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Wow, it’s been a while since I updated. It’s been a busy couple of weeks. Two weekends ago we went out to San Jacinto. It was a great trip, for the most part.

Leigh, Sophia, Elsie and Jake kept up with me pretty good. Jake was a little slower. Daniel I’m sure could have kept up, but he was busy trying to get into Ally’s pants. Rex, Joeric and Thea on the other hand were a mess.

Rex and Thea packed way to much shit, including fucking CANNED food! Seriously, that was not in the instructions of things to pack! wtf. So they were super slow and dead by the time they got to camp. We had a good night that evening. I think even I was having some heat stroke though, that night I was shivering and really cold and stuff. Who knows.

Got up the next morning and hiked the 7 miles back. Took me 2 hours. Took them nearly 5 hours! It was all downhill! Rex wouldn’t let anyone else carry his pack, he got back to the tram and basically passed out. Had to call the ambulance and stuff. It was horrible/scary. I felt like shit that it happened to him on my trip! But he didn’t listen and he wouldn’t let anyone else help him. Hopefully he learned a lesson in humility.

Monday morning I had a consultant coming into town. I got up that morning and felt like shit, but knew I had to go into the office to talk to him. Came in, was sitting there in the meeting and suddenly started feeling really hot. Sweating, light headed, etc. He made me go home. lol. By the time I got home, I was freezing. That was my Monday. I went into work on Tuesday and felt better, but still kinda crap. I took the week pretty easy and relaxed.

Friday-Saturday I was supposed to go to Bishop and do some climbing, but instead I decided to stay home and take it easy. I went bouldering with Victor, but that was about it. My MythTV box got fried so I’ve been working on rebuilding it. That has not been going very well. About 2 years ago I bought this PCHDTV HD-5500 which is DESIGNED to work with MythTV, but it sucks! I cannot get it to work at all.

Sunday I went wine tasting with Sylvia and Daniel. We had so much fucking fun! We went to a few different places this time, Firestone, Epithany, and a few others. Awesome time with those two. “Well spritz your fucking vagina and get me my food!” LOL.

After that I headed over to Denny’s place… and watched some Avatar.

The Bronco should be making a come back this weekend.. Hopefully! Fucking A. I am so annoyed with this fucking process. It was supposed to be back last month, but didn’t get finished because he didn’t paint it in time. I told him then that I wanted it back by Sept 1. Now again he waited till the LAST minute to fucking paint it again. So I called him and told him to fucking just take it to Maaco and paint it. So then suddenly he has time to paint it. Said he’d have it to my parents by Sunday night… Now it’s Tuesday and it’s still not done. They are supposed to be coming to LA on Friday! UGh. What the FUCK!

So the whole David in LA thing is on again off again. It looked like he was for sure, then there was no way. Then at 3am Sunday I get a text saying. “I am SO coming”. So I talk to him Sunday and tell him where he needs to fly in and when the good times would be, now I haven’t heard from him since then. WTF. I am seeing so much of Morgan in him recently. He’s all into it one day then the next he’s too busy with his little projects to even realize anything. I’m just really want to see him and have him here… Ugh.

In work news, things have been going OK. I’ve been busy, lots of neat projects. Trying to get some stuff done to show that Navision is flexible and can do what we need it to quickly and easily. I’m not very happy with Matt though. I gave him a simple project to do two weeks ago and it’s still not done. I just don’t get people… I told him he’s spending way to much time online doing non-work things. I gave him a new project to do yesterday and told him it had to be finished by EOB today. We shall see if he gets it done or not.

It’s sad watching people get old. As you know them for many years of their life you can see them slowing down, things hurting more, etc.

When I first started hanging out with Jerry and George they were always the leader of the pack, always the first ones up the trail, the first over the edge, carrying as much gear as they could. Now, only 2-3 years later, George never comes out any more, hip problems keep him from doing much more then a short 1 mile walk. Jerry still comes out all the time and leads with courage and ambition, but I have seen him getting worse over the last year especially.

It’s sad to see his body take this toll, I can’t imagine a day when he stops coming because of his health problems, but I fear that it’s closer then most of us see. Even walking around at Stoney point yesterday he was tripping and falling down on a trail that he takes all the time. And he wasn’t even carrying a pack at all!

It just is so sad to see this happen to people that I care about. I hate getting old!

In other news, the weekend was great. Friday night I went out and saw the movie The Wildest Dream. It was pretty good, more of a documentary then a movie, but still interesting. I’d suggest seeing it in iMax!

We also ate at this indian place which was delicious!

That night Rex came and spent the night, he slept on the couch. Random. We got up early the next morning and went out to canyoneering with the gang. Met up with them, had a great day of doing that. Got to the last waterfall and there was this HUGE group of people below watching me come down. Everytime I’d slip or something they would all yell and scream as if I were going to die! lol.

Left there and came home, napped, had Neil over to hang out. We were going to go to San Pedro, but he got there and was being annoying so I made him smoke out and ended up just watching some movie. I swear the boy is the biggest fucking whore I’ve ever talked to. And I know some WHORES! I don’t know how he does it either because he really is annoying. I’m over hanging out with him.

Went to bed, got up on Sunday and went climbing at Stoney point. We setup potholes, which is fairly easy and I had a tough time on the last move, not sure what was up with that. But then I went and did Vicious and got farther then normal, by about 2 moves. Very strange. I’m still fat and suck at climbing. lol.

Got home from that and fell asleep around 4pm! lol.

