April 25, 2001

april 25, #3. so i was on some site and there was this big thing that was

babbling something about free readings and such, so i was like, what the hell.

well here’s what it came up with: Section 1: General Personality

Characteristics You are a freedom-loving, strong-willed, and independent-minded

individual, and you insist upon living your own life as you see fit, even

if that means ignoring convention and tradition. In personal relationships

you cannot be owned or possessed, and while you are willing to share yourself

with another, you do not always adjust easily to the emotional give and take

of a close relationship. Though intellectually open, you can be enormously

stubborn, opinionated, and inflexible on a one-to-one level. You have strong

convictions and feelings about fairness and equality, and you try to live

by your ideals, but your ideals about how people SHOULD treat one another

don’t always take into account human weaknesses, differences, and needs. You

probably dislike sentimentality and traditional gender roles and “games”.

You are fair, intelligent, objective, rational and often let your head rule

rather than your heart. You seem rather self-sufficient and detached emotionally

because you are capable of putting aside your personal feelings and viewing

things dispassionately. But once you make up your mind on an issue, you are

difficult to sway and can be rather dogmatic. You think in broad terms and

are concerned with the world beyond your own personal sphere – your town,

nation, or even planet. You are likely to become involved in community affairs,

social organizations, and groups of all kinds, or to have a keen interest

in such. You enjoy being part of a group endeavor and often find yourself

organizing, managing, or supervising group activities. Forward-looking and

progressive, you harbor great hopes for the future. You stay current and up

to date, and respond to contemporary cultural trends, both in terms of personal

style and in terms of ideas. When young you were very influenced by your peers

and by group pressures and by all the “latest crazes”. You have an experimental

mind and are attracted by the novel. Your strong points include your concern

for human welfare and social betterment, your sense of fairness and democratic

spirit, and your vision. Your faults are your stubbornness and inflexibility,

and a tendency to be very obtuse and insensitive when it comes to personal

feelings and human needs. Section 2: Mental Interests and Abilities You are

a progressive thinker, open and receptive to new technologies and breakthroughs

in science, and the latest discoveries in any field. You have high expectations

and a deep belief that mankind’s problems can be solved through the use of

our creative intelligence and inventive mind. You have no patience for those

whose conservative, unimaginative outlook limits their capacity to find solutions

and envision a better future. You also like to keep abreast of current developments

in world affairs, for you instinctively know that what happens in one part

of the world affects everyone. You have a strong humanitarian impulse. Practically

speaking, you have an aptitude for organization and enjoy being involved in

cooperative endeavors or businesses that are contemporary and innovative.

and ya know, that really describes me alot, lol.

March 23, 2001

march 23. so everyone has been asking me what my fantasy is

lately, gee i don’t know where they got that idea from, to ask me that is.

so last night i wrote a short story, about 3 pages, about my fantasy, and

it got me thinking. thinking about all the great times i had camping with

a freind, nathan. he was in scouts too, he was my ASPL, assistant senior patrol

leader. and as that we were always together, at meetings, on campouts, in

our free time, he spent many weekends camping at my house. every year at summer

camp we would share a tent, everytime the troop went camping we would share

a tent. great times. and then one day, he just kinda disapreared. his parent

said he was doing bad in school, so they just pulled him out of scouts, i

haven’t seen or heard from him in over a year now. we had some great times, like when we went winter camping with the troop,

it would always get really cold, so we would cuddle up next to each other

to keep warm, and when he stayed at my house, we would both sleep in my bed.

he was really cute too. i’ll explain the picture, we were out camping and had made a kite out

of paper, but we didn’t have any string to fly it with, so we got out a fishingpole

and flew the kite with that, it works really well actually, and for being

just a paper kite that thing went really high, lol. and like at summer camp

we would both go up and take showers together, and when we got back to the

tent, we would put up like a barrier or something and we would both change

on our own side, but one of us would always rip it down, it was a race to

see who could get dressed faster and who ever did, took down the towl that

seperated our ten side. we even went skinny dipping late one night in my pool,

cause he hadn’t brought swiming trunks, so we were just like well, it’s dark,

we’ve seen each other before. but yeah, it was just like, all of a sudden

his parents cut off all contact, they stopped calling, they wouldn’t return

phone calls from anyone in scouts. they just disapered. i really miss him,

we were close friends. i wonder what happened to him. last i heard his dad

was drinking a bit to much and was out of the country alot on work. nathan

was really depressed and they had him on a whole bunch of drugs, and he was

failing most of his classes, which i can’t really see, cause he was a really

smart kid. i would like to know what happened to him. just to know. ok so

i bet you’re asking what’s up with the underlining and shit, cause it’s really

hard to read things with underline. well in here somewhere is a link to my

story, i was to lazy to look up the code to make the unerlining go away, so

i just underlined the whole thing. but be warned that finding the link is

only half the battle. you’ll have to figure out the word processor that i

use. i know julian should be able to open it, cause he said a while back that

he uses the same one that i do. or at least he did. that might be to much

of a hint, so i’m going to shut up now. ok so

i do realize that it can be opened in more well known word things, but it’s

really messy, so yeah. ok update again, like five minutes later, so i realize

that abiword docs can be opened in IE too, so i guess if you find the link

you find the doc.

