Month: June 2008

Happy Ending – Mika

This song just came up on my random playlist and I thought I’d post it… It makes me cry so much. I give people everything I have. I give my heart and my soul to them, and they always just leave me with no hope, no love, no glory. I do feel like each time, I just wasted all that part, I feel like every day is wasted that I spent with them. My grandpa was amazing at this, he gave everyone everything too, but he never seemed to be hurt if people didn’t give back. It seems to me like everyone always gave back to him. Grandpa, how did you do it?

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can’t get no love without sacrifice
If anything could happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I’m wasted
No happy ending
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o’clock in the morning, something’s on my mind
Can’t get no rest; keep walkin’ around
If I pretend that nothin’ ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I’m wasted
no happy ending
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love

I feel as if I’m wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Bedrooms and Hallways

This past weekend, I watched a VERY funny movie called Bedrooms and Hallways.

It’s basically a movie about sexual experimentation. It’s a gay British movie in which a gay man (Leo) decides to join a straight man’s support group. He then admits during one of the meetings that he has a thing for one of the straight guys which starts a cascade of sexual reassessment between the members of the group. Leo and the straight man end up having an affair, while Leo’s roommate is having naughty sexual encounters in other people’s homes with his real estate lover.

It all gets very confused when Leo re-connects with his high school lover who believes Leo’s female roommate is having an affair with her husband!

This movie really is a non-stop laugh experience-everything is so funny. I highly suggest seeing it!

Broken Ankle!

So, a lot has been going on. Friday I had dinner with a bunch of friends, then we went out to The Factory and I got very drunk. Had tons of fun. Saturday I spent the day around the house doing stuff that I have been putting off. Sunday I went rock climbing…

Where I broke my fucking ANKLE!

I have a cast on it now! 🙁

I cannot believe this! I have so much planned for the next month! Now what the fuck am I going to do!!! I have to cancel everything, and Now I don’t know about going to Houston or not. I am not going to gimp around down there! UGH! So fucking annoying!

Other then that, not much going on. I watched a few movies on Saturday. First I watched Mandragora which was HORRIBLE. It’s about gay prostitutes in Prague. It did make me really miss Prague though! Then I watched The Ten. Also HORRIBLE!

I was going to write a big long entry about other stuff. But it’ll have to wait.

Later.

The Last Picture…

Yesterday was very hard…

I got home from work and there was a box hanging from my door. It was from one of my Aunt’s.

In it, there was a letter which said:

Hello….

In 1994 shortly after my dad died… I received a surprise….from a complete stranger.

This stranger gave m the very LAST picture ever taken of my dad while he was alive. The picture meant the world to me…it was taken just a few weeks before my dad died…in fact it was taken at a trap shoot…doing what he loved to do…Shoot! 🙂

Well…. I am so pleaaed and honored to send to you….the very LAST picture ever taken of Kenny while he was alive!

The picture was taken on May 4th, 2008, at the Tiger Den. Mom, Kenny and I went there for dinner….and I took this picture. You will notice that he is not wearing his oxygen. I told him that I was going to take his picture…and he took the oxygen off….

Hmmm…wonder what he was thinking?

I am so happy to be the person who can send this gift to you….I have no doubt that you will treasure it forever…..just as I will!

I love you all very much!

Love,
Deb.

After reading the letter, I was bawling my eyes out… But there was the picture, wrapped and wrapped and wrapped! She had to have used a WHOLE roll of tape on this thing!

Here’s the picture that was in there…

Thanks Deb! This will be treasured!

Mail.App is Confused!!!!

Ok, so my company recently changed from hosting our own email to using the gmail. It’s been a great switch over and nothing has gone horribly wrong. I still get my mail!

But some strange things have been happening with Apple Mail.app if I leave it open for long periods of time (Which I always do).

First is that it will randomly start using an ungodly amount of RAM! For example:

This is after only 24 hours of use!

Second is that it gets VERY confused sometimes about my smart mailboxes now. Today I ended up with 4,294,966,582 spam messages! WTF!? I don’t need that much spam!

But when I go to my spam mail box, it’s EMPTY!