Addicted To VI

You press the keys with no effect,
Your mode is not correct.
The screen blurs, your fingers shake;
You forgot to press escape.
Can’t insert, can’t delete,
Cursor keys won’t repeat.
You try to quit, but can’t leave,
An extra “bang” is all you need.

You think it’s neat to type an “a” or an “i”–
Oh yeah?
You won’t look at emacs, no you’d just rather die
You know you’re gonna have to face it;
You’re addicted to vi!

You edit files one at a time;
That doesn’t seem too out of line?
You don’t think of keys to bind–
A meta key would blow your mind.
H, J, K, L? You’re not annoyed?
Expressions must be a Joy!
Just press “f”, or is it “t”?
Maybe “n”, or just “g”?

Oh–You think it’s neat to type an “a” or an “i”–
Oh yeah?
You won’t look at emacs, no you’d just rather die
You know you’re gonna have to face it;
You’re addicted to vi!

Might as well face it,
You’re addicted to vi!

You press the keys without effect,
Your life is now a wreck.
What a waste! Such a shame!
And all you have is vi to blame.

Oh–You think it’s neat to type an “a” or an “i”–
Oh yeah?
You won’t look at emacs, no you’d just rather die
You know you’re gonna have to face it;
You’re addicted to vi!

Might as well face it,
You’re addicted to vi!

Post 1000!!!

Welcome To BIG Post Number 1000

For your viewing pleasure I have included a few nice little statistics things on the side… Also to be included below:

Total Posts:
999

Total Comments:
259

% Posts Per Cat:
My Life: 90.39%
Not Published: 6.21%
-The remaining % is contained in other categories.

% Posts Per Year:
2000: 2.3%
2001: 48.35%
2002: 28.63%
2003: 20.72%

Average Words Per Title:
2.82

Average Words Per Post:
419.75

Here’s some other interesting things for this wonderfull post number 1000!

Income:

Info about my money from Krell (From 9/01 to 6/03):
Total Income: $16,729.5
Total Hours: 1,634.2
Total Taxes: $2,420.81
Net Income: $14,308.69
Average $/h: $10.24
Average Pay Check: $760.43

Info about all Income (From 01/97 to 6/03):
Total Income: $35,496.02
Total Hours: 4,660.86
Total Taxes: $4,681.82
Net Income: $30,814.2
Average $/h: $7.62
Average Pay Check: $328.67

Gas Usage

Cougar Stats:
# of Refills: 154
# of Gallons: 1,296.537
# of Miles: 27,397.2
Avg Miles/g: 21.131
Cheapest Refill Price: $0.819
Average Refill Price: $1.146
Highest Refill Price: $1.899
Total Amount Paid: $1,626.55
Cost Per Mile: $0.06
Average Cost Per Refill: $10.56
Avg Miles Between Refills: 177.9

Saturn Stats:
# of Refills: 80
# of Gallons: 692.234
# of Miles: 24,162.0
Avg Miles/g: 34.904
Cheapest Refill Price: $0.979
Average Refill Price: $1.295
Highest Refill Price: $1.659
Total Amount Paid: $896.36
Cost Per Mile: $0.04
Average Cost Per Refill: $11.20
Avg Miles Between Refills: 302.0

And you all think I’m crazy for keeping information like that! That’ll show you!

Well…

That’s my life!

A Lasting Annoyance.

Well, it seems that we like to just dish out bad info to Chris a lot anymore, and he just seems to keep getting more and more annoyed.

Well, I guess that it’s really just the same annoyance, just it keeps coming back.

I really need something to punch or shoot or something along those lines.

If I talk to you over the next couple days, and I seem uber pissed/bitchy/I hurt your feelings. I’m sorry in advance, I just really had my hopes up for this whole trip, to fly with him, and to be there for him every step of the way. Because I know that I would want the same for me.

Anyways, it’s not completly dead in the water yet. I could still fly there and back and the like, on different flights. Still for under $500. I could fly to EWR for the week for $300. We’ll just have to see how things work out, we’re going to discuss it tomorrow. Which is needed.

Other then all that drama not much else has been going on in my life as of lately. I’m getting kind of annoyed with some people, but not over anything they can controll. I know they have thier own lives and I just have to get used to it. Though, it is fairly annoying.

