April 19, 2001

april 19, #6, ROFLOL. my dad just called me and was like "Hey, we got

your phone bill for last month, there’s a bunch of calls to some place in

philly, it adds up to just over 5 hours, was there some problem with the phone"

and i was like, "no" and he was like "is that why you want

to go to philly" and i was like, no it’s just some friend that i met

at philmont, roflol. and then he was like, "well talk faster" roflol.

omg, i thought he would be sooo pissed, lol. but he didn’t say anything else

about anything, so i dunno what’s up with them, it’s all weird. wackos. and

he was like, "well normally it’s under $10 and now it’s like $40 something,

i guess i’ll have to take that out of your allowance" and i was like

"what allowance" roflol. omg.

April 19, 2001

april 19, #5, so i’ve said alot today, but i really haven’t said anything,

yeah. ok well i just got back from accounting, and travis was there, you could

tell he was really tense, lol. it was funny watching him, but pete called

and said i should start working on an outline for my teaching schedule, and

he had given me a few pointers and stuff, so i worked on that the whole hour,

so i didn’t really pay much attention. i got half of my contract, i’m sure

i’ve mentioned that before. i’m going to make 1,225 for the first part of

the summer, so by the time the summers over i should make about 2,100 or so

that’s my guess. i really need that money, lol. i have training days every

weekend in may, that’s going to suck, but at least it gets me out of the house

on the weekends. i won’t be able to help my cousin move though in june cause

we have a training day june 1-3 and that’s the weekend she was going to move.

so yeah. but i’m also going to miss the first two sessions, so i think that

will void my bonus at the end of the season, i hope it doesn’t it’s not like

it’s my fault i’m going to miss them. i’m in sd, they can’t expect me to drive

back just for 8 hours of training, sure it’s needed, but he said i could make

it up during the weeks that i’m home and just go up there and work with smokey

(the ranger) and chris (my boss from last summer). i hope pete’s not the camp

director for cub camp to this summer cause if he is, it’s not going to be

much fun then, last year was great, chris is so cool to work with, lol. other

then that one minor problem, someone went through all the staff tents and

took all the shoes that were left in there during the day and tied them all

into one HUGE knot. we had to cut most of the shoe laces to get them undone,

i was really pissed cause they took my good boots and i had to get new laces

for them. that wasn’t good, lol. i should go see what’s for supper, but i’m

not really all that hungry. i’ve been really tired again lately, it’s thursday

though, so that’s good news. oh. if you’re ever home on wed nights, there’s

this show on PBS from 9-10 called american high, it’s really pretty good,

it’s one of those realality tv things, which i usually don’t like, but this

one’s pretty good. but it might not be on on wed’s there, that’s when it’s

on here. yeah. i’ll leave now.

April 19, 2001

april 19, #4. <bored> lol. i was temped at leaving it at just that,

but then i was like, nah, i’ll actually write something. i dunno what i’ll

write but i guess i’ll write something. i have to go to class in a bout an

hour or so, i’m kinda nervous as to going, cause travis knows i’m in that

class, but yeah. it’s just kinda there in my head. oh well. it’ll either go

good or bad, so what’s the problem? lol i got a bunch more poems that i’ll

have to get up sometime, most of them are really good, not as good as the

ones that i did have and my pu’s got rid of, but they are good. they’re mostly

about love and such. i’m really not in a mood to look for poems right now.

there was one really good one in my Intro to lit class that i took last year,

i’ll have to see if i can find that book. hehe, dysson. what a great name

for a dog, lol. "life is like a circle" damnit i can’t find the

lryics for that song. even google can’t find them 🙁 that’s a really good

song. oh well. i like suckers orange suckers are the best.

April 19, 2001

april 19, #2. so i’m back i’ll try to explain more now, maybe.i haven’t been

making much sense lately. so the e-mail from travis said: I

have no problem with the way you are.. I don’t hold grudges against people

just because they are different. I didn’t delete you because I wasn’t cool

with whatever. I don’t know who you are first of all, and I”m not holding

anything against you.. I just don’t feel comfortable in this situation, I

hope you understand.. Its not anything personal toward you.. he’s got

an odd typing style, but i must admit, he’s caught me off gaurd, i wasn’t

expecting this from him. isn’t it odd, how i just go from one guy to the next

when i babble about people. yeah, i dunno. i guess that poem lust

would be approriate, lol. to bad it’s never come out that way, lol. yeah.

danny and i talked for a bit last night, that was good, i don’t remember if

i said anything or not but i found his planetout

personal (you’ll need a password and stuff), hehe. i’m not really liken

it (the whole, he wants a monogamous relationship and he’s got down that he’s

single), i talked to him about it, but yeah. that didn’t go to far. i can

kinda understand, but i mean he could at least be truthful in it that he’s

in an "open relationship." you can check out my personal here.

(i hope all those links work if not, my zip is 57042). umm, oh i just got

back from government, my group went today to give thier thingy, it was funny,

it got passed, which i was amazed about, but the teacher (acting as president)

said he would probably veto it. when we voted we just raised our hands and

such, and yeah i voted against our bill, cuase it was just stupid, and everyone

was like, ha, he’s not even voting for his own bill. and i was like, hell

no, cause in the bill they wanted to outlaw abortion and make the doctor do

life in prison for it, and i was like, hell no. if a woman wants an abortion

she can have it, and the fucking government shouldn’t be in that. ok on the

whole nic situation, i don’t really know what’s been going on and such, but

people have been talking about him, and his drug use, and other such stuff,

and i guess he’s been going wacko about it, and such, which seems like nic,

but i don’t think he should confront people about what they say in thier journals.

i mean, it’s ok to say, hey could you not use my name or something like that,

but asking them to change it or remove it, or whatever, yeah. (remember, uninformed

opinion). i also don’t think people should have to have disclaimers on thier

journals, that’s just going a bit to far, i mean after so long of everyone

doing this, it should be understood. I’m not saying that they shouldn’t have

it there, it’s a good idea, i’m saying there should be no need to have it

there. ya know, this college really sucks for being "gay freindly"

i mean really sucks, someone actually threatened my life the other day. i

haven’t taken much thought to it, cause i mean, i dunno. i don’t want to explain

my position on death, cause then you’ll all think i’m suicidle (sp? that really

doesn’t look right, but i’m to lazy to actually do a spell chekc) or something

like that, but i’m not so don’t worry.