Haven’t really talked to Davey much this weekend, he’s been busy at home with the family. I know how it is when you’re back visiting, you are usually very busy. I might call him tonight and chat. I’ve sent him like 4 different weekends to come visit LA. I’m hoping he does one of them at least!

All the sales people are being super bitchy today and I am not approving of it. I want to just email ben and tell him to shove it up his fucking ass. Jackass.

Someone called me at 6am because they couldn’t remember how to log into Navision. Seriously? You do it EVERY FUCKING DAY!

Wow, today I have posts going back a full 9 years… It was interesting to see how things have happened. In this time frame for the last couple years, I lost Constantine, I found Morgan, I started climbing and I’ve had a lot of fun!

This past weekend was great. I went out and saw “Incenption” on Friday night with Peter. It was a great movie. Very interesting. Got home after that and Texted david some. He said he’d call me Saturday morning. Sure enough, I woke up to a txt saying “Good Morning”. I replied back and he called me right after that. We talked for 2.5 hours. Great times. The more I talk to him, the more exciting he is… And the less hopeful I feel that something will work out.

He’s just so far away and he wants to move to Denver. I want to move to Denver, but I doubt that will happen anytime soon. He might be coming to visit. But he’s going to sleep on the couch! WTF! I don’t get this level of prudness.

I went out on a bike ride Saturday with Peter, good times. Just over 20 miles. Then we went and got lunch at this place called Hudson house which was delicious. I went home after that, took a nap and then went to Sirin’s for a light dinner and wine. It was great to catch up with her again.

Went home, went to bed and then went out to hang out with the climbing group on Sunday. Honestly the only reason I went was to see Claudia. I knew I wasn’t going to climb. So when I got there and it was just Jerry, Leigh, Aaron and Jasi, I was a little annoyed. I only stayed for an hour and then went home. Jasi had her fucking camera crew again with her taking all these fucking photoshoots. Ugh. I hate that bitch.

Talk of lots of things coming up. This weekend I am going to go see Wildest Dream, Canyoneering on Saturday, Taste of San Pedro (I need to find a date for this) on Sat night, then climbing Sunday. I hope we go somewhere else then Stoney on Sunday.

Starting to plan a labor day weekend trip, talk of a joint Flame N Flash and Top Out, Rock Bottom Bishop trip in November, etc. Good times.

Need to figure out when the fuck I can go get the bronco!

I’m suppose to have a date with “Chris Brown” tonight… He’s a Long Beach police officer and former Air Force. Seems too clingy already though. Plus we all know I already have my eyes on someone else. But what the hell.

Today I have officially made $500k in my lifetime. $502,224.96 to be exact.

I’ve been working for just about 14 years… Worked 18,426 hours, averaged $27.25/hr.

Paid $146,029.88 in taxes and had an average take home of $27,399.62/year.

Where did all that money go! 🙁

Sitting in class in Oxnard. So fucking boring. This guy doesn’t really seem to know how to teach, again. We have wasted the ENTIRE morning on a chapter in the book that I have had finished about an hour ago. If not more. He wanted to get through three chapters today. I don’t think that’s going to happen before 5pm.

Last week was great. I talked to David every day. Tuesday-Friday. We talked on the phone. I only called HIM one of those times, he called me all the other times. It made me feel really great and I was happy that we were continuing our talks and what not. I haven’t heard from him since then. I txted him Saturday night, asking how the world wide photo walk was. No reply. He has replied to a few comments on Facebook of mine, directed at me, I told him to call me sometime this week. We shall see if he does. I dunno. I really fucking like this guy. I am so smitten with him, but at the same time, he lives in Dallas, and flying to dallas is NOT cheap like it was flying to Houston for Constantine. And with Const, he and I had dated for almost a year when I had to start flying there. David and I have spent a whole 4 days together. lol. Why am I so attached so quickly to him? I’m guessing there is something crazy or what not. It’ll never work. But I want to have hopes that something might?

Michael on the other hand, I am quickly getting over him. He’s too young. I have attempted now twice to go and visit him in PHX. Both times have been cancelled last minute. Now he’s saying that the earliest I could even come and visit is in late Sept! UGH. So whatever. I don’t know what to do any more. I’ve gone out of my way to try and visit him/get to know him and I just get rejected.

Again, I’m so fucking sick of being single, but I know that I can’t MAKE something happen. I just have to keep getting out there and meeting people and having a good time.

Lately I’ve been feeling as though I’ve lost my datability. I’m so afraid of making the wrong steps, saying the wrong things, being too forward, being embarrassed when I make a move and the other person doesn’t feel the same way. I’ve become so submissive in my personal life that it’s almost sad. I don’t want to make those dramatic moves that I used to, or command the presence that I once did from people I am interested in. I think it’s one of the reasons that I lost Morgan, I was constantly doubting myself infront of him, not demanding more of what I wanted and being very passive in asking for things from him. It was also a theme from the trip where Taylor kept telling me to stop being so down, etc.

I’m not sure how to move past this, I need to to be more agressive, I have to get over it and let my heart back out and ready to be shot down but not let it fall so far!

In other news, I’m here in Oxnard, like I said. I have to admit, I’ve hooked up with two really hot military boys. Yum. Everyone else in this town is a bit freaky! Most of the guys I’ve been chatting with are partnered wanting threesomes. lol. Gross.

Tonight we are having a happy hour thing with the other class participants. I’m not sure how I feel about that. They are all weird and I don’t know what to say to them. This one guy keeps getting up like every 15-20 minutes during class and wondering out and then he’ll come back. Seriously, do you have to pee that much or what!? Random!