going to go down this weekend, but thew eather got bad, so stayed home. I talked to Chris and told him to change sheets on the beds. Glad he and Adam were there!!

(From Belinda to Sheila):
No, haven’t heard from him since I came home from grandma’s. Chris isn’t gay is he? It was just the way grandma said boyfriend? Just wondering

(From Sheila to Me):
Read this starting at the bottom with the message from Belinda to me and
then let me know how you would like for me to respond. Dwaine says that
GG is just using the old fashion term and doesn’t know anything. His
suggestion was to ask if Belinda didn’t run around with “girlfriends”
when she was your age.

Yes Dwaine knows, he guessed a long time ago.

Sheila

It’s all crazyness. I dunno what to do about it all really.

Well, today’s been really long. I got up about 7:30 for some odd reason. I just woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep, so I got up. The showers were warm this morning which was nice. I went to breakfast and then came back to my room where I complided apache and some other random stuff. It’s nice having time in the morning to work on that kind of stuff. I went to classes about 10:30 and it’s been a pretty good day as to class work and such. I’ve been running the hell all over campus though. After my ComS 207 class I went out to Hawthorn to get an app thing to live out there next semester. Then I went back to Coover to class, then after that I had a doctors appointment so I had to go to the doctor. I got out of there about 3:30 and had half an hour before my next class started so I went to the library to get a copy of The Wall Street Journal but I couldn’t find the fucking thing in the periodicals section. So I went to my lab for ComS. It was a waste of time. She went over the same thing that he went over for the last two days. “How to use project Vincent.” All of which I already knew how to use in the first place. So it’s been a waste. So after that I went to the library and went an asked where The Wall Street Journal was, and I found out that they keep it behind the bloody counter. So yeah. I found it.

I got back here about 5:15 or so. And now I’m just here. I’ve got to do some MIS 330 work here soon, but I’m not in the mood to right now. I dunno. I should call my grandma, maybe I’ll do that after 7:00 so that I can use my cell phone and get my $30 a month worth out of it.

At the doctor today, she asked how I’d been feeling and I told her that my bf said, “You’ve been bitchy lately.” She got a good chuckle out of that one. She’s a funny lady. But yeah, she said that the meds I’m on will cause irritability, and also with the stress that I’ve been under lately with the whole car thing, she said it would probably be worse then normal. But after I’ve been on the meds for a couple more weeks that’ll go away. So that’s good.

I can’t wait tell this weekend. I’m going to use the rest of my film and it should be just a good weekend to hang out with Adam.

Well Christmast #4 is over with. I’m done with the evil Christmas holiday for yet another year. Tomorrow is New Years. Adam goes back to school soon. This break, this year, has really flown by. I hope 2002 has more to bring. Christmas wasn’t really all that bad. Things were pretty good actually. I don’t think anyone asked me if I had a girlfriend. Andy got bitched at about his gf situation, which I found humerous. And yeah, pretty good times. Beak forgot my XY’s though, that made Adam sad cause he was looking forward to the newest one. As was I. But I should get them soon cause she said she was going to mail them to me. One thing that really pissed me off though was my grandma. She was just like being grandmaish, but it annoyed me. “Why don’t you come down more often. Why do you want to go. Why blah blah blah” It got really annoying. Oh well. I might stop by sometime over spring break, maybe we’ll make that an overnight on the way back from where ever we go for spring break. We’ll see.

People have been annoying me alot lately. I won’t complian about it though.

Tonight I’m going over to Adam’s house, they got their computer back, so I’m going to go play security man. It’ll be fun times.

I got my CD burner working, so I’m happy. Now I just have to get it to read from my DVD so that I can copy CD’s. Maybe I’ll just steal an old CD-ROM from someone else….

Oct 8, #2 [Enigma, "The Voice Of Enigma]

Ok, so now that I’m in a semi-non emotional break down state. I’ll talk.

So this weekend was Big Gay Porn weekend for those of you that didn’t know.