I talked to Angel last night… That was good to get to talk to her again. She explained why she never called me when she was back, and we talked about Adam a lot. I also told her how great Andrew is. 😛 Hopefully she’ll call me over Christmas break when she’s back.

Today has just been dragging by, I have 5 more hours of work, and I’ve already been here for 5 hours. I don’t know what I’ll be doing for most of that time. I was thinking of installing a stat’s thing on b2, but we’ll see how well that goes.

I really wanted Andrew to come up tonight and spend the night… I realy need him this week to be supportive, I’m very stressed out, and very emotional. I know that I am, and I just need someone here. But he’s already got plans with Court tonight. I guess it’ll be another night home alone for me. This is why I need a second job.

Well…

That’s My Life.

Thanks A Lot Sue.

I’m really fucking pissed right now… (In otherwords, this might not make any sense)

Well it appears I won’t be going to EWR or LAX now, thanks a lot Sue.

There’s no way I’m spending $1300 just to fly out there and back. No fucking way.

You know, if she would have just sat down and been cooperative about it all, unless throwing a huge fit everytime Andrew brought it up, we could have easily gotten there by taking Continental instead of going through United. Same airports, only it was NONSTOP from EWR to LAX. You know, much easier, and MUCH cheaper… But no, she couldn’t do that…

Thanks A Lot Sue.

I just want to fucking cry right now. I’ve really been looking forward to this.

I never should have got my hopes up so high for the trip, I knew that something like this would happen.

And that’s my life.

So I just finished reading Chris’ private entry and it made me tear up. There are a few things that did upset me though, just a tiny bit.

One is that he thinks I will have a bad impression of the time we had sex, and always connect it to the infection. Well, that simply isn’t true. There isn’t too much else I can say. I am happy we shared what we did, it is not connected in my mind with the infection, just the feelings and the person that I got to share that special experience with.

Also, I didn’t mean to rush our goodbye. I’m sorry it seemed like that. I wanted you to stay, and if I had known how emotional you were feeling, I would’ve demanded that you stay so we could talk about it and I could hold you.
I think that’s it. So now here’s my update.

I got upset after the doc told me that the infection is caused by getting bacteria in your urethra. B/c I basically knew there was only one time when that could’ve happened: when we had sex. So I was thinking about it, and I wanted to tell Chris. Not to upset him, but just to let him know and to tell him taht if we ever do it again, I want to use a condom. Well, I did tell him on the way down and that was a big mistake. Definitely a way home conversation. He seemed very upset by it, even though it wasn’t his fault! I can understand why he felt bad, but I wish he didn’t b/c he really didn’t do anything wrong, it wasn’t his fault at all. I don’t blame him. So I really didn’t want him upset and afterwards I just felt really bad for even bringing it up. But I wanted to let him know that I was a little afraid to have sex now b/c of what happened. I will probably feel that way for awhile, who knows? But it doesn’t mean that when Chris and I made love, I didn’t enjoy it. It was absolutely wonderful and I’m glad it happened.

Reflecting back on the trip now, as I lay in bed, I feel like I took Chris for granted. And I now feel terrible. Sometimes I was just a *bit* too snappish. And a *bit* too bitchy. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m very sorry.

I DID have a good trip though. It was really good to spend the whole weekend with just Chris. We had lots of fun and crazy tiems (barry road weee!) and it was just all around goodness. We did talk a lot about me moving and stuff. It’s just as scary for me as it is for Chris. Not only do I have to worry about us, I have to worry about a millino other things, like the move and then of course, me actually moving in and starting college. Why is college seeming so scary??

I wish Chris would have called me as he drove back to Ames if he was that upset. I wish he would’ve called me, and come back over and let me hold him and tell him that everything is alright and he has nothing to be upset/worry about.

Though I myself was worried b/c he didn’t say he loved me last night or today when we said goodbye. I know it sounds stupid…. but still. I like to hear it, it helps me reaffirm that he does care about me.

I don’t know what else to say. Now I’m just upset. Well, hopefully Chris and I get a chance to talk about it tomorrow.

Goodnight.