may 7, #2. alright to be fair and give credit where credit is due. as far
as i know, danny has only lied to me about one thing, and hasn’t really hiden
anything from me, sometimes it takes a bit of persistance to get things out
of him, but it’s the same with me sometimes. so alls good, as far as i know.
may 7. only 4 more days left. 4 more fucknig days. i can’t wait to get out
of here. i have a final tonight, i have to go finish typing my notes for that
class so that i can remember things, lol. it’s accounting which shouldn’t
be all that hard, but i want to get a good grade on this test i got a high
C on the last one and if i get at least an B on this one i should be able
to get a high B for the class. I’m kinda worried about my grades for this
semester though. cause i mean i think i’m going to get mostly B’s. eww. ya
know that’s raelly funny that now that i’m in college i’m caring about my
grades. in hs i was just like, who gives a shit. i get what i get. i never
did any of my assingments tell llike the hour before, ahh, yeah good times.
doing hw in first hour programming, that was so funny. the roomie didn’t come
back to bed this morning tell 6 am. he was going to bed when i got up. we
also have all the lofts out of here now. the room loooks really different
now. last night the roomie moved his out, that was ammusing. it was like watching
a cub scout move out of a tent at the end of a week long camp. you just take
everything and throw it out of the tent and then clean it up and orginize
it. it’s really ammusing, you should all see it sometime. lol. my hair’s not
spiking right today, i’m sad. damn hair.
may 6 #2. find me here speak to me i want to feel you i need to hear you
you are the light that is leading me to the place where i find peace again
you are the strength that keeps me walking you are the hope that keeps me
trusting you are the life to my soul you are my purpose you are everything
and how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you would you tell me
how could it be any better than this you calm the storms you give me rest
you hold me in your hands you won’t let me fall you still my heart and you
take my breath away would you take me in would you take me deeper now ’cause
you’re all i want you are all i need you are everything everything. –Lifehouse,
Everything. that pretty much sums up how i’m feeling right now. it really
sucks. i mean. yeah. ok so an explination to that last update. danny was online,
he was online most of yesterday, and alot of today, yet he blocks me, why
does he block me? it makes me wonder. it makes me think, what is he hiding?
what’s he doing. someone tell me if i’m being overpossesive here. but i mean,
why’s he feel the need to block me when he’s on? i know that he has other
things to do, and i know that he doesn’t always want to talk to me, i don’t
always want to talk to him. but i don’t go and block him. if i don’t want
to talk to him then if he IMs me i tell him i’m busy, or i put up an away
message. however, i’m pretty damn sure that he wasn’t busy, he was just chatting
else where, which makes me wonder more, what’s he doing? what’s he hiding.
may 6. the key things to have in a good relationship are, trust, honesty,
and an open relationship, one in which you can tell the other person everything
that’s going thourgh your like without reget or having to think of the consequenses.
that’s my idea. so why can’t people be honest, and open. why do people felel
that they ahve to hide things. that’s one of the biggest things that makes
me mad. is when people lie to me or when they hide things from me. for example,
[example only thanks] danny went out on a date a while ago, with a female.
he neglected to tell me. I’m fine with him dating other people, i realy am.
but the fact that he neglected to tell me hurt me. as i lay here in bed writing
this i wonder what else has he neglected to tell me, what else has he failed
to inform me about. is there anything else that he’s hiding? i don’t really
know do i?
may 5, #2. so i just got done watching armagedon, and you know that guy that
plays aj, he’s so damn cute. lol, just thought everyone would care. my pui’s
came and went today without any major problems, my mom still hasn’t called
the college to set up an appointment, so it looks like there’s very little
chance of use getting out there now, damnit, this is what i really hate about
my mom, she says she’s going to get something done and then she never get’s
it done. oh i was busy, oh i was running late, oh i forgot the papers, oh
i need to talk to your dad about it more. well fucking damnit, quit giving
excuses and get the damn fucking thing done. if i’m fucking going there we
have to get there NOW. there is no other time this summer to get it done.