Aug 29, 2001 #2

Aug 29, #2 [Star Wars, "Imperial March"]

Well tonight’s been bloody awesome. Vero, Julian, Ryan (I think that’s

his name), And I went to the alliance meeting, that was great times. I saw

like 4 other people that I knew, or have seen around before. One guy, I

can’t remember his name, but Julian thinks it’s Nathan, came over and talked

to us for a bit. [His name’s Tony] It was good times, lots of hot guys there,

hehe. That should be something that I’ll look forward to every week.

I got my HW done, I’m happy about that. And plus there’s only 2 more days

tell Friday. I can’t wait to get out of here this weekend. It should be

good times, well not really good times, but it’ll be good in the sense that

I’ll get to see Adam again. I miss him so much.

My roomie’s quite the twat, he doesn’t understand that when you have to

fan blowing air out of the room and the door shut it pretty much creates

a vacum in a sense, and that will stop air from moving, so you want the

door to be open so that it’ll provide a fresh air sorce to the room, well

everytime that I open the door he goes and closes it, Grrr. It annoys me.

He’s also kinda rude in the fact that I was listening to music earlier and

trying to study in the room, and he comes back from class and turns on his

TV, sits down and turns it up so much that it drowns out my music, now I

can study with music going, cause it’s something that you can hear, but

not listen to, well TV I can’t have going and study at the same time, even

if I can’t see it. So that just bothered me. I’m like, grrr. I had the music

on first go away.

Aug 28, 2001

Aug 28, [Bon Jovi, "I’ll Be There For You"]

Well today has been one long ass day. I got up this morning at 6:30 and

left here for class at 7:30. I went to class, Acct 285, that was boring

as hell. Lots of hot guys in there, well actually there’s lots of hot guys

in all my classes. But yeah, then after that I went to Bus Ad 101, I have

to go get a book for that tomorrow. I hope I remember that. Then I went

to Krell to work. I should have a new e-mail there. It’ll be like black@krellinst.org

or something like that. I dunno yet. They haven’t taught me how to use the

system. I worked there tell 5, when I came back here and talked to Adam

a bit online. He’s really not doing good and I feel so bad for him. I wish

I could be there. But I can’t we’ll see what happens. I know in time things

will get better, but right now he needs people to be with him. Everything

reminds him of Angie, and that’s hard. It really is. The small things even

make him cry, and that’s hard for me to hear. I know how much it hurts him

to have her gone. And there’s really nothing I can do to help that. I really

wish there were more that I could do.

After I talked to Adam I went to my last class for the day. It’s Micro-Econ.

It’s going to be boring the frist couple weeks cause the first 5 chapters

between Macro and Mirco are the same thing. The prof is pretty young, and

he moves at a pretty fast pace. I don’t know if I’ll be able to keep that

up all semester.

Now I’m back here, it’s almost 8. I tried calling Adam cause I wanted to

talk to him, but he wasn’t home. I’l try there again later. Dean called

me and left a message on my cell phone, he’s at the Madonna Concert and

he’s pretty excited. lol. I didn’t get anything to eat yet today, so I’m

going to go and try to find something here soon. I don’t really know where

on campus you can get food after the food service closes. I really dislike

that. At DSU you could go in and order anything any time of the day, that

was really cool cause if you missed a meal you didn’t have to go off campus

to find something. Here you can’t do that, or as I’m told. I’ll have to

find something to do in that aspect of things, cause I’m going to miss alot

of meals.

Tomorrow should be a pretty easy day. I’ve only got two classes. We’ll

see though.

Aug 27, 2001 #2

Aug 27, #2 [BBMak, "Back Here"]

Ok so my Math 150 teacher is Russian, he has some funky ass name: Petr

Vojtechovsky. How in the hell do you pronounce that. It should be an interesting

semester with him, he seems amusing so far. They fucked up my schedule though,

this class isn’t supposed to have recitation with it, but it does, and the

recitation is the same time as my Lib 160 class, which I only have to go

to the first one for, but still, and I’m also supposed to be working at

that time. So in otherwords, I’m supposed to be in 3 places at once, so

I don’t know how that’ll work out.

