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I need motivation!

I’m very un-motivated right now. I want to just sit in my apartment all the time and do nothing. Watch TV, mindless TV and do absolutely nothing. I’m getting so fed up with our governmental system and coming into work every day and not learning anything and usually not having anything to do. I’m fed up with stupid people who IM me and all they want is sex. I’m fed up with not being able to get funding for my startup. And I’m fed up with not being able to go to Java Joe’s/etc. Blah.

I want to just sit in my apartment and give up, give up on trying to change anything, because it doesn’t seem to be working.

I’m really annoyed by the fact that I’m always ignored at work. I ask for information and I rarely get it. I get things assigned to me with no explanation of what it is, or what I need to do with it. I get things assigned to me that I have no idea how to do, and when I ask for instructions on how to do it, the project gets taken away from me. It’s not my fault that I’m not here during the day when it would be easier for you to explain it. So why is it so hard for you to shoot me an e-mail with some basic instructions. I don’t need every step of every thing laid out. I just need some good clear basic steps to get things done. I’m a fairly smart person, or at least I think I am and can usually figure things out.

I’m also annoyed with our fucking goverenment. Apparently there was a nice little bill slipped in on some major budget bill which says that now EVERY school which recieves federal money, including colleges, etc. HAVE to spend the entire day of Sept 17th teaching about the constitution! Now, yes everyone SHOULD learn about it… But making it a federal LAW. That’s insane. Congress SHOULD NOT be able to tell schools when or WHAT they teach. This is obsurd! We really need a good presedent/congress to go in there and cut out all this bullshit legislation that’s been passed in the last 60 or so years.

I also really want to get some funding for my startup ideas. I know they’d be very profitable here in So Cal… But trying to find $600,000 is harder then one would think. There’s this one company that will find you money, but you have to pay them… I’m thiking about doing it. I mean it’s only $1,000. Whatever…. It’d be nice though to get that started before someone else has the idea.

Andrew and I have been talking nightly again. And it’s so good. I really missed that.

Night all.

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So I had that meeting with my boss yesterday and it went really well. We talked about things that could be improved.. Mostly about getting me more into the loop. As well as how we can handle on call issues. We’re going to come up with a new tiered on call schedule. So Oscar and I are like Tier 1, then Ben and Steve are tier 2 and then Murtaza, Eric and the developers are Tier 3 depending on what the problem is. It puts me on call twice as much as I’d want to be, but I think it’ll be ok. However it also means that any weekend deploys that are to happen on your oncall week are your job to do. But I guess that’s ok too.

I also talked to him about the computer, which I now have a nice big box next to my desk. The phone, which he talked about getting me Zac’s old one for now and working on the rest of that later. And the best news is that I got a raise, since I’m now “off” help desk and an official JR. Systems Admin!!! YAY! And it’s more then I was thinking it would be, but of course less then I was HOPING it would be. lol However, I found a great System Admin position at GeoLearning in WDM, so I’m going to apply for that still.

And as a good job note, I’ve already spent $400. lol. I went out today and bought a bluetooth mouse, three new shirts, Dick Van Dyke season 3, MST3k The essentials, QaF Season 4, and two new sets of sheets for my bed. 🙂 Don’t worry, after next month it’s ALL going to my savings! lol.

Also congress.. Whoopie.. Recently passed a new bill which basically allows DHS to set the state drivers licenses and how they look, and all that good stuff…. IT was passed 100-0 in the sen. I suggest everyone e-mail the stupid congress people and bitch them out. I already did. Apparently there’s even a nice clause in there that says the courts can’t interfere with this either.

The DHS should have NO RIGHT to tell the states how to design the state drivers licenses. It’s bascailly getting the DHS the NATIONAL ID CARD that they have been pushing for in a very indirect manner.

You should also go read this: Downsize DC

And last note: Idiots that BRAKE at GREEN lights need to be shot.


PS, I saw my hot boy at the gym today, and he was talking to someone in the locker room…. And he has a HOT accent! ::dies::

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What is WRONG with people!

Ok, what is wrong with people… Here are a few of todays top news storys:

1) Kids get fined $1,000 for handing out cookies to be nice

2) PA is going to fine you $50 if your underwear is showing

3) CA is banning bon fires

4) CA is banning cosmetic surgery for animals (IE, tail cuttings, ear cliping, AND CAT DECLAWING etc)

5) IA is banning spinning hubs

6) Kid gets supsended for bringing a butter knife to school to butter bread

7) Kid gets suspended for turning in a gun he found at a school bus stop

These are 5 good reasons why the law system here is fucked up… If these idiots in congress have enough time to bitch about such stupid things and to make laws about them… Then they clearly need less time in congress and less pay.

