Well, here I am back at school yet again. And I’m not liking it. I left Adam just over an hour ago now, I started crying on his bed, I didn’t want to leave. I didn’t want to come back here. I want to be able to see him every day. I want to be able to say hi, and ask him how his day was. I want to spend that time with him, just laying on the couch with him in my arms, watching TV, or that time just laying in his bed looking into his eyes. I want that time, and being here I won’t be able to have that time. I miss him so much already. I promissed him that I wouldn’t cry on my way back up here. I didn’t. But I’m crying now. I want to be with him. I want to be able to lay in bed at night, with him by my side, I want to not have to say goddbye every week. I hate this. I really do. I love you Adam.
Work Again
Well, here I am at work again and it’s just starting to get really annoying. We just got in 20 more backup tapes, 20 tapes that we didn’t need. WE now have 68 tapes. At max we only need 18 of those tapes. But because Nazanin is a nut case and won’t listen to the people who she’s asigned this task of backing up to, she’s ordered 68 tapes and wasted about $2,000. Gwar. She’s really starting to piss me off.
Yesterday was good though. I got all my stuff moved back into the dorm’s and it’s pretty. I’m going to go up there Saturday while Adam’s working and do some finishing things. But other then that, all’s ready to go. After I was done there, I went and met up with Adam at the GSA. They finished up and then we went back to his house. It was good times there. No one was home, so we just did stuff I guess is the best way to put it. Now get your mind out of the gutter, not that kind of stuff. We hung out and talked, cooked supper, which was amusing all in it self, contacted Gateway support, and watched some TV. But yeah, it was good times. Some things that happened towards the end of the night though kinda mad me sad. But oh well, it’s just the way Adam is and that’s why I like him.
Ok, it’s now like 4 hours after I actually started writing this and I’m just now getting around to finishing it. Earlier Nazanin got the bright idea of switching over one of our servers to a newer one. So Chris and I started working on the project, she said she wanted it done by noon, which only gave us like 2 hours. Well we had it mostly done by that time, there was only one minor glitch that we couldn’t figure out… The users couldn’t log in. Now that sounds like a big thing, but for this machine it really wasn’t cause no users actually log into the machine, it’s only a webserver and the only time a user will log in is to update the page, and well that doesn’t happen that offten. But yeah, so we told her we were ready to go and then she was like, “But what about the domain, won’t that mess everything up.” And we told her that no, it wouldn’t. Cause it wouldn’t and she just went off on this round about thing. Gwar. So now we are doing it on Tuesday instead. But yeah, yet another annoying day here at Krell. But I love my job and that’s what matters. Well that and the pay of course.
Crazy Boss
Sometimes I wonder what the hell Nazanin’s thinking. Today’s one of those good examples. You see, I’m working on this Database of the software and hardware that we have here at Krell. And well, the thing is you have to enter the same fucking information 4 times. It’s like, “HELLO! You could merge these together and save alot of typing, and it’d be easier for you to find the shit that you’re looking for!” I suggested that to her, but she just won’t listen. Gwar.
But yeah, yesterday was good. Adam and I got to spend some time together just talking and hanging out. It was like the first time we’ve had a chance to just sit around and talk for a while. So it was really nice. We were supposed to go to some open mic night thing, but we didn’t. Oh well. It was well worth missing.
Not much really going on though. I’m going to move all my shit back up to my dorm tomorrow. Gwar. I don’t want to go back there. I’m going to really miss not being able to see Adam everyday. :'(
Everyone’s having a bad time
It seems as though everyone is having a bad time. First Melinda backed into my car, then I hit Mandy’s car, so now neither of us have a car, then Rob’s had a bad day yesterday and then Adam locked his keys in his car. Why does the world hate us so much.
And of course, Adam locked his keys in at the GLRC, so he couldn’t call his dad to come open it like he did last time, so yeah. When I left last night they were still debating as to call a lock smith or leave it in the Drake area. I hope to god that he still has a car and it’s still in one piece.
I feel so bad for everyone right now. :'(
Cars Hate Me
Ok, well here it is, 7 pm on a Sunday night. Adam’s just dropped me off. I left his house earlier then I wanted, mostly because I wasn’t feeling very comfortable. But I was also tired and so was he and I didn’t want him to have to drive me back to much later then it was. I already miss him. I didn’t want to leave so early. But yeah, we’ve had a good day. He came over here about 1ish and we hung out here for a while and just talked and watched TV, it was good times. Then about 3:30 or so, Angel called and wanted me and Adam to go with them to get thier pictures taken cause they wanted opinions on what pictures were good and such. So we did that and after that we went back to Layaway and talked to Julian for a while. It was good. Angel and Matt are leaving tomorrow. It’s sad to see them go cause we haven’t really got a chance to talk to them much this break. I can’t wait tell summer comes again.
So more about the car situation, Adam and I were in my car and Mandy, Tara, Jessica were all in Mandy’s car. We were going to Baker’s Square on MH Road from downtown, so we were on University. I was behind Mandy, and I was more then a safe distance away, and I was also going the speed limit, I know that cause I had my cruise set right on 30 mhp. But yeah, so we were coming up on an intersection and it’s one of those funky one’s where you have to stop like way back from the actual intersection. So yeah, the light had just turned yellow and I was getting ready to put my foot on the break. Mandy was way ahead of me and in my opinion she should have ust gone through the light… But she was going to stop, however, she didn’t realize where she was supposed to stop at, and when she did, she slammed on her breaks, inturn I slammed on my breaks, they locked up. We slid on the wet roads right into the back of Mandy’s car. The air bags went off in my car and the horn was going off, it was just bad. I wanted to just die there. I got out of my car and went running to Mandy’s to see if everyone was alright. Luckly everyone was. But now neither Mandy or I have a car to drive, and it’s going to cost me my entire savings. Which, I am thankful that I have that savings, but it’s still hard. I mean, the worst thing is that it happened at all. I was doing everything right, I was following at a safe distance, I was driving the speed limit. Why the hell do things happen to me. The other thing is that now Mandy doesn’t have a car and I feel really bad for that. And another thing is that, well IT’S MY NEW FUCKING CAR. Why? Damnit, Why? That’s all I want to know.
But the world works in wierd ways and I’ll never know why, I’ll never know why Mandy didn’t just go through the light, I’ll never know why I couldn’t stop in time, I’ll never know…
But things in my lief are going good, better then I could hope for. I’m glad that we said “Fuck ’em all” and did what we felt was right in our hearts. And I’m so glad to have him there, by my side when ever things go wrong, he’s always there to comfort me and I’ll always be there to comfort him. EVen though we can’t always dance when we want to, or we can’t hold hands in public. Even though we can’t do those little things, like we’d like to. We know that we love each other. And that’s what matters.
Tonight I came home and asked my dad about the car situation tomorrow. He said, “Well do you want to walk, ride with your mom.” I said, “Is she going to Ames.” Then he said, “Well you can have the Cougar until we figure something else out.” And as he said it he kept rasing his voice and I said, “You don’t have to yell at me.” Then he said, “You haven’t seen yelling yet.” And then I turned and walked away cause I knew where that was going, and I didn’t want to go there, and he said, “If you’re going to be like that, you won’t be driving anything.”
Why’s he have to be such a fucking asshole all the time. Fucker. I hate him.
Ok, I shall post things now.