Author: Cj B

So last night was Valentines day. I had been talking to this guy for a week now and we decided on Monday to have a date Wednesday, when we decided I didn’t even realize it was Valentines day! haha.

So we decided to meet at this place called Crush in Fairfield. We figured there would be a huge wait, so I got there early and the place was EMPTY. There are only about 5 tables in the whole place so we got one right away. They were having a prix fixe meal for V-day, which I wasn’t expecting and cost $100, so I paid.

The food was really yummy. I’m going to have to go back there again when it’s not prix fixe and see what the other dishes were like.

The guy was super nice, very very cute. He works at a fast food place and is trying to save money to go to college. He likes hiking and outdoors.

After dinner we walked to this mexican ice cream store and got ice cream and just chatted then I walked him back to his car and we made out a bit and said goodnight.

We’re already discussing a second date to go hiking so we will see if that works or not.

Army also got his V-day gift and he seemed happy about it. Though he never said “Thanks” which is a bit annoying. He just said “awwww, daddy got me a present. I’m happy” and then he asked me what my shirt and pants sizes are. Weird. He has been saying “Night daddy” the last couple nights but no phone calls/facetimes… I FaceTimed him the other day on my way home from the gym to tell him a story about this crazy situp guy, but he didn’t seem that interested and said he had to go study so it was very brief.

Yesterday at work we also had a huge Chinese new year lunch. It was SUPER AWK and took like 3 fucking hours! There was SO MUCH FOOD but most of it I didn’t eat cause it was fish.

I hired a new guy yesterday. I emailed HR and asked them to please extend an offer letter. My boss came over to me a few minutes later and was like “We really need to make sure we have group interviews moving forward”. Umm, excuse me? It’s my fucking department. He’s a low level fucking employee, why do we need to have GROUP INTERVIEWS. Let me fucking run/hire my department myself. I fucking hate being micro-managed!

RPF called me yesterday and apparently their new ERP system is delayed YET AGAIN until May. When the new bosses took over they said they would have it in place in 3 months and they kept me on for 6. Now here it is a year and a half later and they aren’t LIVE with it yet! I guess the company they chose to go with just cannot deliver anything they promised. I should have just stayed on with them.

I’m having trouble writing much here today…

Army things have been strange again. Last week he called me nearly every day to chat. One day he even called twice. Then Saturday he called me twice, then yesterday barely anything and nothing yet today. I don’t get it. Jason says I need to stop. It’s super annoying how army never seems to care about what I’m doing or how my day has been, etc. I always ask him how his day is, what he’s been up too, etc. But he never asks me things like that. I bought him a small v-day gift that will be delivered on Wed. Why am I doing this to myself? Stupid.

I went on a date with this asian guy last night. He literally lives around the corner from my house, he was nice but super AWK.

Saturday I met this other guy from Vacaville, also nice but not exactly my type. We will for sure hang out more though because we had fun, but nothing more then friends there.

Sunday I went shopping, accidentally spent $600+ in about 45 minutes at the outlet stores. That place is dangerous. Then I purged my old clothes. Donated 3 garbage bags full of old clothes. I have only ONE pair of blue jeans left because I decided I hated all of the ones I have. Plus I donated ALL of my shoes except for the pair I wear every day and my hiking boots.

I matched with this really cute guy on Tinder, we were chatting and then he said “Oh I”m just visiting.” I asked where are you from. He said: “You won’t know where it is, but The tri-cities”. WTF why couldn’t I meet him when I lived there!

The roommate never came home on Friday night after work, then showed up randomly about 2pm Saturday and was home for about an hour then left and said “I’ll be back tonight”. He didn’t come home again until about 11pm Sunday. Sure, he’s an adult he can do what he wants and come and go as he pleases, but I just wish he would let me know if he’s going to be home or not. Cause I feel super AWK if I have someone over and he’s going to be around or he will just randomly show up. So I don’t want to invite people over unless I know for SURE he will be gone.

I’ve been debating blocking Calvin on social media, but I feel like I should email him and explain why before I do.

We just had our weekly corporate meeting and they are shuffling all these people around. Making things more “independent”. They hired these expensive ass consultants and so far everything they’ve at least announced, _I_ could have told them needed to be done.

This weekend I officially am UNDER 200lbs! Need to keep up at the gym and hopefully by next weekend I’ll be down to 190! I haven’t been under 200lbs in years.

I do not get the dating game… I need a cheat code for it. Why does everything have to be a game.

Boy A likes Boy B. Why can they not just say that, be open about it and not fucking play games!

Thumper and I made a FOURTH date. He cancelled again. I haven’t heard from him since. He has today off. I was so into him, I already know him in person. He sends me lots of cute pics, we were chatting non-stop for weeks now. I just do not get it.

Then, on Monday fucking ARMY txts me while I’m at the gym. He says “I miss my Daddy” with a crying emoji face. I txt him back, “Are you fucking drunk”. He facetimes me. We end up chatting for 3 hours on FT.

Then we go by a few days, very little chatting then last night I’m sitting here after my cancelled date and Army facetime out of the blue. We chatted for about 30 minutes.

WTF!? BOYS!

Then all these guys “match” me on tinder and then never reply to messages. Same with OKCupid, no replies.

I had my second PT today. He gave me some more exercises but said that my knee was getting stronger already. I told him I’m not feeling anything different.

Been going to the gym daily. I feel like there’s some improvement already.

I’m so bored at work! I need a new career. The last two jobs I’ve been insanely bored. Mostly because the “projects” they hire me to do, never actually happen. So I end up being a desktop support person. Which is NOT what I want to be doing with my life. For example. Today I installed O365 on someone’s computer and then I showed another person how to create a rule in Outlook. ::shoot me::

There’s a lot of stuff I could be doing but I do not want to do. It’s just menial IT administration tasks. I want to be doing projects, managing things, etc. Not doing inventory.

I’ve been reviewing resumes and there’s so many people with all these certifications. I swear they must just CRAM for them, pass the test then put it on resume. There’s no way you can have enough knowledge to have MSSQL, CCNA, COMPTIA, etc all in one person. I also had someone with SIX fucking AA degrees!

I took the entry level compTIA test yesterday, with no studying or anything. Just decided to go for it. I got 62%. If I had got one or two more questions right, I could have passed it. Certifications are BS, IMHO.

I said earlier that I’ve been debating going back for my MBA, but I just am not sure it’s worth it. Will it get me anything better? Honestly I feel like I’ve lost my edge in the IT world. I need to get back up to speed but I’m just not sure how to do that.

Thumper and I have been chatting a lot this week. Doing the whole good morning/goodnight thing, talking about our days, what I like to do. Unlike Army who told me to “go watch youtube”. He’s also been sending me all these super adorable photos of him. Woof! We are going to hang out on Saturday evening, so I am excited for that. We will see what happens there.