Category: My Life

Monday, Monday

Hmmm, well today’s been alright so far I guess. My alarm went off at 7:30, I was going to get up and read and study some before class, since I had missed Friday. I removed the sheets and instatanly froze, so I covered back up and decided to wait a bit to get up.. I fell back asleep. I woke up again at 8 and tried getting out of bed again. I decided that the bed was better then getting up, so I laid there tell 9:30. I pulled the blanket down with me as I got out of bed, just to stay warm. It was fucking freezing in here. I got my towel and headed to the bathrooms, it was warm in there. I took a nice hot shower. I didn’t want to get out. I headed off to class about 10 and went and got some food. Classes were alright I supposed. I’ve got a test tomorrow in Cs207, that should be fairly easy.

I read alot of my bind book today. I’m up to actually setting up the servers… It’s kind of confusing cause I don’t have a group of computers that I want to set up… I just have the one. So I don’t know how to work that with the ISU network so that it all works out alright. But I think it should be alright. I’m going to set up my initial server here in a bit.

Speaking of bind and such… Someone left a really nasty comment on Julians website posing as me. I’ve traced the IP down to an ISP based in Mo. That’s about as far as I can go. I sent that info to Julian, so I dunno if he’ll do anything with it. People are just so rude.

OK, I’m off to understand bind and hopefully get a server up and running… Perhaps I’ll end up installing Redhat on my old beast here sometime.

…Today

Well today’s been alright… Adam called me early this morning and I went over and picked him up… Little was said to the rest of the family. We went out to my car and I asked… “So where are we off too.” He said “Barnes and Noble.” My mom and I were going to go there this afternoon to get books, so I just called her and we met her there. Adam and I talked about things on the way there and I think all’s going to be good… I know everything’s going to be good.

I got a book on PHP/MySQL, DNS & BIND, and Linux Security, so I’m going to read those here in a bit. After the book store Adam and I headed back to Ankeny… We got back and Rob was still home, so we went off for a while longer, when we finally returned Rob was gone, so we went in and talked… It was good. He had to work at 2, so that sucks… Today as we were saying out goodbyes he started to cry and that made me sad. Today was really hard to say goodbye. But we’ll get to see each other again on Friday… I can’t wait tell then.

When will I see him again?

Tonight has royally sucked ass. Adam and I got home about 5ish and went over to his house. We were just going to spend the night on the couch in front of the fire place. It was going to be nice and sweet. His mom got home, she wasn’t happy about something, she didn’t really express it that much.. But you could tell. They all ate, then they decided that they weren’t going to go out tonight, so that ruined Adam and my plans. We asked if we could come to my house, to watch TV, Adam had got the QaF DVD’s. We went out to the car to get them and were headed towards my car. Adam’s mom popped her head out the door and said, “Adam can I talk to you for a minute.” He went back inside, I went to start my car to warm it up. I started it and sat there for a while… And I sat there… And I sat there. Finally 15 minutes later, I was like screw this and went back inside to find out what was going on… As I came up the steps I could see in the windows.. Rob was on the couch, Melinda was on the couch arm. Adam was standing in front of them.. is coat off, his head down, I could tell it wasn’t good, I went and knocked on the door, hoping to save him, he motioned me in. I went in and Melinda continued with what she was saying… It wasn’t good. I could see that Adam was about in tears. I could see his heart on the floor as his mom ripped into him some more. They finished and Adam came towards me, spilled on his shoes. No coat. I knew what he was going to say, I stepped out the door and he came behind me, before he even got the door shut the tears came rolling down his face. I knew what it was about, I knew what had happened in there. He came out side and started telling me the story, I felt so bad for him. I wanted to just stand there and hold him all night, tell him things were going to be ok, because they will. Things will be ok. I know they will. He was in tears and I could tell how much his mom had hurt him. I knew that she was doing what she felt was right as a parent, but I don’t think she was. She didn’t need to rip into him that much, esspecially when he was getting ready to leave to go somewhere. I left him, I didn’t want too, I wanted to stay there and hug him all night, I wanted to be there for him to cry on when he needed me.

I cried all the way home feeling so bad for him. I got home and my mom came to the door, she asked what was wrong, we talked for like an hour about him, and his parents. How they’re doing, in everything. We talked about it all…

My mom thinks that Adam’s a scapegoat for his mom, some one she can take her frustration out on… She can’t do it on Abbie, or Rob…. So it’s Adam… Granted he does deserve to be punished in some way for his bad grades, and his debt, but I think she’s taking it all to an extreme. Maybe it’s just me.. Maybe I’m missing a part of the story.

She had alot of good suggestions and insights into things. Mostly things we’ve already looked at, like getting him out of there, how he could afford it, ways he could get his debt paid off. She’s a wise woman.