Category: My Life

So, a lot has happened since I last posted but I will try to keep this short.

Kevin: We’ve been hanging out, we had a long talk on Sunday cause he came with me to tahoe and back for a day. He’s apparently been VERY slutty in the past but says he doesn’t want that any more. BUT he also said he’s not ready to settle down. WTF. So who knows what’s going on there. He’s super cute, a top and likes to just go home and play video games. We had sex after Tahoe and it was pretty good.

Humberto: We also have been hanging out, but he’s SO CONSERVATIVE, doesn’t like sex and gets shy/awk about everything sexual. We went to Sailor moon last night and actually held hands for the first time.

I just dunno.

Jason and I got into a huge fight and haven’t spoken since Friday. He has been texting Darin behind my back. Which is really annoying for me.

I bought two more trailers for my business. Now I need more people to RENT.

Things have been pretty crazy around here. I’m winding down the dating crazy as I’ve found two people who I’m pretty into and now I just want to spend more time getting to know them and see what happens.

First work, it’s been boring but I’ve been getting kinda busy the last two weeks. Our COO is clearly an idiot. He asked me today “What’s the difference between WIP and Finished goods”. WTF. I found out for sure that the NAV project is on hold until next year which is super let down. They also asked me to move my trailers to a different place so I’ve been struggling to find a place to rent to store them.

In the trailer business, I’ve been debating between selling the business or expanding it. It’s been going very well. I had 53% utilization last month! I was going to be happy at 30%. My year to date though is still pretty low. I have the cash ready to expand and buy two more trailers.. BUT I kind of want to find some sort of funding so that I don’t have to put $60k cash of my own money into the business.

Ok, so the exciting part of my life. Dating.

First Humberto. We are still chatting every day, we haven’t hung out since Ikea though which is sort of annoying. This past weekend I hinted at him multiple times to try to get him to INVITE me over to hang out but he never did. Then Sunday night he TXTed me and said “I wish we had hung out this weekend”. WTF. I’m going to be in the city on Friday with Jason and Darin so I invited him to hang out with us. As we all know, he’s super sweet and funny. I’m just sort of concerned about his sexual readiness.

Second is Kevin (Pokemon). I met him Friday night in the city, we hung out on our first date by going to look at houses for him to rent. He currently lives with his mom and dad and has a fucking CURFEW! At 25 years old! Sunday we agreed to hang out again so I drove down to his place in Fremont, picked him up and then we just did some random stuff including him getting me started on Pokemon and getting a hair cut together. Our first two dates were super random. He’s a really nice guy, funny super awk. BUT he said he could never be in a monogamous relationship! Also, he doesn’t know I’m HIV+ yet.

Army and I still chat. On Monday he told me about two dates he had this past weekend and I got super pissed. He’s currently in Los Angeles which I”m also super pissed about. He told me originally it was “just a few days during the week” but come to find out he’s there a FULL WEEK including a weekend. I could have totally seen him.

I have been really thinking about a kid more and more. But I just feel like it’s never gonna happen. I’m getting TOO OLD. At this rate by the time I find a husband, get married and then start to have a kid I’ll be fucking 40!

Nothing else to really report. I need a new job, more vacation and more monies.

I’ve been meaning to write an update but just haven’t really had time. I’ve been running all over the place.

So first, I know you’re all dying to hear about Gym Husband. Well, we FINALLY met in person. On Monday night at the gym. He told me. “I’m moving to hawaii”.. Literally the next day. Also, come to find out him and ARMY matched on Tinder. WTF. 🙁 He didn’t even match with me. I’m over him. He hasn’t texted me since.

Tuesday night I had a date with this guy Jimmy, he’s a med student in Santa Rosa, he was kinda cute but not really my type. We had fun. I drove up there Tuesday after work, we hung out with Astra and his dog. Spent the night and just cuddled and thenWed Morning we got up, had breakfast and then I drove him.

Wednesday afternoon I had a third date with Humberto. He came over and we watched a bit of a movie and then went to the fireworks. That evening was the first night we really touched, like I was holding his leg and he has his arm around mine while sitting there watching the fireworks. He went home that night and still no goodnight kiss.

Thursday and Friday were pretty boring.

Saturday I had a date with this guy VJ, horrible date. He called me a bitch within like 10 minutes of meeting. Went climbing with Hein after that and we had fun. Super cute asian guys at the gym. I managed to still crush a V2 which was amazing! I was sure I’d only be able to do a V0. Went home after that, got high and jerked off.

