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Letter From Andrew

On Aug 1, 2004, at 9:18 PM, mcgee103@chapman.edu wrote:
>It seems as though I can’t get through to you any other way. Maybe if I
>e-mail, you will take the time to read it through and try and understand
>how I feel.

>All I wanted to do today was talk to you. I was planning on telling you
>how I wished you had been able to come today, and that all day I thought
>about how much fun we had last year. Then we get on the phone, you get
>annoyed/upset or whatever about the supervisor thing and again about the
>ride thing. I just wanted to talk, and you seemed upset….

Yes, well I wish that I could have been there too. I spent a lot of time sitting and thinking this morning about how fun it was last year and how much fun it could have been this year too. I’m sorry that I apparently always sound upset to you, but how can I not be. Like I’ve said, every time we talk, it’s like you’re breaking up with me again, and again and again. And I just want to call you honey and say I love you, because I do so much. And it just hurts to not be able to do any of that.

>You know, last night I was so upset I had to cry myself to sleep. I can’t
>be certain, but I’d think you had to as well.

I know, and I did. And I hated that things happened that way, because I called to have a good talk and to actually talk to you because I know that we hvaen’t had much time to talk lately.

>Then you finally called, I was excited to finally talk to you and you just
>seemed upset about something. I thought we’d get to talk for awhile, and
>then suddenly you were leaving for Jon. And you know what, if you really
>want to know, I’m fucking jealous of him. JEALOUS. You are doing things
>with him that you always did with me, you are spending more time with him
>than you EVER spent with me, and you know what, it drives me crazy inside.
>Obviously I want you to have friends, but he just seems to ALWAYS be
>there. You never can talk to me because of him. You always have to go b/c
>he’s coming there, you guys or going out, or whatever.

Ok, first off. Yeah I’m hanging out with him a lot because I really like him and I really like his friends and I like his company and hanging out with him not ONLY gets me OUT of my apartment where I would go insane if I had to sit there alone with the roomie all the time, but it also helps me keep my mind off of you and how much it hurts to not have you in my life anymore. I’m also sorry that you’re so jealous of him. But if you recall just not that long ago when we were still dating, you were the one that was was always saying that YOU didn’t want to see ME every day of the week.

Sorry that I hang out with him a lot, but he’s a great friend. And I really hope that once you get here we can all hang out and have as much fun as he and I do, and as much fun as you and I used to.

>As we hung up, I was so frustrated and upset I didn’t know what to do. I
>wanted to put my fist through the wall. Instead I just listened to my
>music, layed on the bed, and cried for a few minutes. I texted you to let
>you know how I felt, and no response. You act like you don’t care. What I
>feel from you is that you don’t care. And I don’t think you understand how
>much it hurts me. I still care about you as much as I ever did… but you
>seem not to. When we were dating and you lived in CA, you always seemed to
>make time for me. Now that we aren’t I feel like I’ve just been swept to
>the wayside.

First, I DID txt you back. When we were dating and I lived here, I didn’t have any friends to do anything with. Secondly I honestly felt more obligated to make time for you. But now as ‘friends’ I don’t really feel like I should have to MAKE time for you everynight like I used to. Sure I still want to talk to you every night, but I don’t really feel like I should have to take an hour out of my day to talk to you every day. And before you get extremely pissed about me saying that…..

Think back to when YOU were here and how many times did I call and want to talk to you and you said that you couldn’t talk because you were hanging out with friends or getting ready to go out, or something along those lines and how many nights did we go with JUST saying good night to each other. And that was while we were STILL DATING!

So I honestly don’t think you have any right to get mad at me for being busy and feeling like I don’t have to make as much time for you as you seem to think that I should. And once you get here, that’s not going to change. I’m not going to stop hanging out with Jon all the time. Sure I’ll gladly make time for you, but probably not as much as if we were still together. Right now I don’t think that I’ll want to come over every night anymore like I was planning on.

>I’m not trying to make you feel bad, and I’m not trying to put a guilt
>trip on you. But I honestly feel like I’m doing all the work. I guess I
>just expected it to be the opposite–since I broke up with you, I figured
>you would be calling me a lot, wanting to talk to me, being enthusiastic.
>But it’s the other way around. I feel unwanted. I don’t know how to
>express it correctly. I feel so many things. I feel like so many of our
>conversations have ended on a bad note, and I’m so upset after some of
>them, and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve been getting
>frustrated lately because you seem so indifferent. Like you don’t care
>what happens, like you don’t care to see me, like you don’t care to try
>and patch things up.

