so i just got out of my first class for the day, american
government, and today we had this debate all day and he just trough out subjects,
one of them was gay marriage. you would not beleive what some of these people
said. he phrased the question so it was more of for government tax purposes
etc, you know. but these people are so fucking stupid. they were like “churches
don’t recongnize them.” and people were just being all stupid. one person
even said “they’re fags who cares” and people fucking laughed at
that. i was bout ready to scream. but i didn’t. AHHHHHH, this is one fucked
up state. ok so today, well lately, i’ve been really depressed. again. i don’t
know it’s like i go into and come out of these things. i have so much Hw to
do, but i don’t want to do it, cause it’s all busy work. i have to type up
that bill for that stupid class yet, and i have to change the damn program
now, that stupid bastard. and i have to read four chapters in american gov,
and read a chapter and do some HW in accoungint. i wanna talk to danny. i
wish i had money, i wish i could just say screw this semester and go out there
and get a job or something. this state is really getting to me again. people.
people are strange, i think that hink this morning just really set me off
again. but i’ve been depressed alot for the last couple days. i think i’m
hooked on danny and his voice. t’s so sweet and cute. and i love the way he
says nuttin, it’s so damn cute. lol. and he knows it lol. i’m so out of it today. it’s like i keep thinking it’s wed and it’s not it’s only tues and
shit. i’m going to my cousins on the 16th. that should be ok, i don’t know
what we’ll do though. and then i get back on the 19th and danny leaves on
the 19th for i think he said just a couple days but then he’ll be leaving
again so it’ll be like a whole week before i get to see or talk tohim really.
i’m so sad. people annoy me. roomies are assholes too. just so you know. i
can’t wait tell iget out of here. oh hey did i mention that i got accepter
to UNL. but i don’t know if i’ll go there, i would rather go to cali. ya know
i don’t get my PU’s over christmas they were like. if you want to go to an
out of state school you’ll have to start paying 60% of the tution, but they
they were like, but this is the time to get out of here if you want to. i
was like WTF? so your limiting where i can go, but you’re telling me that
this is “the time” to get out, cause “later i’ll have a family
and it will be hard to move” damnit, i sofucking want to tell them. but
i know that’ll really put a cap on my college payments, lol. i was talkig
to my mom on the phone the other night, it was just after i hung up from danny
and i was in a really good mood. and she’s like “why you so happy”
and i just wanted so bad to tell here “cause i just got off the phone
with someone i really love” but i can’t damnit. but you know i called
him the other day, so i’m going to have to come up with some explaination
for that. hmmm. wonder what i’ll do.