Author: Cj B

july 16, [eagles, "heartache tonight"] ok so the last 30 hours

or so have been so great. much good touchy goodness. hehe. ok well sunday,

the 15th. adam and i got together about noon or so and we went to MHM and

hung out there and found my cousin a gift type thing. it was cool, first i

was like, i have no idea what to get her, then we passed this art store and

i was like, ohhh van goh (SP) but yeah, and we looked for paintings and such,

and then adam was like, how about a book about him, and i was like, "he’s

cute and has good ideas" so we went to the bookstore there and got her

this really cool book. i’m hopen she likes it. well by the time we got out

of there it was about 2:30 or so and we were like, lets go to deans, so we

went there, and found his place. that was amusing. we weren’t sure which one

was his. i found the place that i thought was his, and there was music and

i was like, hmm, is it madona, it wasn’t but it was the right place. we hung

out there and talked for a bit, waiting for jules to call, he finally called

adam about 3:30 or so and we were like, get your ass over here. so he came

over to deans and we left. we got to lincoln about 7:30 or so. maybe a little

before that, it was a really good ride out there. much cuddly goodness. we

got there and everyone met my cousin, it was good. then we ate lasagna and

watched tv and such. good times, good times. it turns out that we could have

spent a couple hours there, cause angies plane was way late. that’s a whole

different story, so yeah. but we went to the airport and hung out there tell

the plane came in about midnight or so. we rode back, good cuddly times there

too. then we went and dropped ang off at home. dean, jules, adam and i were

staying the nights at dean’s, good times. adam and i started off with me on

the couch and him on the floor. then i moved down to the floor and we cuddled

and giggled and laughed and it was just good times. i had fun. then we were

like, this is uncomfy so we moved into the bedroom, where there was a single

bed. it was nice, but a bit to small and it was really hot in there. so we

moved back out the living room, but we were like, lets try the couch, that

just didn’t work, so we ended back up on the floor. we talked a bit more,

and laughed a ton more. he’s so damn funny. i really enjoyed last night. much

much cuddly goodness. about 4 or 5 this morning we were like we should actually

go to bed. so we layed down, wuth our arms around each other. and kinda went

to sleep, i think i got maybe an hour or so of good sleep last night. i spent

most of the night just looking at adam and enjoying having him so close to

my body, and yeah, good times. i don’t think there was like more then ten

minutes that we weren’t actually touching each other last night, lol. omg it was so great. hmm, do you think there was much cuddly goodness last night?

we got up about 12 and hung out on the couch, we got jules and dean up about

2 and jules found out his brother had been in an accident, so he had to go.

so i took adam home, and he showered and i went home and showered then we

met back up at his house and went and got ang, we went shopping it was so

cool. bout the time we got to VWM my car started acting like it was missing,

so i was like, ok no prob, just needs new spark plugs or a distributor. so

i drove adam home and on the way to ang’s it started burning oil, like mad

burning, and i was like, oohhhhh shit. so i left it at ang’s. bad times there.

but i’m home now, and it’s all good. i’m just hoping it’s not going to cost

alot to fix my car. ya know, it’s really funny that adam and i’ll sleep together,

but we haven’t kissed yet. lol. oh well, i can’t wait tell friday, sleep over

at his house 🙂 well laters all

july 15, [amber, "can you feel the love"] ok well tonight’s been

ungood times. i guess you can say that. well it’s been a pretty good day in

all. work was good, there was no marlin, there was no one to bitch at me,

the peole were nice today. it was a good work day. it was so good i didn’t

even bitch at karen when she got there. then i went out with mandy. we went

to java joes, since adam didn’t call like i told him too and he didn’t anser

his phone when i called. but yeah, we went there and we were sitting out side.

and adam pulls up, and we sit there, and he gets out and stands next to his

car, and he checks his phone, and then goes inside. and just as he was walking

in the door i call him again, cause i was going to say "well just walk

past me and not say anything" but he didn’t answer yet again, so mandy

and i went and stood next to his car and waited for him to come out. he did

and we went to the loop. i dunno, tonight was good, i just felt a little ignored,

i dunno, maybe i’m just being in one of those, pay attention to me NOW moods,

but yeah. i felt a bit ignored. i can’t wait tell tomorrow though. i’m thinking

i’ll have to sleep in tell like 1 so that i can stay up late enough, hehe.

it should be really cool. i’m sooooooooo excited.

july 14, [acdc, "back in black"] ok so sorry about the no update

ysterday, but it was just a sucky day. however, today’s been great. i went

to work, and there was no marlin, so that was good. but i should never work

with mandy for extended amounts of time, i think we would kill each other.

but then after work i went out with adam to that summerfest thing, that was

great cause i got to meet all his friends. and i finally got to meet that

mike guy, i think that’s his name, he’s damn fucking hot though, lol. we talked,

it was good times. adam told some other girl about him being bi and such and

that was amusing for me. cause he was like, i need to talk to you over here,

and this other girl that was standing there was just going "he’s gay,

he’s gay" and i was amused. but yeah. and then earlier we were talking

and he was like, "ya sometimes i’ll introduce you as my bf and sometimes

just as my friend" and i’m cool with that, but he feels so bad about

it, cause well i dunno really. i mean i can understand why you would want

to do that, and i’ll do it sometimes too when he meets some people. but i

understand the whole in the closet thing, and i’m thinking i’m just lucky

that he wants to go out with me. 🙂 but yeah, tonight was good times. we hung

with his mom some too, that was amusing. but other then that it was just a

good night hanging with adam. good times. good times. well i have 5 people

IMing me, so i’m going to go talk to them now. laters.

july 11, #2 [bush, "swim"] so this morning adam called and said

he couldn’t go out with me this morning cause he had to paint or something,

sounded like he had just got out of bed, but yeah. so i went out by myself.

i didn’t find anything i thought she’d like, i called shiela, her mom, and

she said that she was wanting like ivy stuff for her kitchen so i focused

on that. i went to kohls, target, wal-mart, k-mart, and younkers and didn’t

find anything. but i did get some things for myself, hehe. but yeah so i got

home about 3 or so and i came inside and went to the kitchen to get a pop,

my dad was in there and i thought it’d be nice to tell him i’d be home for

july 11, [alanis morissette, "ironic"] ok well today’s been okey

i guess. work sucked like normal, but then i went out. i went to java joes

first and ran into candice and jamie, that was cool we talked a bit, then

i went and called adam, and he was at the loop, so i went there to see him.

we met up and i was like, hey wanna go back to java joes and see if candice

and jamie want to come to the loop. and they were like yeah, so we were heading

back to my car when we saw jules and dean, so we got them and all went back

to java joes, candice and jamie had left though, so that was sad, but we stayed

and talked a bit. it was good times, then we went back to the loop and jules

and dean left. so adam and tara and i hung out there. adam ran into an old

friend down there, which was amusing for me, but he was freaked out somewhat.

then on the way home we talked about like the whole touchy feely type things

and i’m cool with touchy feely stuff, but yeah. it’s kinda wierd, the whole

relationship thing. it’s like, how far can i go, how far’s he want me to go.

you know, and of course i’m not the kind to take the first step, so yeah.

it doesn’t work out to well. i mean i don’t mind the touchy feely at all,

i like it alot. i like the feeling of him there, but i mean, it’s like, how

far’s he want to take this, it’s the whole not knowing, sometime i think we

should just like sit down and have a long talk about everything in general,

but yeah. things are good between us, i think. and i’m really liken’ being

with him. i really am.