Author: Cj B

July 10, 2001

july 10th [bush, "alien"] ok well today’s been a great and wornderful

day, it didn’t start out that way though. i got up and went swimming today

about 12. that was cool. i knew my dad would be home soon and he’d want to

go swimming so i just left the cover off of it. he got home and went out there

to go swimming, then he comes in after he went swimming and says "you

can’t put the cover on the pool when you’re done with it" and i said

"i didn’t put it on cause i knew you’d be home soon and want to go swimming"

to that he just repeated what he started with and i just ignored him. then

later i cut up some califlower to eat and i left the trimmings on the counter.

well he somes over and goes, "what you think you’re a guest in this house,

you don’t have to clean up after yourself" and i go "no i wasn’t

done yet." and then he goes on to say "well you know you’re not

a guest in this house, you could help clean up some around here" and

i just wanted to fucking scream at him. that stupid bastard, you know i’m

home like 3 hours a day other then when i sleep, i work 40 hours a fucking

week just like you do, just because it’s different hours doesn’t mean i don’t

work just as much as you do, and also i don’t eat here, so i don’t get dishes

dirty, i do all my own laundry, so all that’s left is the floors and unlike

him, i take my shoes off when i come in the door. so i don’t track through

the house. and then the other day, i did _all_ the dishes, washed them by

hand and everything. well instead of them putting them away or using them

they just left them there and piled more dirty dishes on top of them and empty

pop cans i just wanted to scream at them for that, i spent like 2 hours cleaning

those and they just wasted them all. grrrr. i hate my parents. then i went

to work, it was ok. people were overly rude today though and that got me in

a pissy mood. but then after work i went out to the loop and met up with adam.

that was *_REALLY_* cool. we met there with tara (i’m pretty sure that’s her

name) and xak, adam and i laid on the ground, adam had his head on my chest

and it was just soooooo great. i was like, oh yeah. lol. we just sat there

and talked for a while, then we went and mingled, there weren’t many people

there that we knew, so we just hung out and talked. it was a really great

night there though. i was happy, it put me in a great mood. so yeah, great

times, but then the whole damn 12:30 cerfew thing happeend so we had to leave,

i really didn’t want to leave, damn adam’s parents and the whole damn age

thing, hehe. oh well, it’s all good. he was talking about coming over here

tomorrow, errr, well i guess it’s today now, but yeah….oh yeah, jules claims

there’s a problem with the journal archives, "the text is all white"if you seem to be having the same problem e-mail me or something, and i’ll

look into it, cause i’m not having that problem

July 8, 2001

july 8, [REM, "try not to breathe"] ok well today’s been today

so far. work was ok. we had a shit load of stuff to do though cause the night

person and then morning crew didn’t do thier jobs, with just two of us there

we got it all done though, so that was cool. we worked our asses off though.

about 5 or so adam called and he wanted to do something tonight, but i had

to work tell 7, so i called him back after work and he couldn’t do anything

cause he didn’t weedeat the yard and he got in trouble, damn parents. that

messed up my plans for the night, so now i’m just sitting around waiting to

see if other people are around. cause i want to go do something tonight. since

i didn’t get to last night and the night before adam and i stayed here. that

was great and all, but three days of not going to the loop, OMG. i can’t beleive

it, no actually it’s kinda nice not going there everynight, but tonight i’m

in a go out type mood. well i’m going to get off the phone now so people can

call. laters all.

July 8, 2001

July 8, [lifehouse, "unknown"] ok well today had just been wierd.