I too feel like so many of our converstations have ended on bad notes, and it sucks. I hate it every time that we hang up the phone mad at each other. I sit here at work and thinkg about how much I hate being mad at you. And how I hate feeling like you’re mad at me.

And honestly, if I hadn’t had Jon to talk to, I would be calling you a hell of a lot more and crying my eyes out, etc. You have NO IDEA how much he hears about you and how much I talk about you and how much I tell him that I wish you hadn’t broken up with me. You have NO IDEA.

You should also know by now how I deal with things like this, and knowing how it’s delt you should have known that I wouldn’t be calling you a lot or wanting to really talk very much.

Anyways, I hope that _I_ explained more of how I feel and hopefully didn’t piss you off, because that’s not what this is about.

I told Jon tonight that tomorrow I’m reserving for you. So feel free to call me when ever you want to.

>Look, I’m sorry I hurt you. You know that I am. But I’m hurting too, and
>recently, I’ve been hurting a lot. Did you know that what’s going on
>between us is the first and last thing I think about every day? Because it
>is. I can’t get it off my mind. And I guess I get the impression that you
>never think about it, and that hurts me so much to think that you aren’t
>also thinking about me.

>Well, I hope you will think all of this over. I also hope for a response.
>I did this to try and explain further how I feel, and hopefully get us
>started down A road to reconciliation. Whether that means just being best friends
>again, or being boyfriends again, I don’t know. But anythings better than
>what we have now.

>Again, I’m not trying to upset you. Please just let me know how you feel.
>Regardless of what is going to happen in the long run, I want the two days
>I spend with you to be happy. I want us to work out as much as possible
>before I get there. I want us to shop, and eat, and talk, and have a great
>time.

>I care about you, Chris. I truly truly do.

Happy Sys Admin Day!

Getting the most from your IT department

1. When you call us to have your computer moved or fixed, be sure to leave it buried under half a ton of postcards, baby pictures, stuffed animals, dried flowers, bowling trophies and children’s art. We don’t have a life, and we find it deeply moving to catch a fleeting glimpse of yours.

2. Don’t write anything down. Ever. We can play back the error messages from here.

3. When an IT person says he’s coming right over, go for coffee. That way you won’t be there when we need your password. It’s nothing for us to remember 300 user passwords.

4. When you call the help desk, state what you want, not what’s keeping you from getting it. We don’t need to know that you can’t get into your mail because your computer won’t power on at all.

6. When IT support sends you an e-mail with high importance, delete it at once. We’re just testing.

7. When an IT person is eating lunch at his desk, walk right in and spill your guts right out. We exist only to serve.

8. Send urgent email all in uppercase. The mail server picks it up and flags it as a rush delivery.

9. When the photocopier doesn’t work, call computer support. There’s electronics in it. Ditto for the microwave, timeclock, and coffee maker. Hell, if it plugs in, we’re probably in charge of it anyway.

10. When you’re getting a NO DIAL TONE message at home, call computer support. We can fix your telephone line from here.

11. When you have a dozen old computer screens to get rid of, call computer support. We’re collectors.

12. When something’s wrong with your home PC, dump it on an IT person’s chair with no name, no phone number and no description of the problem. We love a puzzle.

13. When an IT person tells you that computer screens don’t have cartridges in them, argue. We love a good argument.

14. When an IT person tells you that he’ll be there shortly, reply in a scathing tone of voice: “And just how many weeks do you mean by shortly?”. That motivates us.

15. When the printer won’t print, re-send the job at least 20 times. Print jobs frequently get sucked into black holes.

16. When the printer still won’t print after 20 tries, send the job to all 68 printers in the company. One of them is bound to work.

17. Don’t learn the proper name for anything technical. We know exactly what you mean by “my thingy blew up”.

18. Don’t use on-line help. On-line help is for wimps.

19. If the mouse cable keeps knocking down the framed picture of your dog, lift the computer and stuff the cable under it. Mouse cables were designed to have 40lb of computer sitting on top of them.

