Author: Cj B

I Did…

Haha.. So Andrew just updated his Journal… And He said the following:

Against the advice of Joe, I’m writing about this anyway. (Sorry Joe!) Chris called me late Saturday night (my phone was off) and he left me two very nasty messages. Basically he sounded drunk and kept telling me I was a fucking bitch and a fucking jackass and all this stuff. The second message said that he “hopes I fucking die” so those were definitely nice messages to wake up to. Instead of doing something heinous back (which I was fighting with all my being) I have decided to just not do anything. And just PS, my writing about it on my journal is just chronicling that it happened, not an actual response.

Well, I’m very glad to know that I DID infact call him a jackass, etc. Because he is a fucking dumb ass and I do hope that he dies.

So whatever. God I just wish that I fucking remembered what all I said to him.

Adios Yall.

Boring End…

So the rest of the weekend has been very boring.

After Austin left on Sunday I didn’t even get out of bed till 4pm. Hell, I didn’t even wake up till 2. Found out that Austin had my cell phone, so I drove down there to pick it up about 5:30 or so and wasn’t planning on staying at all, but he invited me to stay for a while. We laid in his bed and watched some TV. He kept saying, “why do you tease me” but he wouldn’t elaborate. He also said that when we got home from the bar we laid in bed talking for a long time, but he wouldn’t tell me about what.

I left there about 7, and found that I drunk dialed a lot more people then I thought:

Danny P (twice)

Austin (even though he was IN THE CAR)

Andrew

Brandon

Jenks

Ginny

Oksy

I’ve heard from Oksy, Jenks and Ginny since then. I’m very annoyed with Andrew in general and still want to call and bitch him out, even though I’m pretty sure I did that while I was drunk.. At least if I did it again, I would remember doing it. That stupid fucker. ::death eyes::

Got home and laid around in bed chatting with people online. This guy on myspace found me and said that he was sitting next to us at the bar for awhile and asked me on a date.. I don’t have any memory of this guy, but whatever. Maybe I will take him up on that… who knows. He doesn’t have any pics up on myspace, and he says he doesn’t have any digital ones to send.. Which I usually take means he’s ugly.

Today I got up about 10 and went to the store and bought stuff for Peanut Pie.. Yummy! I’ve already eaten 1/4th of it. 🙁 I’ll be so fat… But according to Austin’s scale, I’m down to 160… and he said it was acurate. Who knows. I still feel fatter then normal. Perhaps I’m preg… Though I dunno who from, since I haven’t had sex in a year, does that mean I’m a born again virgin?!

Came home, made the pie and have just been sitting around reading and looking things up. I got the newest Adbusters, and they’ve changed the paper they use to something very cheap. It’s annoying.

On friday on my way home I took a little bit of a different route, and right down the street from my office they are building these big condo buildings called the 3000 The Plaza.

They have these HUGE signs saying “Starting in the low $400,000’s”… So.. I really want a house/condo.. And these look UBER nice. I figure I could get a 1 bedroom and do an interest only loan for like 4 or 5 years, and then sell it. Make a nice profit hopefully and do whatever. Even if I don’t STAY in the area for that long, I could rent it out after I leave or something.

Who knows.

I’m sure as with everything else, I’ll end up not doing it. I need motivation people!

Oh, I test drove the Volvo S40… I really loved the car itself, but there was ONE VERY annoying thing about it.. The damn gas and brake pedal are WAY too close together. I dunno if I could live with that… And I don’t think you should have to LEARN how to drive your car as the dealer said, “You’ll learn to deal with it”… NO, that’s not an answer!

Blast, I’m out!

It’s Over … Maybe?

Sooo… Long weekend. Lots to update about.

Friday at work was LONG LONG LONG. Nothing to do, I just wanted to fucking go home all day.

I finially got off and went home and took a nap because I didn’t sleep worth shit the night before. Austin called me at like 4:30, woke me up, and wanted to go to the movies. So I suggested the 7:40 showing so that way I would have time to eat and shower and wake up, etc.