well i went to work at 3 like i was supposed to, and the afternoon went normal,

nothing really happened there. but then tonight about 10 after karen the manager

left, we started having problems. there’d been this kid in there for like

2 hours talking on the phone, and he finally left, but then a short biut after

he left a lady came in and said there was a kid in the parking lot with a

gun. and we were like ohhhhh shit, so we locked the store down and shit and

called the cops. well like 3 showed up and one DNR guy. there was a gun, but

it was just a pellet gun, so it was good. i saw it when they took it off the

kid and i was like, omg. it really did look real. they took care of that shit

and left. but then shortly after they left this other guy came in. he’d been

in there all day and had just left when the cops started showing up. but he’s

in there all the time. but yeah ok well the lady that was working was like,

i don’t want to be left here alone with that guy and i was like, neither do

i. so i stayed and we called the cops on him to have him removed cause we

had talked to dustin the local cop before he left about him being in there

cause he was there for a LONG time today. but the shierff showed up and they

hung out there tell dustin got done processing that kid with the gun. and

then dustin came back and i don’t really know what happened, but i’m guessin

he just gave him a ticket or something, but he got him out of there. so yeah,

fun and excitment at kum and go. by the time i got out of there it wa too

late to go out, so i was just like, alright, i’m stayin here, so i called

vero and told them. i wanted to go out tonight. i was really in a mood to

go with people, but by the time i got out of kum and go and got home to change

it would have been 12 already and yeah, that would of only given me like 30

minutes before people would have started wanting to go home. so yeah. that’s

the story for tonight. dean and i talked for a bit too. hehe we were talking

about the whole july 15th road trip and i guess he asked jules if he wanted

to stay and dean’s apartment and he was asking me if adam and i wanted to

stay too, and i’m cool with it, but we’ll have to run it past adma’s parents

too. that could be a bit of a problem, but it would be a good place for us

all to watch movies, you know QaF. cause we could borrow jules DVD player

and stuff. yeah. i think this road trip will be really fun shit. ok i’m relaly

tired so i’m going to head to bed, night all

July 7, 2001 #2

july 7, #2 [bee gee’s, "you should be dancing"] ok so for those

of you that have been wondering what my family looks like, well here we go:

first a picture of just me, then

a picture of my parents and my brother, and here’s

two different pictures of the black

side of the family, and

here’s a picture of all the great grandchildren and our great grandma,

also known as GG. ok well that’s all that i have for now, laters all

July 7, 2001

july 7,[cherry poppin’ daddies, "ding-dong daddy"] ok well tonight’s

and today have just been complete opposites, but overall today has been sooooooooo

great. ok well this morning i

was in my room laying on the floor playing with my cat, my dad comes bursting

into my room and yells at me "get those damn magazines out of here so

andy can’t find them" and i said to him "well teach him not to search

through other peoples things and he won’t find them" and my dad said,

"well that’s not the problem" and i just wanted to scream at him

that that was the problem. and that my being gay isn’t the problem. they don’t

go to my brother and tell him he has to get rid of all the mags that he has

that have heterosexual things, cause what if i find them, i might get ideas

and all you know. but yeah, he ended with saying "if you don’t take care

of them i will" which means he’ll throw them away. i hid them under my

bed, they should be safe there. so yeah, bad vibes from my parents today.

this afternoon though i went out swimming and mandy showed up at my house,

she wanted me to come into work and i was like, well why the hell doesn’t

the manager come in and work, she’s the one that has to cover if someone doesn’t

show up. but mandy kept being persistant and i was like, well she caught me

in the pool. so it’s not like i can lie to her and say i’m busy. and she was

acting like it was damn busy there and they needed the help desperately. so

i got out, went inside to dress and while i was dressing my grandma got here,

so i talked to her a bit. and such. then i went to work, i get there and there’s

three employees standing there doing nothing and i was like, ok please tell

me it’s just a lule and it’s been really busy today. and they were like no,

it’s been like this all day and i was like, god damnit, why the fuck did you

come and get my from my house on my day off when you had enough people already

fucking working. damnit. grrr. i was just pissed about that. but i got 13

hours of over time now, so i guess that’s okey. then after work i called adam

and he came over and went swimming. we talked, it was good times. then we

came in and watched a movie. my mom was still up when we started the movie.

and adam and i were sitting very close and holding hands, so yeah i would

hope that she knows that we are a couple. hehe. then she left and by the end

of the movie i was laying in adam’s lap and he had his hand on my chest. it

was soooooo great. i was like in heaven. i was soooooo happy. i really like

adam. i do 🙂 it’s like yeah, the first time someone’s ever touched me like

that, you know, someone that likes me, and yeah. ok ya know, now that i know

that he’s going to read this, i feel as though i can’t relaly write it here. i dunno, it’s wierd, i’m still going to write my feelings here, but it’s wierd

knowing that he knows what i’m thinking, i dunno. i’m leaving before i dig

an even bigger hole, night all