Halloween Night

So Wed night I went out to West Hollywood for all the crazyness that was going on there. I was in a pretty annoyed mood about a lot of different stuff which I’ll go into later.

Const and I got to Steve’s place about 5 and then we had to wait around for him to get there. We (including Jason) walked over to Trader Joe’s and bought some stuff.

Steve finally showed up after a long time of us thinking he was dead. And then the crazyness started. They were having a party at the house and lots of people were there all dressed up crazy and what not.

Headed down the street to the huge fair. It was SOO packed you had to shove your way through. I have NEVER seen that many people in one place! Insanity. We walked around and took pics. Not the best night ever, but it was alright considering how pissy I was.

West Hollywood Halloween 2007 pics are here.

Sooo, about the reason I was so pissy…. Monday, Constantine bought a new Infinity G35 car. He’s been talking about it since I met him. I’ve always thought he was just joking cause he keeps saying he’s going too and then he says, “I’ll wait till my car gets to 100,000 miles” or “I’ll wait another year” or something like that. So I didn’t think he’d randomly go out and buy one on what seems like a whim.

I know it shouldn’t bother me. We’ve only been dating about 3 months now, it’s not my money, it’s his. The right thing to do would have been to just act happy and congratulate him about his purchase. However, as we all know, I don’t hide my emotions very well. As Jason says, I’m as easy to read as a children’s book. So he of course knew I was unhappy. Wed on the way to Steve’s he brought it up and we got into an argument over it.

Honestly, I’m over-reacting a lot. There was just so much going between that and some other stuff at the office and in my personal life that I just couldn’t let it go.

I have these very high expectations for my life and my future partner’s life. I want to eventually own a Maserati. I want to have a nice life, with a condo in Europe and a cottage in Montana and the house we live in day-to-day. I want to be able to pay for Kiera’s college, I want to be partially retired by the time I’m 40. And at this point in my life, I don’t think that spending $33k on a car is really needed, or a very wise financial thing to do.

Between now and next year (when he would have purchased the same car), it will cost him about $10,000 extra. In additional payments, insurance, gas, maint etc over the life of the car. To me, that’s not just $10,000 that’s $33,000 over 15 years, or over the next 50 years that’s $538,782!! Without making an additional contributions.

Honestly, if he had waited a year, I would have felt better about it, I would have voiced my opinion more. Or if he had just bought one that was a year or two old now that would have been fine as well.

I want to eventually lead a nice life and be able to buy a nice car without even having to think about it. But like I said, at this point I don’t think it’s the thing to do.

So anyways, I was annoyed about that, we got into it about that. Then during the party we are standing outside waiting for Jason and Steve to come out. I’m trying to lighten things up and I just say. “Hey, What’s up?”. It’s something I’ve been doing since the day I met him. I always do it jokingly and as a cute little thing. I thought between us it was one of those little couply cute things. But then replies with “Don’t say that to me, I don’t like it”. Which was just like punching me in the chest. Seriously, if he didn’t like it he should have said something about it 3 months ago and told me to stop.

AND to make the night even worse, I had bought him a present, this really cute white shirt. So I buy it and have the lady wrap it up and everything. When I gave it to him wed night, there’s this huge yellow stain on the sleeve! UGH!

Things appear better now, he came over last night and everything was good. However, I’m still going to be a little upset every time we talk about the car, ride in the car, etc. It’ll take me a little bit to get over it. Not just about buying the car, if we hadn’t gotten into it, I’m sure it’d be fine by this weekend, but now it’s going to be on my mind as our first fight for as long as we are together.

Yesterday, I bought our train tickets for Europe and I accidentally purchased return tickets from Vienna to Prague on 11/27. Our flight back to the US is on 11/26! Opps! We’ll have to figure that out, hopefully I can change the date on the tickets.

Daytime

You know, there for a short time I was thinking that maybe it’s finially time to end this journal. A huge part of my life is now gone, Andrew, so maybe it was time for me to cut this out of my life as well. But as anyone who knows me IRL knows, i’m way to obsessed with this to ever quit. I don’t think I will ever be able to stop posting here. haha. EVen though at times I feel like there are too many people that I KNOW who read this.. IE, a lot of my family. I know about two of them that read it. But there’s at least 3-4 other people in my family that read this as well. There’s also CoWorkers who I’m sure are probably reading it too… Again, I know about one of them, but it’s the ones I don’t know about who scare me. So yeah… Alas, I don’t think I can end it.

So what have I been up to lately? Working and sleeping!

I’m working 6-3 now and it’s going good. I like having the 2 hours before EVERYONE gets here to get some things done that I can’t normally, IE coding, etc. Things that can’t be inturupted.

Speaking of coding that’s what I’ve been doing most of lately. Anyone remember me complaining about the reports project I had a while back? Well it’s finially finished. Now that I’m on days I was finially able to get the rest of the requirements for it and it’s done! YAY! I have to say it works pretty well too… I just have to make it look pretty. I had to make a few more code changes that I would have liked after getting the finial requirements, but that’s ok.