My mechanic called my house today. I called them, and they said he was

at lunch and that he would call me back around 1:15. Well I waited here

tell 1:30 when I had to leave for a class and he still hadn’t called me

back. When I got back at 3 I called again, and they said he was in a meeting.

They took my phone number this time, and said he would call back in the

next hour or so. It’s been an hour and still nothing. Grrr. I’m never taking

my car back to them, and by the way, it’s Westside Auto Pros. Don’t go there.

I found out that we have call waiting here which will be cool, cause well

it’s call waiting.

I still don’t want to be here. I really don’t. I talked to Adam for a bit

today on-line. It seems he’s still having problems with the days as well.

Grrr. Hopefully things will get better though. Hopefully.

Horroscopes Lie: Aquarius is coming into an exciting

time of the month. Spirits and energy run high for the next few days, which

is a welcome change to the mood you’ve been experiencing. It’s fun to be

around people in love for once, especially if you’re one of them. During

this period of bliss, it’s important to remember that everyone comes from

a common ancestry. There are no enemies, aliens or even strangers. Your

motto for tonight should be ‘live and let live.’

My roomie just talked to me about my being gay, he said that he was cool

that I was open and honest about things and all that jazz, but that nothing

could happen in this room, which isn’t really a big deal since well, I’m

stilla virgin and I plan on staying that way for a while at least, well

maybe not that long, but long enough, hehe.

Aug 27, 2001

Aug 27, [REM, "Drive"]

Well, it’s the first day of school for me, and another spot of depression

is starting to hit pretty hard. I miss not being around to go out with people.

I miss it so badly. I don’t see how PU’s can get into the routine of everyday

suburban life. I just could never do it. I’m not the most social person

in the world, but I still like going out, I like knowing that there’s always

someone I can call and say "Hey, lets go do such and such." But

right now I can’t do that because well, I don’t know anyone around campus.

Last night I didn’t sleep at all. I went to bed about 9:30 or so, and tried

to sleep, but I just couldn’t. I know things will get better, but right

now, things aren’t going good at all.

My first class of the new school year was cancelled, I don’t know if that’s

a good sign or a bad one, but whatever. I went to the Armory and got my

van registered and moved into a parking lot that I can park in. That took

me almost an hour and a half. Then after that I went and hung out infront

of Curtiss hall and watched the hot guys go by, and were there ever a ton

of them.

Vero and I went to Soc 134 together, we went in and sat down, and we were

talking about how we didn’t know anyone in the auditorium and then the person

in front of us turns around and says, "Hey I know you." It was

Jen Parsons (sp?) that was amusing, we also saw Nick Harris in there too,

he sat like a row down from us, so we didn’t talk to him, but he’s there.

The Prof for that class seems to be an ass, so I don’t know how the year

will go for that. We’ll see.

I want to see people, mostly Adam and Angie, but other people as well.

I’m having withdrawls from the group. Angie called last night, that was

cool to talk to her. We talked a bit about various things and other such

stuff. It was good to hear her voice again. I can’t wait tell Friday, it’s

a three day weekend. 🙂

Aug 26, 2001 #2

Aug 26, #2 [Steve Miller, "Wild Mountian Honey"]

I’m so depressed right now, and I so don’t want to be here at all. I talked

to Adam today which was good, but he had some great stories to tell. I wish

I could have heard them from him rather then read them from him. But you

know what I mean. This evening Julian, Vero, and some other random person

that Vero worked with came and we all went out to supper to some Chinese

resuarant place. It was good, then we went and walked around. I got a damn

fucking bad headache now and I feel sick. I don’t want to be here at all.

Here I go again, I promised myself I wouldn’t think of you

today

It’s been seven months and counting

You’ve moved on

I still feel exactly the same

It’s just that everywhere I go all the buildings know your name

Like photographs and memories of love

Steel and granite reminders

The city calls your name and I can’t move on

-Savage Garden, "The Lover After Me"