april 26, it’s 6:15 way to early to be out of bed.
April 25, 2001
april 25, #3. so i was on some site and there was this big thing that was
babbling something about free readings and such, so i was like, what the hell.
well here’s what it came up with: Section 1: General Personality
Characteristics You are a freedom-loving, strong-willed, and independent-minded
individual, and you insist upon living your own life as you see fit, even
if that means ignoring convention and tradition. In personal relationships
you cannot be owned or possessed, and while you are willing to share yourself
with another, you do not always adjust easily to the emotional give and take
of a close relationship. Though intellectually open, you can be enormously
stubborn, opinionated, and inflexible on a one-to-one level. You have strong
convictions and feelings about fairness and equality, and you try to live
by your ideals, but your ideals about how people SHOULD treat one another
don’t always take into account human weaknesses, differences, and needs. You
probably dislike sentimentality and traditional gender roles and “games”.
You are fair, intelligent, objective, rational and often let your head rule
rather than your heart. You seem rather self-sufficient and detached emotionally
because you are capable of putting aside your personal feelings and viewing
things dispassionately. But once you make up your mind on an issue, you are
difficult to sway and can be rather dogmatic. You think in broad terms and
are concerned with the world beyond your own personal sphere – your town,
nation, or even planet. You are likely to become involved in community affairs,
social organizations, and groups of all kinds, or to have a keen interest
in such. You enjoy being part of a group endeavor and often find yourself
organizing, managing, or supervising group activities. Forward-looking and
progressive, you harbor great hopes for the future. You stay current and up
to date, and respond to contemporary cultural trends, both in terms of personal
style and in terms of ideas. When young you were very influenced by your peers
and by group pressures and by all the “latest crazes”. You have an experimental
mind and are attracted by the novel. Your strong points include your concern
for human welfare and social betterment, your sense of fairness and democratic
spirit, and your vision. Your faults are your stubbornness and inflexibility,
and a tendency to be very obtuse and insensitive when it comes to personal
feelings and human needs. Section 2: Mental Interests and Abilities You are
a progressive thinker, open and receptive to new technologies and breakthroughs
in science, and the latest discoveries in any field. You have high expectations
and a deep belief that mankind’s problems can be solved through the use of
our creative intelligence and inventive mind. You have no patience for those
whose conservative, unimaginative outlook limits their capacity to find solutions
and envision a better future. You also like to keep abreast of current developments
in world affairs, for you instinctively know that what happens in one part
of the world affects everyone. You have a strong humanitarian impulse. Practically
speaking, you have an aptitude for organization and enjoy being involved in
cooperative endeavors or businesses that are contemporary and innovative.
and ya know, that really describes me alot, lol.
April 25, 2001
april 25, #2. so you know i’ve been working on that lab lately, well i got
it down from 13 forms to like 6 or so, but i’m still having alot of problems,
i need to update this database, see, and the code should be "database.recordset.update"
and that’s all it should take, well i have that, and it’s adding the record
alright, but it’s not putting the information that i need in there. the damn
thing. i even went and talked to the bitch mac and he couldn’t find the problem.
i’m relaly getting upset with this whole damn M$ shit. i could have had this
done a long time ago if i were doing it in C++. on a different note, todays’
really nice. it’s warm out, like in the 60’s and it’s just a great day weather
wise. i love it. i just wish there were more to do outside around here. i
have an urge to go to sf’s tonight, but i have nothing to do there either,
and i need to save my money at the moment. i have some other things i want
to buy. I’m going to need new sandles this summer. and i’ll need some new
shorts for camp too, cause some of my ones from last summer are just really
worn out. yeah, and they’re expensive too. like really expensive, it’s insane.
but speaking aobut the bsa, did you hear about that big union pulling it’s
funding from the bsa, it’s like the biggest union in the country, that’s relaly
funny that they did that. lol.
April 25, 2001
april 25, so i’m glad this month is almost over, cause this file is getting
too big, it’s up to 80k now, and there’s still what 5 days left, lol. last
night was so cool. like right after i got done writing the last entry danny
called and we talked for a while, it was really nice. really really nice.
i have to go get some accounting done, but i’m reallly not wanting to do it.
what i want to do is that program, but i’ve already done almost all of it,
and it was supposed to be a group project, lol. oh well, it’s going to be
cool and shit.
April 24, 2001
april 24, #4. so the roomie has been in bed for 14 hours now, and it’s really
bloody starting to piss me off. on a different note. i haven’t talked to danny
in a while, it seems like it’s been a week, but i know it hasn’t been that
long. maybe 2 days or something, but i swear, every day that goes by that
i don’t get to talk to him seems like a week. and every week seems like a
month. i love picking up the phone, and when he’s on the other end, and he
just says "hello" in that beautiful, sweet voice that he has. i
miss hearing it so much. when i talk to him, i just feel so much better. this
poem (go to poems page, it’s there somewhere) really sums up the way i feel about him.