Category: My Life

may 21, [billy joel, "great wall of china"] damn today sucks too.

we got my final phone bill from college today, it was eighty some bucks and

my dad refuses to pay for it, he says "you can talk to someone else for

7 hours, but you can’t talk to me for 2 minutes" hell no i can’t talk

to him for 2 minutes cause all e does is yell at me. and blow everything out

of porportion, and again today, i got my grades, got B’s in every class, do

you think he said a thing about that, nope all he could do was bitch about

the phone bill. he also caught me talking to danny last night. and he’s been

bitching about that all day. he also said somethign to the effect of "you

need to figure out what’s going on in your life" i know what’s going

on in my life, he’s the one that’s in the dark. maybe if he wouldn’t be such

an ass hole. you know this whole phone bill thing really pisses me off to

cause they said they would pay for my phone bill. and here he is again going

back on his word. the stupid bastard. he also clams that he told me to "take

care of the problem" when he got the $40 bill, he didn’t say anything

about not talking so much. the asshole. i’m temped to just up and leave here

real soon. i mean real soon. i thought about it the other night, i can pack

in about 5 mintues. i have _NO_ money left, how the hell am i going to pay

this bill? damnit i hate him so fucking much. i worked my god damn ass off

in high school damnit. i paid for all my shit when i was in hs. now they can’t

even pay a fucking phone bill which they said they would take care of. i’m

really getting pissed at these assholes. really getting pissed.

may 20, [fuel, "bad day"] hmm, well this song pretty much says

it all. it’s been a bad day. sometimes i just wish i could slap my brother.

lol, yep. i used to have this great compass, it was cool. but my stupid brother

lost it, so i was yelling at him alot about that. and yeah. there’s alot to

say, but i don’t really want to say much right now, maybe later.

may 19 #3 {basement jaxx, "Music Keeps On Playin"], so yeah, people

came and picked me up tonight, that was cool i had fun. well mostly had fun.

i also got to see julian again, whom (is that the right use of whom?) i hadn’t

really gotten a chance to see since i got home. it was good. i wish i had

spent more time with the group when we were in hs. but i mean now one ever

offered to include me and i just figured, well if they want me they’ll ask,

cause ya know i’m not the type to bother people about things like that. so

yeah. i really regret not telling people that i was gay when i was in hs.

i think it would have been easier to just tell them then hide it all these

years. yeah, i really do. i kinda wish that i wasn’t going away to camp this

summer. but i mean i’ve already signed it all and shit so i’m kinda stuck

with it. i’m really regerting alot of shit tonight.

may 19, #2, [dave matthews band, "Sweet home alabama"] ok well

that guys name is ben and omg he’s so cute. and i think he might just be gay,

cause he was flirting pretty badly, and eveyone knows how dense i am, so yeah,

if i could tell. but omg, he’s just so fucking cute, he’s got that great dark

black hair, i love that, i dunno what it is but i mean, weee, i just love

black hair. and he wears tie-dye shirts all the time, i mean _ALL_ the time.

and yeah, it’s going to be a good summer. 🙂<

may 19 [live, "selling the drama"] well i just got back from work,

it was pretty good. i got alot done today. found out about what i have to

do. i got alot to do in the next week or so. there’s like four really hot

guys on camp staff this year. the cutest one works with me, omg he’s so fucking

cute. and what’s best is that he was sooo flirting with me today, lol. it’s

going to be a great summer 🙂 i also stopped into kum and go today, i remember

why i liked working there so much, ohhh yeah, bute guys with thier shirts

off. hehe. other then that nothing really going on here today, ive been at

work all day so yeah. it’s cool<