Feb 21, 2001

my econ professor is totaly nuts. we had a test today

in econ, yeah. and he would like ask the same question five times. it was

so messed up, but it was pretty easy, i think i did good on it. i hope i did

good on it. it’s snowing again here too. damnit snow in feb is just nasty.

redundant, yucky, snow in december and jan is ok, but snow this late in feb

is just nasty, and it’s coming down really hard too, i like the last hour

or so we have gotten like an inch or two. i also have some wierd people on

my buddy list, i don’t even know who they are. it’s like, hmmm. i know i added

them for a reason but why are they there, and who are they? where did i find

them at? right now i have about 5 that i have no idea who they are and like

10 others that i have just a vauge idea of who they are. but i’m not really

sure who they are or why they are there. i also got a letter from my home

camp the other day. they are basically saying that if i want to work at camp

this summer all i have to do is call and i got the job. i think it would be

a cool job if i don’t get one else where. so yeah, i have a test tonight to.

i really don’t want to go take it, it should be pretty easy but accounting

is just one of thost classes that you don’t like the tests in cause it’s just

copying numbers from one place to another and it’s just redundant and boring

shit. i don’t see why it’s a required course. i think i’ll go read some of

the book here soon. i should really get to work on that. XY is like the coolest

magazine in the world. i love it. they have all kinds of great articles and

such in it. once i get some free time where i know the r won’t be in i’ll

scan a bunch of the articles and put them up, cuase some of them are just

really good. i currently have 7,429 e-mails. i need to clean some of that

out sometime, but i really don’t want to. it’s to much work to go trough and

see what i need to get rid of. they go back over 2 years. hehe, i know most

of them i don’t need. but yeah. it’s cool.

Jan 29, 2001

it’s snowing again, it’s been raining all morning and

now it’s snowing, yeah, rain and snow. great weather conditions, we’re suposed

to get lik 13 inches tonight, yippy fun. well not much has been happening

today, or really yesterday for that matter. it’s monday, nothing ever happens

on mondays. or weds, or fridays, cause i only have one class those days, but

i guess it’s all good, i have lots of free time, i should get a job ya know,

but there’s nothing good in this town, it’s all c-store work. and i’ve done

more then my fair share of it. you would think that a college that’s ranked

#9 in the counrty as one of th most wired would have higher tech companies

in close range, but no it’s all in SF an hour away, and the cost of driving there doesn’t really help to get a job there. cause it’s 55 miles there and

55 miles back. and at 80-85 miles an hour, that burns alor of gas. and with

the prices they are round here at 1.60 and up, it can really put a hole in

your pocket. o well, i think i can make it tell like summer before i HAVE

to get a job. i still haven’t herad anything back from that offer in philly,

i would really love to get it. that’s the first scout camp in the nation.

it would be tons of fun to work there. but then chris k. my moss from last

summer has been bothering me to come work there all summer this year. but

the thing is is that pete is the camp director and he’s a total ass. alot

of the employees that worked for him last year WON’T go back to work for him.

they even went so far as to send me an app without asking me, i’m sure kaye

told them to, but still. i really don’t want to work in Iowa this summer,

i don’t want to live in iowa or the midwest this summer, i just want out of

this part of the country. i was going to do accouting today, but then i started

reading it and got bored, so maybe i’ll do it tomorrow just before i go to

class. lol. hope it’s not to hard. FUCK, the power just went off, i hope that

doesn’t keep up. hehe, luckly i have battery backup, but that means that theservers

are all down now, cause they don’t. the dumb fuckers. again you would think

that the #9 most wired college would have batteries on thier servers. o well

guess they don’t. i’ll have to wait a bit now to get this posted. i’ve been

really tired lately. i don’t know what’sup. i’ve been getting enough sleep,

and not too much. hmm, o well. it will go away, that’s my theory. lol. i’m

going to shut down for bit, the power keeps going in and out. i’ll upload

this once i getback.

Dec 10, 2000

Dec 10, i guess, i think it’s sunday. yeah. well yeah, yesterday

was great. but today’s sucked ass so far. i got up early, i don’t know why,

but i layed in bed for hours, just thinking about danny, again, wishing i

had him here just so icould cuddle close to him and hold him. he’s so sweet.

i love him. but yeah, it’s 3:30 now and he hasn’t been on yet. and i’ve been

trying to write this damn speech for speech class but i just can’t get it

the hell done. i’ve got so much shit to go through and i just can’t pick it

apart. and this 25 words per card shit. YEAH RIGHT. fuck no.i haven’t even

done my hair yet today, i did shave, i needed that, lol. called my G&G

to find out what’s going on for christmas they STILL don’t know. but o well.

i guess i’ll find out later sometime. i wish danny would hurry up and get

on i want to talk to him so badly. i love him.well it’s bloddy hell freezing

here. the high today was -1 with winds chills like -45 or something. it’s

bloody hell cold I’ve got my sweatshirt on my jeans and two pairs of socks

and i’m still cold. i wish danny were here to warm me up. o well i’m going

to go and try to work on that speech some more. prob won’t get much done but

i’ll try, later.