Author: Cj B

Double Hits

Well. I had a big long post here yesterday and for some reason it got deleted when I went to save it! Ugh!

Anyways, Wed work was horrible after only getting 2 hours of sleep! I was just so not very createive and the boss was asking me to be. It was horrible.

That night Ben came over and he was very talkative and we had a great time. As I said, we watched babel. We had a good time. He’s going home this weekend, so I won’t get a chance to hang out with him again till Mondayish.

Thursday was good. Work was typical, I guess our VP was in another accident so a bunch of projects that I should have been working on, I didn’t have the information for, so nothing got done on those. Made headway on another list that I’ve been putting off for a while though. Went to the gym after work and biked for 45 minutes. I went pretty easy and it said that I burned 300 calories. I wonder how accurate that is to being moved over to the real world. Because I typically go about twice as fast as I was at the gym, and for twice as long. I wish I could have a cal/heart rate monitor for my real world biking. Maybe I’ll go buy one this weekend.

Had one of the worst dates of my life that night. It was VERY VERY awk, the guy says he’s only 27, but he looks 37. I kept trying to talk to him and he just kept giving one word answers and shit. Very annoying and stupid. I got there and like 5 minutes into it I txted Jason. “Save me!”. lol. UGH!

Trying to find stuff to do for tonight. I’ve invited 3 people out, of course they are all maybes. So yeah. Who knows. I’d really like to try and get to meet up with some of these people I’ve been chatting with online. It’s just so difficult because our schedules never mesh damnit!

I downloaded a ton of Japanese language classes from this site. So I’m going to start listening to them in the car. I’m a bit annoyed though because there’s no easy way to get them in the correct order on my iPod! For some reason it’s all messed up! I’m getting really scared for my class!

I was sent this link the other day from “Love God’s Way Ministries”:

1 – Gay Bands

2 – Safe Banks

OK. Anyone notice that A) there’s WAY more “Gay Bands” then safe bands? And B) I think there’s more ACTUAL gay bands on the “safe bands” list! haha. Stupid gay haters!

So last month my blog had TWICE the number of unqiue visitors over the month before. Kinda strange considering that from 01/06 – 12/06 there’s only about a 300+/- difference each month and then from Dec06-Jan07 the unique people doubled! It’s just a bit scary and cool at the same time. Hopefully some of those people will continue to come back! 🙂

Every day that goes by I want to txt Mayko and just say. “Are you serious”. This is really annoying.

I went to the store the other day and was carrying a big heavy box out. I opened the door and was walking out when the door SLAMMED into the back of my hand. I now have a HUGE bruise across the back of my hand and it really hurts to move it too much.

Sayonara!

BzzWhack

BuzzWords to love. Very funny site.

Eh. Week is going. I’m still really upset about the whole issues with Mayko. I was really hoping that through all this we could at least be friends. I just can’t get over that he would just throw away our friendship like this. Just really hurts, as per usual. Also have you noticed that shortly after I say something like. “If I’m still talking to so and so in X month we’ll do Y”.. And then I stop talking to that person. Ugh.

I’ve added a few new pages to the site.. Just some random strange things.

1) Baby Names – A page for me to put names that I come across and really like. Kinda small at this point, but it’ll grow!

2) CjB For President! – A page for me to bitch about policies, etc. It’s still empty.

3) Rules for Dating me. – This is a page for people to read if they are interested in dating me. Tips and lists of things I like/don’t like. I think it’ll save some time…. lol

Monday work was good. I got another good project to do. But I spent most of the day re-learning Coldfusion!

Tuesday I went to the SM office and the fucking DSL was down. I bitch to the HD at 8am as soon as they got there and they started working on it. It still wasn’t up at 10. I had now wasted half my day, so I went home. As soon as I walked in my door I got a call. “The DSL is back up!”. Of course it is!

So I worked from home and did some random stuff. I chatted with this really cute guy named Matthew (the guy who runs GGB) and he told me about this concert tuesday night, it sounded really cool. But the group ended up going out to Beige. Jason, Ben and I. We had a really good time. Mayko was there. I felt so awk and horrible just ignoring him like that. I really wanted to go up and at least say ‘Hi’ or be nice. I dunno what to do. I mean now I’m sure I’ll be seeing him out wherever I go. I avoided eye contact the whole night with him and just enjoyed hanging out with the two boys. But Jason said everytime he looked in that direction Mayko and the guy he was with were looking at us and apparently at one point he was standing right behind me for like 10 minutes. I also really wish I could know what he was saying to the guy he was with. Because the group said he kept looking at us and then leaning in and talking to the guy he was with.. blah blah blah. You know it?

I really just want to talk to him and make things better. I started writing a letter to him yesterday afternoon. I know I shouldn’t send it, but I just can’t write people off. It’s so hard for me. I have to have people like me, my psychologist said I need to work on that, but I just don’t know how! lol.

I just don’t get it. I did NOTHING to hurt him and I’m sure you can generally tell from my writings here that I cared about him very much and would never purposly do anything to hurt him. I just feel like shit about the whole situation and what not.

Either way, the night as a whole was lots of fun. We chatted, we laughed, we shared stories. Good times. Picking up Ben and dropping him off was a mess though. His exit was closed and the area he lives in is so confusing to drive, etc. And then I had to get gas and the only place we could find was an Arco that kept declining my Credit card, ugh! It was a mess… Got home about 2ish and tried to crash, but I was just going over the whole Mayko situation and getting upset about it. Got up at 5am this morning and came into work for my 6am meeting with the CEO. I’ve got another good project from him that I’m working on. Currently taking a break and trying to think of a way to display the data.