This country is turning into a moronic police state. And sadly, since most of the country follows Cali’s example, it’s going to be pretty bad. It seems you can’t fucking do anything here without breaking some law.

Gah! Let me off!

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“I’m Stupid, What About Group Marriges”

God, so last night I watched Larry King Live, and it was the funniest thing I’ve EVER seen. They had on there, The mayor of SF, a stupid republican who introduced the amendment, some idiot pastor and a hot hot gay boy, named Chad.

Anyways, it was very funny and everytime the rep would talk to the mayor, she’d be like, “What about group marriges, why aren’t you allowing those” and that was like the ONLY thing she said the whole time… Well that and saying that she was “Following the law”. She also said that the courts were stupid. Only in like 100 times more words!

The pastor was an idiot and everyone kept getting on him about seperation of church and state, and he just didn’t seem to get that idea, because everytime they talked to him he was like, “The bible says” or “God did this” or “Thye’re sinners, theywon’t get into heaven” To which Larry King said, “What if they don’t want into heaven, shouldn’t we let them get married while they are here on earth”.. That was a really good come back I thought.

The homo was kinda quiet, but really cute. And when he did speak he had really good points. No one could really rebut him…

I think this little snipit is REALLY good:

KING: All right, John, let me — let me move to other members of the panel. We have four members of the panel. I want to get everyone in. John, what do you say to those who say, What about Chad and the love of his life being together? Isn’t that better than, say, the heterosexual marriage where one of the partners cheats? Who is contributing more to the moral decay of the society, the adulterous husband with the female wife or the loving gay couple who don’t do that?

MACARTHUR: Yes, well, you’re asking me to do something I really can’t do, and make a judgment on which sin is better or worse than the other. We’ve suffered in this country from adultery, divorce, the abuse of children, pedophilia, you name it. I’m not going to classify those in rank. They’re sins, and they destroy the family. KING: And homosexuality is…

MACARTHUR: And homosexuality…

KING: … a sin to you.


KING: Therefore, it’s a choice.

MACARTHUR: It’s a choice you make. It’s a sinful choice.

KING: Did you make a choice to be heterosexual?

MACARTHUR: I don’t think I had to make a choice to be heterosexual. I think that’s a natural thing.

KING: Wait a minute. Wait a minute. In other words, one is a choice and one is not?


KING: So he was unlucky and you’re…

MACARTHUR: Because — because you’re not talking about — because it’s natural to be heterosexual. That’s built…

KING: What do you mean by natural?

MACARTHUR: Well, I mean, that’s the way God made us. That’s the normal…

KING: But if he doesn’t feel that way, what is he, then? He’s not a sinner. It wasn’t his decision.

MACARTHUR: Yes, I think it was his decision.

ALLEN: I would love, absolutely love for the pastor to point out for me when in my life I made that decision because I have to tell you, it caused a lot of pain in my family. It caused a lot of pain to me. It’s a very, very tough thing that I had to go through. I don’t remember making that decision. If I did, maybe can you point it out, but that wasn’t the case for me.


ALLEN: It’s who I am. You also said that it was in the fabric of the human being that — to understand that marriage was between a man and a woman and that’s what family was. It must not be because it’s not in the fabric of what who I am. It’s not the way I see it. I think families come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

MACARTHUR: Well, let me respond this way, Chad, and say it had to be in the fabric of humanity or you wouldn’t be here.

ALLEN: I believe that reproduction is. I’ll give you that. I absolutely believe that reproduction is. However, I think family, the definition of family and the definition of reproduction are very, very different things.

You can go read the whole transcript here.

It really was a good debate. And I was switching between that and the debate over exporting jobs in congress, which was also a good job. Apparently Bush wants to make McDonald type jobs a “manufacturing” job so that he can inflate the number of “manyfacturing” jobs in the US, since we have had the greatest loss during his presidency. The two democrats that were talking about it called it, “Traditional Manufacturing” and “McManufacturing”.

Speaking of McDonalds, did you all know that they also own Fazolis and Boston Market. Crazyness I do say! So now we can’t eat there anymore either. 🙁 Oh well. Not like I ate there alot anyways.

Anyways, before I did all of that, I wrote the first half of my second 1600 word paper. It’s going much better then the first paper, and I should be able to easily finish it tonight. Hopefully I’ll do as good on this one as I did on the last one. I’d like to get an A in that class… So far I’m on track to do that… I’ve got 22 out of the possible 25 points in there.

Umm, I didn’t do much else yesterday. My life is pretty boring as of late, same old stuff going on.

Though, I AM going to Cali in less then 9 days! Woot!

Anyways. I should go work now.
Laters all.