Since Adam’s not old enough to buy porn he couldn’t go in, well I wanted

him to go in and help pick it out, so we called up my cousin Steven who

lives just down the road, cause well he has blonde haid and everything.

So he came over and let us borrow his ID, it was funny. We told him we were

going to go Clubbing. It was so funny he was giving us tips as to how not

to get caught and everything. He’s cool. So we went and bought porn, that

was quite the experience. The guy that checked us out, didn’t just check

us out, but flirted like mad with us, and he was all nasty and old and shit.

Ewwww.

On Sunday Abbie and Adam’s grandma came over, that was amusing times, they

asked what Adam’s rainbow sticker that was wierd and akward times there.

Angel called today, that was good times. Well what prompted her to call

wasn’t. I pretty much had a huge emotional break down today. And I needed

someone to talk to, so I called her and left a message. I’m sure that about

all she could make out was sobs, so she called back and we talked a little

bit. By the time she call though I was a bit better and really didn’t want

to talk about it again cause I would have just had another crazy emotional

breakdown. I also talked to Matt again today, that was funny.

Speaking of Matt, today’s his b-day, so yesterday Adam and I called him

and wished him Happy B-day. That was really funny cause he didn’t know who

we were, funny times there.

Bed times, this past weekend Adam and I slept together, not "slept"

together, we just slept in the same bed. That was really nice, but you know

back when he, Angel, and I slept together he cudled with her, and not me.

This weekend, he slept with his back to me. That hurt my feelings in a way.

I know that our relationship is over as bf’s but I mean still. His touch

just makes me happy…..

Alright, so I’m talking to him now, and he’s just pissing me off. I’m going

to go. . .

I’ll eventually get this weekends post up.

Sept 30, [Linkin Park, "The End"]

So it’s Sunday night and here I am just getting back to my dorm room. I

really have alot to talk about here tonight, but unfortunatlly most of it’s

private. I really wish that I could talk about what’s going on in my life

here, but I just can’t outside forces won’t let me and I don’t want to break

the trust that people have in me.

I was awaken this morning very rudly by my aunt. I didn’t get home tell

about 3 this morning and then I mooped around the house tell about 4, so

I was planning on sleeping in tell like 2 or so so that I could get up and

leave and not have to put up with the family. But no about 11, my aunt came

into my room (luckely (sp) I had heard her coming up the stairs so I covered

up, since I was sleeping nude) with her stupid little dog and she put that

damn dog on my bed and let it jump all over me and lick my face. I just

said, "Go Away" and pulled the covers up over my head. She took

the dog and left, I went back to sleep. About 15 minutes laters, she came

up and did the same fucking thing. So I decided I might as well get up.

I got up, went and took my shower and went down stairs. I got down there

and she said "Like your wake up call." I was like, what the fuck

kinda question was that, would _YOU_ fucking like it if I came into your

room when you were trying to sleep and let Gordy jump all over you and lick

you. I just gave her an evil look and went about my business. There was

supposed to be an article in the paper today with Adam in it. I couldn’t

find it. Well my aunt stayed tell like 1 or so, and then she left. About

45 minutes after she left my Grandma and my other aunt showed up. I found

out that my cousin Steve was moving into the same park thing that Adam lives

in. Actually, he lives like just like down the street from Adam now, so

that’s freaky, then shortly after they got there, he got there and we were

talking and I found out that he come to Ames all the time and hangs out

on College Ave, which is just like a couple blokcs from here. It’s freaky

as hell. But yeah. I left there about 2:45 or so and went over to Adam’s.

We went out to The Garden tonight, LOTS of hot guys there. It was good times.

Now I’m back here on campus and I’m really fucking depressed. I so don’t

want to be here at all. This week for some reason leaving Adam is just hitting

me really hard. I had to stop along the interstate cause I started crying

so badly. I love him so much, and we’ve got this connection that I could

never have with anyone else. I just wish that we could be back together.

I mean I love the relationship that we’re in, but sometimes. Sometimes I

just wish we had more.