Author: Cj B

It’s to soon to lose another…

Well here I am on the flight back to LA from Iowa. It’s been a really short trip but much needed.

Let’s go back in time a bit first.

Friday night I got off work and headed over to Syliva’s house. Met up with her around 5:30 and we went to get dinner at this sushi place. It was pretty good, had some interesting new sushi that I enjoyed. I’ve never really been a sashimi person which we got a little bit of. From there we headed back to her house and grabbed some wine, chatted on the pourch, watched the sunset, talked about boys and boy troubles and what not. Got done with that and we had a little mary j then headed to the concert.

Liza fucking Minelli! Amazing. We were late, we got amazing seats, we could have pur our ARMS on the fucking stage! Amamzing.

We left at the intermission. Went back to her house, had more wine, more mary, watched Benjamin Button and then went to bed.

I got up eary the next morning and went to my car, plugged in my phone and had two missed calls from my dad. I knew something not good had happened. I called him back. GG has passed away in the night.

I went to a coffee bean at Hollywood and Highland to meet up with Adam and booked flights back home, left on Sunday afternoon. As we were walking back to my car the fucking meter maid was giving me a ticket for parking in a zoned area. Who the fuck knew! UGH! Another fucking ticket.

Anyways, Adam and I went up to San Antonio falls and did some canyoneering which was fun. Drove home from there and packed and got everything organized for the trip home.

Sunday came and I went to the office to get some work done then headed to the airport.

Got home that night and went to the house, sat on the back pourch listening to the bugs and crickets and what not then went to bed.

Got up EARLY on Monday, drove mother to work then drove the truck to Lenox. Met up with the family, did visitation that evening, came home from that and sat around with the family at Grandma’s house talking about GG and Grandpa and other random things! Ate TONS of food and drank lots of wine!

Tuesday was the funeral again we were all up early. Services SUCKED this time because of the new pastor, he didn’t even take the time to get to know the family or ask what GG was like. He basically just READ her fucking OBIT which was annoying as hell. I did break down crying for some of it. It was really sad to thinking back just over a year ago to Grandpa’s funeral.

The precession was a little funny because we had to pass a hay bailer on the way out to the cemetary. Everyone hung around at the cemetary for an oddly long amount of time after, unlike grandpas where everyone left pretty quickly.

Got back to the church, had lunch, did some family pictures and then went back to grandma’s and basically spent the night there just chatting again. I was alittle annoyed that we didn’t go out and do something else. I picked some pears which was nice and relaxing.

Wed was another early morning beacuse of all the noise in the house and I was sleeping in the living room. Again we mostly just hung out at the house, went over to GG’s for alittle bit to pick out things that we wanted from her. I got some nice crystal bowls and the Bell that I have given her from Paris.

Drove home with Sheila that evening, then met up with my parents at the climbing gym and did some bouldering for a while. Came home, ate dinner then went up to Ames to meet up with this guy that I had met at Christmas. Hung out at his house for litterally 30 minutes and then came home.

I was very annoyed with Morgan again this week. He txted me on Sunday asking how climbing was. I told him I was in Iowa, no reply, no “sorry to hear, hope all is well”. Nothing. UGH. Then I txt him to see if he can help me out with some shopping, he replies back that he could so I sent him an email told him to REPLY to let me know he got it, NOTHING.

UGH. Asshole.

On monday Daniel randomly IMed me. He had know way of knowing that I was in Iowa, but he asked if we could hang out, apparently he’s been having dreams about me? Random. I Told him next week.

Today I met up with Angel and we hung out for the afternoon, it was good to see her again, but things with her and Rick are not going so well. I wish she’d just move out and start over again. She needs someone much better then that!

Met up with mother after that and then dad and I went out to dinner. Dropped me off at the airport.

I’m looking forward to camping this weekend. I am going to be uber lazy and relaxed!

NIght all.

R.I.P Winnie Spring

winnie with rhinestone glassesWinnie Mae Spring, youngest daughter of Fred and Mary Josephine Else, was born May 30, 1911 outside of Guss, Iowa on the family farm. She left this life to rejoin her family and friends on August 29, 2009.

Winnie grew up on the farm. After her mother’s death Winnie spent her high school years with her brothers and sisters, therefore she attended several different schools and was thrilled to graduate from Corning High School in 1931. Winnie continued her education with night and summer classes and one of her proudest achievements was receiving her bachelor’s degree from Drake University in 1971.

After graduating from high school Winnie taught country school for two years before finding her life partner in Clyde Spring. They were united in marriage on December 28, 1932 in Maryville, Missouri. The pair were blessed with 5 children,Clytha, Berdine, Janette, Larry, and Reldon.

In 1961 Clyde and Winnie became members of the Prescott Order of the Eastern Star. Together they traveled many miles attending meetings and functions. Winnie served as Worthy Matron in 1986, 1989, and 1990. As well as serving as Worthy Matron she held a variety of other positions in Eastern Star. She served as Grand Warder from1989-1990 and traveled extensively all over Iowa with her traveling companion Ellen Grace Brown. She enjoyed meeting up with her fellow officers who served with her and the group-who dubbed themselves the Peanut Clusters-had regular reunions. They just had their annual gathering in August 2009 which she thoroughly enjoyed.

Clyde and Winnie farmed for several years near Guss and Corning, Iowa before they purchased a farm north of Prescott in 1944 where they lived for 31 years. While living on the farm Winnie always grew a big garden and canned lots of her garden treats. Winnie returned to teaching school in 1953 and taught country school for 5 years before taking a position teaching 7th grade at Prescott and retired there in 1975.

After retirement Clyde and Winnie moved to Las Vegas, NV for two years. They decided to move back to Iowa and built a home in Lenox. After their retirement they enjoyed traveling and visiting family all over the country.