20. If the space bar on your keyboard doesn’t work, blame it on the mail upgrade. Keyboards are actually very happy with half a pound of muffin crumbs and nail clippings in them.

21. When you get a message saying “Are you sure?” click on that Yes button as fast as you can. Hell, if you weren’t sure, you wouldn’t be doing it, would you?

22. When you find an IT person on the phone with his bank, sit uninvited on the corner of his desk and stare at him until he hangs up. We don’t have any money to speak of anyway.

23. Feel perfectly free to say things like “I don’t know nothing about that computer crap”. We don’t mind at all hearing our area of professional expertise referred to as crap.

24. When you need to change the toner cartridge in a printer, call IT support. Changing a toner cartridge is an extremely complex task, and Hewlett-Packard recommends that it be performed only by a professional engineer with a master’s degree in nuclear physics.

25. When you can’t find someone in the government directory, call IT Support.

26. When you have a lock to pick on an old file cabinet, call IT Support. We love to hack.

27. When something’s the matter with your computer, ask your secretary to call the help desk. We enjoy the challenge of having to deal with a third party who doesn’t know anything about the problem.

28. When you receive a 50MB movie file, send it to everyone as a mail attachment. We’ve got lots of disk space on that mail server.

29. Don’t even think of breaking large print jobs down into smaller chunks. Somebody else might get a chance to squeeze a memo into the queue.

30. When an IT person gets on the elevator pushing $100,000 worth of computer equipment on a cart, ask in a very loud voice: “Good grief, you take the elevator to go DOWN one floor?!?” That’s another one that cracks us up no end.

31. When you lose your car keys or go to lunch, send an email to the entire company. People down in Las Vegas like to keep abreast of what’s going on.

32. When you bump into an IT person at the grocery store on a Saturday, ask a computer question. We do weekends.

33. Don’t bother to tell us when you move computers around on your own. Computer names are just a cosmetic feature.

34. When you bring your own personal home PC for repair at the office, leave the documentation at home. We’ll find all the settings and drivers somewhere.

35. In no way do we believe that end-users are ungrateful. It hurts our feelings that one could even think such a thing on the basis of the above statements. In truth we wish to express our deepest gratitude to the hundreds of wonderful end-users portrayed herein, without whom none of this would have been remotely possible.

We truly love you, end-users, you spice up our lives no end.

Happy System Admin Day!

So what did everyone get me?!?!

PowerBook!

After like 4 hours on the phone, and debating a really nice price (And credit card hell)… I’m now the owner of a new Powerbook! Yay!

1.0 GHZ PowerPC G4, 12.1″ Screen, 256MB PC2100 SDRAM, 40GB ATA Drive, SuperDrive (DVD-R/CD-RW), 56K Modem, Built-In Bluetooth, 10/100 Ethernet, Mini-DVI Video Out, (2) USB 2.0, (1) FW400

I’m way excited… I also bought an extra 512 chip for it So it’ll have 768 RAM. An HP5150 printer, which is free after rebate. And an 80Gig External HD. And he also threw in an Airport card for free! Good times.

Today I hung drywall, then cheesecake… Now it’s Shrek time.

Laters all.

PS, I’m REALLY horny! Is it Wed yet? I’m going to make a list of all the boys we’re going to fuck this summer… If you want to be on it… Leave a message! 😀

Yucatan Grade Hell #2

Alright, so here’s what I’ve been up to…

I sent this e-mail to the rest of the class:
“Hello everyone,

Well the semester is over, and grades have recently been released. Yesterday
morning I happily checked my grades first thing when I get into work to see
what the grade fairy brought me for my wonderful last semester.

To my surprise, I must have gotten on the wrong side of the grading fairy for
this class and am very unhappy about what I got. After seeing my grade and
attempting to speak to June about it (that’s a whole nother story!) I decided
to see if anyone else was as surprised as I was about their grades.

I’ve already talked to a couple other people from our class, but if anyone
else was unhappy, please feel free to e-mail me and let me know so that we
can all go in and talk to them together.

Currently Mary is out of the country, and won’t be back until May 27th, so I
am setting up an appointment for May 28th.

Thanks,
Chris Black.”