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He Needs to Be GONE!

President Bush condemned the Massachusetts court ruling on gay marriage on Wednesday, and conservative groups said the White House had informed them that the president would soon endorse efforts to pass an amendment to the United States Constitution defining
marriage to be between a man and a woman.

Mr. Bush, in a statement issued by the White House on Wednesday night, stopped just short of explicitly backing a change to the Constitution, but left little doubt that he is heading in that direction.

The ruling by the Massachusetts Supreme Judicial Court “is deeply troubling,” Mr. Bush said.

“Marriage is a sacred institution between a man and a woman,” he said. “If activist judges insist on re-defining marriage by court order, the only alternative will be the constitutional process. We must do what is legally necessary to defend the sanctity of marriage.”

Conservative activists who have been in touch with the White House on the issue said they now had no doubt that Mr. Bush had made up his mind to back their call for a constitutional amendment.

“After conversations in recent days with the appropriate people, I have absolutely no doubt the president will in fact take this step in order to ensure that marriage in the United States remains between a man and a woman,” said Gary Bauer, the conservative activist who was a Republican presidential candidate in 2000.

Mr. Bauer, who spent the last two days in meetings with conservative groups to develop a strategy for pushing an amendment, said he expected Mr. Bush to make an announcement “sooner rather than later.”

Glenn T. Stanton, a policy analyst for the conservative Christian group Focus on the Family, said its founder, Dr. James C. Dobson, heard in a conversation on Tuesday night with the president’s senior adviser, Karl Rove, that Mr. Bush had decided to back an amendment.

“We heard last night that President Bush is going to come out very clearly advocating the passage of a federal marriage amendment and he is looking for the opportunity to do that,” Mr. Stanton said on Wednesday. “It is not a question of if but when.”

As the issue has raced through the courts in Massachusetts and other states – and risen to the top of the agenda of conservative groups, thereby becoming a more pressing political issue for him – Mr. Bush has moved step by step since last summer toward supporting a federal constitutional amendment.

White House officials would not confirm that Mr. Bush had made up his mind, but they said they would not discourage
reporters from drawing the conclusion that the Massachusetts ruling was exactly what Mr. Bush was thinking of when he warned in his State of the Union address last month about judges ignoring the will of the people on the issue.

“If judges insist on forcing their arbitrary will upon the people, the only alternative left to the people would be the constitutional process,” Mr. Bush said in the State of the Union speech.

Mr. Bush has tried since becoming governor of Texas to position himself as a new kind of conservative who can appeal to the political center. His statements on gay marriage have always been carefully respectful of gay men and women, and his reluctance to throw his weight behind an amendment reflected in part a desire not to alienate moderate voters.

Many social conservatives, though, have been impatient with the president on the issue, pressing him to take a stand. Mr. Bush’s conservative base is especially important to him in this election year because his political strategists say that his re-election could hinge much more on his ability to turn out the vote among conservative voters than on winning over a diminishing pool of more moderate swing voters.

There have been signs of restlessness among conservatives over Mr. Bush’s willingness in the past few years to support or agree to substantial increases in government spending. The White House is trying to head off that discontent, and the budget Mr. Bush sent to Congress on Monday calls for sharp restraint on federal spending.

But while economic conservatives and the groups that represent them in Washington tend to make their case loudly and forcefully, White House officials have always been more concerned about religious and social conservatives at the grass-roots level. Mr. Rove has fretted publicly on a number of occasions about Mr. Bush’s failure to motivate more evangelical Christians to vote in the 2000 election, saying millions of them stayed home that year.

With the Massachusetts ruling, some conservative leaders said, Mr. Bush and other politicians have little choice politically but to get behind an amendment.

“As of today, there is no gray area at all, no area behind which they can hide,” said Sandra Rios, president of Concerned Women for America, a conservative group.

The constitutional amendment most likely to win the backing of Mr. Bush and conservative groups is one that has already been introduced in Congress. The House version, sponsored by Representative Marilyn Musgrave, Republican of Colorado, states: “Marriage in the United States shall consist only of the union of a man and a woman. Neither this Constitution or the Constitution of any state, nor state or federal law, shall be construed to require that marital status or the legal incidents thereof be conferred upon
unmarried couples or groups.”


And I don’t think that Kerry is for the job either:
Boston Globe:
“I oppose gay marriage and disagree with the Massachusetts Court’s decision.”

Great… We’re all dead.

But really what’s the likelyhood of a national amendment to the constitution? I mean really what’s the chances of three forths of the states ratifying an amendment of such. I could see that if there were already more then 3/4 of the states that had something like this. But there aren’t. So I doubt any such things will really pass. But it’s still sad to read about.

Laters all.