Winnie was an active member in the Prescott Methodist Church and later the Lenox United Methodist Church. She served as Circle Leader and U.M.W. President and found greeters for each Sunday’s service for over 10 years.

Winnie was an avid card player and whenever friends and family gathered she could be counted on for a game of cards. She loved to tell jokes and make others laugh. She enjoyed reading and writing and could always be counted on to have a good book on hand to share. She enjoyed quilting and made many quilts for her friends and family. Winnie was a wonderful cook and her family especially enjoyed her roast and noodles and delicious pies, especially her rhubarb and peach.

Winnie was a devoted and loving mother, grandmother, great grandmother, great-great grandmother, and friend. Her family and friends will always remember her unfailing kindness and wonderful sense of humor.

Welcoming her to her new life are husband Clyde; Winnie’s parents, Fred and Mary Josephine Else; her siblings Bessie Lewis, Erma Clowser, Myrtle Corbin, Lester Else, Francis Else, Cassie Foster, Archie Else, and Victor Else; daughter Janette Johnson; grandson Curtis Johnson; father and mother-in-law John and Cora Spring; and son-in-law Kenneth Black. Left to cherish Winnie’s memory are her children; Clytha Black of Lenox, IA , Berdine (Florence) Spring of Palm Desert, CA, Larry (Diane) Spring of Lenox, Iowa, Reldon (Lometa) Spring of Las Vegas, NV, and son-in-law Larry Johnson of Fontanelle, IA. Nine grandchildren; Janell Black, Jim (Peggy) Black, Sheila Mansfield, Raymond(Teresa) Johnson, Belinda (Robert) Lawson, Pam Spring, Tony Spring, Paul (Sara) Spring, Sheri(Jack) Shores. Ten great-grandchildren; Rebecca Weaver Armes (Neil), Chris Black, Andy Black, Paige Lawson, Justine Lawson, Bailey Shores, Logan Shores, Joseph Spring, Derek Spring, Josh Spring, and one great-great granddaughter Keira Hauser. Sister-in-law and husband Ed and Marge Naven of Lenox, IA. Also many nieces, nephews, cousins, and friends.

Am I too busy?

So, I’ve been thinking about just closing down shop over here. It’s been nearly 9 years now. I don’t know. I tried to stop a while back, but then I came back to it after a while. I might just stop updating every week and slow down. There’s not much to really report.

Friday I went on a date with this guy Adam. He’s the guy I went hiking with last weekend. He’s a nice guy, but I’m not sure I’m interested. He’s def interested in me. We shall see.

Saturday I ran around town, bought books, researched portland stuff, read, watched a movie, went out and about, etc.

Sunday Morgan and Sophia came to my house, we went rock climbing. Claudia, Silvia, Jerry and Meghan(!) were there. We had a great time, did some lead climbing and what not. Morgan brought me coffee. It was really awk seeing him again. On the car ride home we talked a lot, got back to my place. I offered for him to stay a bit, he refused. :'( So I guess the answer is just friends. He WILL not fucking talk about it though, it’s so fucking annoying. UGH.

I’m hiring Sophia as my assistant. We shall see how that goes.

I have a date tomorrow night with Marshal. He’s a great guy, but not for me. He likes to just sit at home, watch movies, and watch TV. I can’t do that shit.

I might be going to Zion next month with Adam. We shall see.

Work is redic. I hate people.

I’m so tired of being single and alone. Why is it so hard for me to find a boyfriend! I was talking to this random yesterday and he said that I probably intimidate guys with all my crazy activities and what not. Ugh.

Honestly, I’m feeling very depressed lately, and I hate this feeling. Make it go away!

Breaking up with Myself!

Ugh. So the last week has been ungodly emotional and horrible for me.

I’ve basically broken up with myself over Morgan, I fell so hard for him, so fast, so much. And then he just leaves and breaks all that down and leaves me in the dust to basically break up with myself.

Ever since we got back from Robber’s he’s been acting really weird, not returning phone calls, txts, etc. I was used to him being REALLY slow at returning txts, but at least he would return them. Now he won’t return shit.

Over the weekend he was in Michigan, I called Saturday night because I really needed to find out if there was any way to get his gear from him. He didn’t answer and of course never called back. Sunday his sister posted a vague post on facebook about him being in a hospital. I of course assumed that meant he was actually IN the hospital, so I txted him and no reply. He txted me AS he was getting on the plane that he was headed back to LA.

Then nothing at ALL on Monday, I woke up about 3am and stupidly txted him then asking what his deal was. Tuesday at like 4:30 he got online and we chatted for about 10 minutes he was being really vague and annoying. But he initiated that convo. So I got home and was hoping he’d still be online, but of course he wasn’t.

Wed he was only for a while and we chatted for a bit, this was a more productive communications, but still annoying. I had to run because David got to my house, I had sent him like 5 messages about going to rock climbing gyms, etc and then said. “I have to run, let me know if you’re coming sunday… have a good night”. You’d think he would at least reply to something, but NO reply at all. Very annoying.

Then today he was online for all morning, but I wasn’t even my office. When I got back he was gone and he hasn’t been online again. Ugh.

So basically I have broken up with myself over him. I’m not going to play this game. Fuck You, It’s over…

I really wanted something to happen with this and him. Now I’m just heart broken over a relationship that never even happened. And I’m going to end up an old, bitter gay man, begging lesbians to have sex with me.

Fuck it. I hate this shit! Why on earth can people like Jason have boyfriends for so long, when he doesn’t even fucking ACKNOWLEDGE that they are in a relationship, he just uses them. FUCK it. I’m a great guy, I’m nice, I have a ton of things going on for me and to the benefit of someone else (especially someone like Morgan) and yet I can’t fucking keep a guy around.

Fuck it, Nice guys do always finish last.