To which I reveice replies from, Tyron, Omar and Kristen… And this was all by 11:00 AM! Within three hours of my inital e-mail. I’m excited to see if anyone else replies to me over the next couple days. I have also talked to Aaron and Liz and they were both also annoyed by thier grades.

I’ve asked each of them to contact a small army of people to let them know of the situtation.

I’ve sent this e-mail to Omar and Kristen:
“Kristen and Omar,
Hi. It seems as though almost everyone is upset about the grades they got in
this class. So far however it seems mine is the lowest, at a C-… Which I
feel is completely uncalled for. I participated in every activity except for
the Baseball game while there and went to every class but one, which I missed
for INTERVIEWS and is supposed to be excused.

When I talked with June she said that NO A’s were given. Which I feel is a bit
outrageous even by university standards there should be at least one A in a
class this size.

So far I’ve had 5 people besides myself reply that they were upset about thier
grades and almost everyone is in the same boat, that they can’t be in town
for the 28th and that June is neglecting to reply to people.

I think that those people who are upset need to e-mail the proper people to
get our voices heard and to see what can be done. I’ve contacted the dean,
who is apparently out of the office today, but his secretary said that we
should make an appointment with him after meeting with June, Yanira, and
Mary. “

And then this e-mail to MY College of Business Advisor:
“Dear Ann,
My name is Chris Blank and I graduated from ISU last weekend. Yesterday I went
to look at my grades and found that I received a C- in a class which I was
expecting at least a B+ in. I’ve attempted contact with the professor, and
she has been unhelpfull telling me that I must wait until May 27th before the
other professor returns to the country.

As you can imagine, I’m very upset with this low grade and wish to have it
ratified as soon as possible, or at least to understand WHY I got such a low
grade. I have also talked to my other classmates, and 5 of them have told me
that they too were unhappy with the grade they received.

I was wondering if there’s anything else that I can do. I feel that this
professor should be able to back up the grades which were handed out without
having to have the other professor in the country. I do understand wanting
the other professor in the meeting, however I and the other classmates want
some answers before the 27th (as most of us are leaving the state long before
that day).

I have put them in contact with Zora Zimmerman, but I’d just also like you to
be aware of the situtaion and also for some advice from you as to what we can
do.

Thanks Greatly,
Chris Black “

I guess it’s a wait and see game now about what happens.

Laters all.

Drywall and Moving!

So this weekend has been HORRIBLY long!

Friday night I went and picked up my Schedule. I work Monday 6-9:30. Tuesday on Call 5:30-9:00 and then Thursday 6-9. Not too bad I guess. I also bought some shorts and this REALLY cute polo and some Pattys day boxers which were $1.97! Yay for WAY CHEAP boxers.

After that I went home and spent the night reading a PILE of magazines which have been stacking up for the last two months. Thank god I fianlly have time to read them all. I’ve finally got to the new Adbusters too, which I’ve had since like early Feb. It’s not the best one this issue, but the history in it is really interesting. The US has sent troops to Latin america SO FUCKING much. I’m surprised Bin Laden isn’t based from there. lol.

Anyways, Saturday I got up early and went up to Shiela’s and fixed her computer. I hope it’s still working good. Left there about noon and came home. We started hanging drywall about 1:30 or so and did that tell 5:30. Drywall, ON THE CIELING! they were 12×4 sheets and they were fucking HEAVY! My back is killing me.

Went to bed early that night and then was up early this morning again. I sat around the house being in pain and then went over to Beak’s to meet her to help moved. We loaded up my car and then drove over to her new place, which is REALLY nice. Did that all day, and got free food.

After that I came back here and crashed. I’m dead tired. I still have to shower and shave. I’ve been getting more shit packed away and sorting more stuff out.

I’ve also been contemplating if I should do the whole picutre thing next weekend… You know, like yeah.

I also forgot to mention that Friday we had the Annual Krell graduation party… I got this really cute piggy bank and $45. I also took my bike in to get fixed, $60 right there. 🙁 I’ve been racking in the money though lately, so It’s not too bad. I’ve also been thinking about getting somehting like hydroxycut or something. Bryce says it actually works. We’ll see. I’m going to the gym tomorrow at 7, work at 8:30 and then work again at 6:30. My life is going to be hellish this summer.

Good thing Andrew will be here to help with things!

Well laters all.