Author: Cj B

may 19 #3 {basement jaxx, "Music Keeps On Playin"], so yeah, people

came and picked me up tonight, that was cool i had fun. well mostly had fun.

i also got to see julian again, whom (is that the right use of whom?) i hadn’t

really gotten a chance to see since i got home. it was good. i wish i had

spent more time with the group when we were in hs. but i mean now one ever

offered to include me and i just figured, well if they want me they’ll ask,

cause ya know i’m not the type to bother people about things like that. so

yeah. i really regret not telling people that i was gay when i was in hs.

i think it would have been easier to just tell them then hide it all these

years. yeah, i really do. i kinda wish that i wasn’t going away to camp this

summer. but i mean i’ve already signed it all and shit so i’m kinda stuck

with it. i’m really regerting alot of shit tonight.

may 19, #2, [dave matthews band, "Sweet home alabama"] ok well

that guys name is ben and omg he’s so cute. and i think he might just be gay,

cause he was flirting pretty badly, and eveyone knows how dense i am, so yeah,

if i could tell. but omg, he’s just so fucking cute, he’s got that great dark

black hair, i love that, i dunno what it is but i mean, weee, i just love

black hair. and he wears tie-dye shirts all the time, i mean _ALL_ the time.

and yeah, it’s going to be a good summer. 🙂<

may 19 [live, "selling the drama"] well i just got back from work,

it was pretty good. i got alot done today. found out about what i have to

do. i got alot to do in the next week or so. there’s like four really hot

guys on camp staff this year. the cutest one works with me, omg he’s so fucking

cute. and what’s best is that he was sooo flirting with me today, lol. it’s

going to be a great summer 🙂 i also stopped into kum and go today, i remember

why i liked working there so much, ohhh yeah, bute guys with thier shirts

off. hehe. other then that nothing really going on here today, ive been at

work all day so yeah. it’s cool<

may 18, [], wow, opps i forgot to update anything yesterday. i don’t even

remember yesterday, what the hell did i do all day. hmm, that’s odd. oh i

remember i went and i had lunch angie, that was cool. then i went and had

an eye appointment, that was cool as well. i got contacts. weeeeeeeee for

contacts. but that’s about all that i remember about yesterday. oh well. today

i haven’t really done much. i went and helped some guy set up his computer,

he gave me $25 and his old computer which is cool cause yeah, i can run redhat

on it, it’s a 200mhz thingy. it’s pretty nice really, since all i’m going

to run is linux. i also moved my computer downstairs so i now have internet

with it, that’s really cool. oh i remember what i spent all day yesterday

doing. i installed Win2k Server on my pu’s computer and i’ve spent all day

setting up the permissions ans stuff. it’s coming along nicely. ok well i

guess that’s all i have to say right now. so laters all.

may 16, #4. [bob seger, "let it rock"] god damnit, why does my

asshole of a father have to be such an asshole. so i was downstairs watching

tv. the turner was sitting in his chair, but i was watching the tv. he comes

in sits down, turns the channel to someting that he could watch on any other

tv in the damn house (the show i was watching was on satellite, and the tv

downstairs is the only one that i can watch it on). i go "i was watching

that", he said, "so", "so i was watching that", "well

you’re going to be up later then i am", "so", then he sits

there just staring at me, "what", "don’t take that god damn

adittude with me", "i don’t have an adittude, i was watching that",

then i get up and walk off, and he yells at me, "GET BACK HERE AND LET’S

TALK ABOUT YOUR SHITTY ADITTUDE", "i don’t have a shitty adittude,

i was watching that", then i turn around and walk off, "well i’m

sorry you have such a shitty adittude chris." does anyone else se a fucking

pattern here. damnit i really fucking hate being home. i can’t wait tell work

starts again. damnit.