My new project is to move this static file into a database driven file. It’s going to be easy once I get the login portion working. I’ve never done LDAP+PHP auth before and it’s proving to be a pain in the MOFO ass! I’ve stolen like three or four login mechs from other places (mostly the PHP dev list, etc) and none of them seem to work! I can log in manually using the ldapsearch function. It allows me to give it credentials and everyhing. But when I try to use the LDAP_BIND in php it keeps telling me i have invalid credentials. So I’ve asked onne of the steve’s to help me out with it. He did smoething similar and ended up using auth_ldap mod for apache.

I also have another new project for creating cookie based login’s for all the projects I’ve done in the past. That should be fun because I’ve never worked with cookies. It’d also be nice to not have to type my Username/Password every time.

Usually after work I’ve been going home and resting because I’ve been pretty sick this week. It seems to be going around the office. They also think that our boss has pink eye. I really hope not because I don’t want to risk getting it. That would suck major ass. I’ve never had pink eye before and I’d like to avoid it if I can! I’m pretty sure I got my cold from the plane though. Because I was fine when I left Iowa and then woke up the next day with this horrible cold. Gah!

Yesterday I had a date. 🙂 Before a few days ago, I wouldn’t have called it a date… Just hanging out with a freind. But now that I’m single I can call it a date. He’s so adorable! I had a really good time too. We met up at the Spectrum at 2. It was funny cause I got there and couldn’t ermember if he said to meet at the carousel or the ferris wheel. So I had to walk all the way back to my car to find out. Anyways, he got there and we talked for a minute and then went off to eat at Dave And Busters. I really didn’t like that place. But they had fun fans! The door guy was kinda rude and I couldn’t understand our waiter. Plus the didn’t have any food that I really wanted. So I ended up getting just a hamburger. We had a good convo over lunch. He was really quite though and that made me really nervous because I was like, “OMG, he doesn’t like me” haha. But he e-mailed me last night and said that he did have a relaly good time, he was just in pain from his doc appointment the day before. So yeah. He also said… “oh and i so waned to kiss you today before i left, but i was too scared.” haha. so cute!

He left for Kansas today and is going to be at a farm for a week with no internet… and he’s one of the few people in the world who doesn’t have a cell phone yet! How random! Either way, we made plans to hang out on the 4th and 5th when he gets back from KS. So yeah. Good times. (I hope he doesn’t mind, but below are two pics of him…lol)

I also want to complain about the stupid drivers here… The other day I was going home and the exit to my place is three lanes. The far right, can turn right, the far left can go left and the middle can go left or right. Anyways, there was this HUGE camper that was in the far left lane and was blocking traffic because it broke down. Anways, so the exit was backed up… because people were trying to get from the right lane into the middle lane… People started driving on the FAR RIGHT shoulder so that they could get up infront of everyone in the right lane and cut them off and get over into the middle lane… I was so annoyed! This one bitch in a brand new G35 (still had dealer plates) tried cutting me off, and i nearly hit the bitch but forced her back behind me… Fucking retarded people! don’t they realize they are just causing MORe proBLEMS! GRR. In Iowa everyone would just wait thier turn.

I tried to update to WordPress 1.5.2, but it keeps timing out on me. 🙁 I’m sad by that because I really want my e-mail notifications working again!

The other day I also over heard the daytime HD person talking to someone about how they have 76 unread e-mails… I wanted to go in there and be like.. “HA! Sucks to not have me to clean up the evening guys mess isn’t it!” lol… I still don’t get what the hell it is they do in there all day. The phone rings MAYBE once an hour… probably less then that.

I’ve also been going to bed super early, like 8pm. It’s crazyness. Last night someone called me at 11 and I thought it was my alarm going offso I got up and went and jumped in the shower. and then realized it was 11pm… I promptly went back to bed. haha

adios!

Serving Size

You know what pisses me off…

Is when something has a serving size of 3.. But there are like 19 or some other odd number that doesn’t divide into three in the package!

And I’m talking about items where there is always an exact number of the same thing in a box..

In this case we’re talking about sausages.

WHY make it three and then fucking put some wierd number in there, what am I supposed to do with ONE FUCKING SAUSAGE!

Fuck you!

I made a list of all the cars I’m thinking of buying too…. It’s at 22:

Make Model Specs

Acura TSX 6-Manual

Acura RSX 5-Manual

Audi A4 6-Manual (WB6, PX3)

Audi A3 6-Manual (PPD, 3EB)

BMW 325i 6-Manual (ZPP)

Ford Mustang Conv 5-Manual (552, 18G, 18R, 442)

Honda Accord Coupe

Honda Accord Sedan 5Man/Auto (LX, or EX-V6WNav)

Infiniti G35 Sedan

Infiniti G35 Coupe

Lexus IS300

Mazda RX-8

Mazda 3

Mazda 6

Nissan 350Z Coupe

Nissan Altima Sedan 6Man/Auto (2.5S (175HP) or SE-R)

Nissan 350Z Conv

Toyota Corolla

Toyota Camry

VW GTI

VW Jetta

I’ve started researching to know everything I can about them… I’m down to the Honda Accord, and I have to say it’s impressed me the most so far out of all of them. Seems to be so far the best “bang for your buck”

Adios.