But he wanted to go to the 5:30 showing, so I just jumped up got dressed real quick and went down there. Got there and wasn’t really in a talkative mood so we just went to the movie. Saw Date Movie. It was OK, but not all the best. They could have done it a lot better.

After that got out we went back to his place and talked and hung out and watched Beauty and the Beast. After the movie was over we laid in bed talking for a long time and it was really good. BTW, he got a job offer Friday, so we were talking about how that should go and what he wants to do.

It kinda upset me because he kept saying that he doesn’t want to learn more and he just wants an easy job. That’s really not what I’m looking for in a guy.

But still the talk was good, and I was happy. I was hoping that he would invite me to stay. But about 11:30 I said, “Well unless I’m staying, I should head home cause I’m going to fall a sleep” So I got up and left.

It always upsets me when he doesn’t want me to spend the night. I love sleeping with him, well I love sleeping with anyone. But still. He’s just so cozy to sleep with.

So I come home and went to bed.

Saturday I spent the morning doing laundry and cleaning, etc. Left here about 1 and went shopping for a few things. Austin met up with me here at my house about 4, he was really pissed off because he was supposed to pick up his brother to come shopping with us, but his brother disappeared and didn’t call Austin to tell him where he was at.

It’s VERY understandable that he was pissed, but he really took it out on me, which upset me a lot. And he keeps telling me to “Shut up” or “Be quiet”. I know he usually says it jokingly, but it still upsets me. :'(

So he got here and we went off to Ikea, shopped around and I found a bed frame that I really like, but it was $300, so I didn’t buy it. Also found some other stuff. Either way, we left there and came back to my area and got food. On the way back we got into this argument about going out. Again, he doesn’t like the fact that I’m not out going when we go out and he says it’s uncomfortable being out with me because we just sit there and watch people. I’m sorry, but that’s what I do, I enjoy going to the bar and hanging out. I DO NOT DANCE, etc. So we got into it at Panda Express and started yelling at each other. It was sad.

Came back to my house and he ate his food. Then we talked some and made up and decided to lay in bed and watch Mysterious Skin, he hated it. I still think it was a really good movie. Whatever.

After that we got into another argument about something else. I can’t even remember now, but it ended up with him leaving and me screamning. “GOOD BYE” out the door. Cause he wouldn’t acknoldege that I was saying anything to him. He came back and I laid in bed and he sat there talking to me. I’m not even sure how it happened, but we ended up deciding to go out anyways.

So I got up and got dressed and we went to H Marys. It was lots of fun, and we laughed and talked and stuff. I got REALLY drunk and drunk dialed Andrew, Oksy, Jenks and a few other people, but I can’t remember who right now. And I lost my phone somewhere, so I can’t look it up.

We did end up dancing, but he said he was getting pissed off with me dancing. I don’t fucking know why though.

Anyways, we came home and I threw up some. And I’m sure he’s pissed at me for that too. So we went to bed and I passed out as soon as we did. Woke up this morning and he jacked me off. Then he went home.

I feel asleep again and didn’t wake up till 2, layed in bed and watched Project Runway till 4, then got up showered and made dinner. Now I’m laying in bed writing this.

I think I’m over this whole thing with Austin. I can’t deal with his attitude any more. So unless he really changes once he starts his job, nothing’s gonna happen any more. I just can’t deal with the emotional ups and downs of his.

Adios yall.

Honey

Hmm, so what’s going on with Austin….

He’s started on the whole calling me baby and honey thing again. He’s staying over more, and he left me this cute little note today:

thanks for letting me spend the night honey

xoxoxo

austin

Last night he spent the night again and I really wanted to just do him. I was so wanting it last night. But I held out. He did end up jacking off early this morning though.

So yeah, plus we were talking in bed last night and he was all, Why are you going on so many dates. And I told him that since he doesn’t want to date me that I’m looking for someone, and want to keep searching. So yeah. Then he talked to me about how he doesn’t want to jump into a relationship and that he’s still too young. Which I’ve heard it all before. I don’t want to force him into a relationship. But I do want one with him. As we all know.

I dunno, maybe I can live with this psuedo boyfriend thing for a while.. Add a little sex in there and it’d be pretty cool. But I feel things would get fucked up.