Ahh,another wonderful day of school. Anyways, yesterday was fairly boring. I got a low A on my Physics test, go me! Work sucked, I was FREEZING. Everyone was like “oh, you look cold” i was like thanks for noticing, now buy some damn hot wings! I did sell about 12 though, so it wasn’t too bad.
Skinny called. I haven’t talked to him for awhile. It was nice to know he’s still alive. We just talked about everything that was going on. It made me happy. I layed down on my bed and just listened to “Us and Them” and I felt relaxed. Well, semi-relaxed.
More on the Jenny saga: Today in Publications, she still didn’t say much, and when I said that I had talked to Skinny, she just went “Good for you.” Then after class, she scurried to the bathroom again. I want to confront her about it, but I don’t know what to say. I don’t see what I am doing wrong. I hate how I don’t even do anything to anybody, and yet I can still get people to hate me. It just doesn’t make sense.
I talked to Laura at work yesterday. We may go out Saturday night. She’s fun! I enjoy her.
I haven’t heard from David in forever. He called once and said that his phone “kept calling me.” Yet he also said he didn’t give his phone to anyone else, and he has a flip phone, so there is no way it could’ve called automatically. Then we talked for a little bit. We talked one other time after that, because I was feeling sad and I gave in and called him. He told me to call him sometime and I siad I was afraid to because he never seems to want to talk to me and he never calls me. He said it’s nothing personal and that he’s just really busy. I wanted to scream, “I BET YOU AREN’T TOO BUSY FOR NATE, YOU FUCK!” but somehow I contained myself. So I called him a few days later, and surprise surprise, no answer! I left a message, saying I hoped to hear from him soon. I also said “I love you”, which in retrospect, was probably not the smartest thing to do. It’s been a week, and has he called? Nope! I’m slowly but surely getting over the whole situation, except I’m afraid that I’m not really getting over it at all b/c I just avoid thinking about it and fill my mind with other things. But hey, whatever works. I don’t want to see him during the holidays. It will ruin everything I’ve been doing. Just like in the summer, when I was finally semi-OK with what was happening, then I had to go to the damn mall and see him and fall in love again. That better not happen again, or I’m gonna be mad. Grrr… he upsets me.
On another note, before I get too upset, I got my recommendation from Mrs. Every today. It was very very good. I really hope I get that scholarship. I felt special after reading all the nice things she had to say about me.
I need to start my experiment for Independant Study. I don’t even know what I’m gonna do. It’s too confusing. I’m supposed to see Mrs. Every after this block. I’ll be missing part of third, but it’s Physics, so it’s not like I give a damn. I’m already looking forward to the weekend. No work again!!! YAY!! I’m excited to hang out with Adam and Chris. Is that weird? I just enjoy them. Hopefully they are good by then, so we can all go out and have a jolly time!
Actually, I was reading Chris’ website the other day, and I was kinda shocked because it was like I was reading my own life up there on the screen. It was mostly about the fight between him and Adam. He thinks exactly like I do. He said something about hoping that Adam MIGHT leave the dance early to come see him, and then he was disappointed when he didn’t. Well, I would totally think the same thing if it was me. A lot of other things too, it was just weird to see how alike we can be from a relationship standpoint. Too bad I’m not in a relationship… I don’t even really want anything physical. I just want a guy to curl up with when I’ve had a bad day who will just hold me and tell me that everything’s alright and make me feel special and like somebody wants me. God, I’m such a loser…
Erin called yesterday. I was at work. She had a rough day. I miss her. I can’t wait until the summer, when she will hopefully come spend a week or so with me! That’ll be awesome, b/c I think she’s gonna rent a hotel room, then we can hang out and party and stuff! woohoo!
Anyways, my Pop-Tarts are calling out to me. I’d better go eat them and then go to sleep until the bell rings.
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In other news… Last night was way fun, we went to Tara’s party thing, lots of good food, from there Adam had to go to work, so he did that and I came home and designed the new graphic up there. ::points to top of screen:: Then I washed and waxed my car, it’s pretty now. I also went and got my books for this summer, 2 USED books cost me $205. I was like, HOLY SHIT! So yeah, fuckers. I’ve also yet to get my motherboard in. gwar. Oh, but back on topic, I met up with Adam about 10 and we were going to just hang out at his house and have some fun, but Missy and Tara showed up and we played, well ok, Adam and Missy played, truth or dare. Tara just slept on the couch and Missy just kept trying to seduce me. It was great times.
We all left there about 2am cause Adam had to work at 9 this morning.
Today has also been fun times. I had to hang dry wall this morning with my dad, that wasn’t so much fun, but at 2:30 Adam called and said that he got off early (I wonder if he actually went to work today…) lol. But yeah, so I went over there and we went out to Saylorville and hung out. Good times.
And that’s been my day. Night all!
Again today’s been really great. I woke up at 8, but didn’t feel like getting out of bed, so I just laid there thinking about alot of random things. Mostly boys, because I haven’t had sex in so fucking long, but that’s beside the point. I just didn’t feel like getting up, I feel asleep again a couple times cause I remember waking up to the phone ringing, it was like grand central station around here this morning.
I finally got up around 11 and took a shower, etc. I went downstairs and my dad was like, “You going to help hang dry wall today.” I was like, HELL NO! lol
So yeah, Adam got off work at 2 and I was headed to my bank and to get gas when he called me and said to come over to his house, so I went over there and we went and talked to Angel at Hy-Vee for like 2 hours, it was really great. We talked about what she had been up to since she got back and why she hasn’t talked to any of her high school freinds. There were a few times when I just wanted to get up and leave cause I could see that it was hurting Adam and it was also hurting me, but I stuck it out and listened to her sid eof things, I think her thinking is a bit unlogical, but whatever, it’s Angel and she can think what she wants. It still was very good to get to talk to her, even though I don’t think we’ll get to see her at all again in the next two weeks before she leaves for the summer.
After that talk we went to the mall cause Adam wants a job at A&E. They said to come back Wednesday, so that was fun. From there we went back to Adam’s house to hang out, we thought his sister was going to be home tonight, but she wasn’t so we called James and Mike again. James was out already, but Mike was just getting ready to go out with his younger brother, we made plans to meet up with them at Java Joe’s.
We got there about 9:00ish and met Mike’s brother and some other guy named Dustin, and two girls, we had a great time tonight. It was also odd cause I was standing there on the phone with the other Dustin when I turn around and see Ben Shepely’s back and I’m like “Is that Ben Shepely??” And he turned around and it was, I was soooo amused. Then I hung up on Dustin, I didn’t even realize it tell later, and I felt bad, but opps. lol. Ben and I talked for a while, he’s really changed since last summer, but still it was good to see him again.
His mom’s a Lesbian.
About 11:40 we decided to take Mike’s brother home, because he was supposed to have been home at 10:30, opps. That was the funniest thing I’ve even seen though… Mike drove past his house, his brother got out quickly and Mike drove off again. It’swas great.
From there we went back to Java Joe’s and hung out for about another hour, James also showed up in there. Mike and James went off to Valley’s after-prom, and Adam and I went home, he has to work at 10:00 tomorrow, I feel sorry for him.
Night all!