As for Ben… He’s really cute, very nice, all the standard stuff so far. I mean I’ve only known him what 2 weeks or something? But last night while we were out, he hardly said anything! I kept trying to talk to him and getting one line answers, etc. I’m going to bring it up tonight on our movie date and see what he has to say. Because I can’t deal with someone who’s so quiet. Cause if it’s not going to work I’d like to keep him as a friend.

Pop vs. Soda Debate… Check out this cool map:

Pop Vs Soda

And OMG! Check out Harry Potter! Who wants to fly to London to see this!?!??!

Harry Potter Naked!

Harry Potter Naked!

This weekend I’m potentially flying up to Santa Barbara, grabbing lunch and then flying back. It should be tons of fun, and I’m really hoping it comes through. I’m not sure if I mentioned it or not, but Carlito randomly txted me last week saying he wanted to go flying with me. That boy is so crazy. So I have to call him today to find out if he’s still up for it. I sure hope so. If not, perhaps Jason and I can just go on our own or something.

Ok. I have to get back to work. Later!

End of another…

Well Mayko and I just had the conversation that will completely end our friendship.

Whatever. Lying Asshole. Who needs him. All I’ve ever been to him is nice and caring and what not and given him everything I had to offer, and he doesn’t realize that then he’s got issues.

Goodbye.

I dunno how to feel right now… Part of me just wants to spend the day crying, another part of me just wants to go beat the shit out of something.

His loss, right? Why do I feel so fucking bad!

Fiesta Cantina

So Thursday night I ended up going out ot Fiesta Cantina with Jason, James and Ben. It was good times. The place was kinda dead but we chatted it up and enjoyed the night. Came home about 2am.

Friday I went to work and had a horrible conversation with this guy I know online. I guess I need to do better back ground checks on people before I start to hang out with them. UGH! Fucking lying sons of bitches. I’m just so sick of people lying. Why can’t they just fucking tell the truth and be who they are. If you’re a god damn slut. Say you’re a god damn slut. You stupid faggot. I confronted the asshole about it, and he’s yet to reply. I’m guessing I won’t be talking to him again.

I’m sure you’ve all heard of the “Hold your wee for a Wii contest”… Well here’s some updated news:

Yeah, you could see this one coming way back when the original tragedy actually happened, but after getting things all lined up, it seems that the family of Jennifer Lea Strange will be aiming for Sacramento-based KDND-FM, its parent company Entercom, and the employees associated with the whole “Hold your wee for a Wii” ordeal in a wrongful death lawsuit. Although on-air personalities claimed that the contestants signed “a release,” that paper was apparently one that simply “granted the station permission to use the contest in its promotional materials,” and the family lawyer believes that no waiver of liability was ever signed. Notably, the FCC has jumped into the investigation as well at the request of the family’s attorney, as one of their suggestions is to have the station “taken off the air.” Per usual, the lawsuit “seeks unspecified medical, legal, burial, and funeral costs,” as well as presumably lofty sums of money to compensate for “other punitive damages,” which we’re fairly sure they’ll end up receiving.

Ok. this is ridic! The stupid bitch fucking did it on her own will. UGH! Why is this country so god damn stupid. Ok, and the fact that they were fired, and now the FCC is trying to get the whole station off the air. OMG. retarded!

So friday night I went out with Stephen and we had a good time. He’s much cuter then I remember him being, but the braces are just not doing it. Plus he’s WAY too obsessed with having a nice car. IE he drives a 2006 3-series, but he’s all. “OHhh I want a Land Rover so bad.” you know the type! We went out to Cheesecake factory, then ice cream and then went and saw The Departed. So that was fun. Very good movie. You should all go see it. The bitch at Cheessecake switched our left over bags. So I got his and he got mine. And neither of us liked what the other person had! haha.

Saturday I got up early and headed to Santa Monica for a business meeting and then hung out with Ben and Jason most of the afternoon. That was good times. We went to Sunken City again and walked around. Then it started raining so we came back. Ben hung out here all night watching movies and chatting and stuff. He left after breakfast on Sunday morning. He’s really cute and very nice. But I just don’t know. Neither of us are really converstaion people, so it’s a bit awk at times. I really think I need someone who’s talks more. But we have a lot in common and like I said, he’s very cute and nice, etc. We’ll see where this goes. But I’m feeling frieds only.

I lost my camera on Saturday morning as well. I was getting ready to go hiking and putting the battery in my camera. I picked up the camera off my desk, walked the 5 feet to the battery charger. Put the battery in the camera, and then the camera disappeared! GONE, POOF! No WHERE! Jason and I turned this place up side down. Can NOT find it anywhere! UGH!

Sunday afternoon I went out to Coffee with this guy Chad. We just chatted about boys and life and etc. Just like everyone else, he was very nice and very cute… But probably just friends there as well. He was here for nearly 3 hours though and we laughed and chatted. Good times. Really helped me get my mind off previously mentioned asshole. Sadly as soon as he left, I saw the asshole online and wanted to YELL at him. UGH!

Ok. Well since I only got a few hours of sleep last night, I’m going to go nap before Simpsons/etc is on tonight. Later all!