Saturday was another date with Humberto. We spent ALL DAY shopping. Had lunch then Ikea and some other stores, had a lot of fun. At one point I made a really dumb joke and he laughed so hard he cried. Sadly everyone I’ve shown his pictures too has said he’s ugly! I think he’s super adorable. I wouldn’t’ say he’s hot or anything, but I think he’s cute. Plus we have fun together, laught, we’re both super nerdy. Etc.

At dinner we had a long discussion about relationships, HIV, and some other stuff. I found out he hadn’t really dated or had sex until he moved here to America.

This week is going to be nuts. I have a concert tonight, three dates.

I’m sort of over this whole dating thing. I honestly have a problem right now where there’s just TOO MANY GUYS. But I feel like none of them are right for me. We will see.

Ok, so I have some exciting Gym Husband news!! Continue reading for more….

So I haven’t updated since Army left. We have been chatting but nothing much really. So nothing to update there.

Since then I have been busy trying to keep myself busy and mind occupied. Last week I had 4 dates. Thursday I met with this guy Justin who’s a PHD student in AZ. He was a nice guy, super into outdoors and hiking but since he’s in fucking AZ I doubt anything will ever happen.

Friday my date cancelled so I ended up going on a date with this guy Humberto. We went to dinner and then a movie. He was very funny, mexican, cute but has bad acne scars. We have date #2 tomorrow night but I have NO IDEA what we are going to do!

Saturday I had an all day roadtrip/date with Rich (date #3). He’s a nice guy. Apparently he’s HIV+ as well, just found out a year ago and has been dealing with it really badly. We hung out, chatted, came home, made out and watched a movie then I took him home. I spent the last couple days thinking about it but he’s just not the right guy for me. He just got WAY too jealous after our FIRST date. I cannot deal. Also while making out he just laid there like a dead fish.

Sunday was PRIDE and I met up with Ivan (FINALLY). He’s a cute and nice guy as well, I thought we had a lot of fun but then he’s been like MIA all week. I finally texted him again today and said “Hello” and he just said he’s been “been in a funky mood”. I asked him what’s wrong and no reply as of this writing. It’ll be up to him if we hang out again. I would enjoy it but we will see.

This week I have been back to my normal routine. Tonight I am having a date with Reyner who’s another HIV+ asian guy. Why are so many asian guys HIV+? He seems nice but I think he drinks WAY too much for my tastes.

Ok, So gym husband news!!!! Aren’t we all excited. As you know, I saw him on Tinder on Monday. I super liked him. Monday I went to the gym SUPER early specifically to avoid him. Tuesday I went to the gym and he wasn’t there but when I left he was SITTING IN HIS TRUCK. I pulled out and he pulled out at the same time and then he sort of followed me down the road for a bit. He turned at a corner and then seconds later I get a text message “Hi”. I reply “Hello?” He said “I got a message on my truck”. It went from there. His STORY is that he went to the gym Tuesday and forgot his headphones, was scrolling through his phone and saw the saved message “unknown-note on truck”. My theory is that he saw my LIKE on Tinder, recognized me from Gym, went there, watched, confirmed it was me and then decided to finally text!

Anyway, now that he’s FINALLY Texted me after months I just don’t know what to say to him! We’ve talked about work, gym, but I don’t know what else to say. I ask him questions, he answers but then doesn’t ask me anything. LIke if you don’t ask me things, how can you continue the convo!

Last night I went to the gym trying to purposely see him but also avoid him at the same time. I wanted to schedule it so that we had just a little bit of overlap. I texted him before I went and said “Maybe I’ll see you at the gym tonight”. He replied “Yeah if I see you I’ll def come up and introduce myself”. Well I was doing weights and out of the corner of my eye. I saw him in his normal uJam class. I finished working out at 7:45 and his class doesn’t get out until 8 usually. I got on the treadmill to try and kill time, but for some reason the class must have been running late. I text him after and he says “Oh yeah, I did cardio and then jumped in the class but I didn’t see you”.

Ugh, If he was interested in meeting me, wouldn’t you have searched me out when you arrived! Or at least looked around to see if I was there! The gym isn’t that fucking big.

So now it makes me feel weird about trying to talk to him more/text him. Ugh.

I asked him what he’s doing this weekend and it was very non-responsive. Just the basic “not sure” type answer thing.

Ugh. I dunno what to do now!!! It’s like meeting your hero, you have this idea of what they are like and then when you meet them it’s a huge let down. I knew this was going to happen.

OMG! I found gym husband on TINDER!!!!!!!!!! And on Instagram!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BOOGkNXgoFv/
https://www.instagram.com/josephalejandro/