Afternoon Monday October 16, 2000. well today hasn’t been very good. finally
got our chem test back…got a “d” on it….damn. also failed my
last homework assingment. fuck this shit i hate chemistry. i’m going to go
in and talk to the pro tomorrow. i can’t beleive i got a “d” on
it i thought i did so good. o well. well i am finally caught up on my chem
assingments though that’s a good thing even though i probobly failed all of
them to. damn it i hate my life. well haven’t talked to danny yet today…that
sucks but he is normally on later in the evening so maybe i will still gat
a chance to talk to him. I’ve been looking at costs to fly out and see him
but it’s to damn expensie i would have to drive all the way to lincoln to
get the cheapest fares and that’s still $346.98 i can’t afford that at the
moment. well maybe some day i will get to see him..i still hanve’t got a pic
of him that makes me kinda pived. but i love him for who he is and not for
what he looks like..i think that brings a closer to each other…..even though
we are still thousands of miles apart. hmmm wonder when his spring break is.
maybe we could do a road trip and meet half way. i really need a job. i think
i need to take som eof that paxil stuff……i hate talkig to people……i
hate my life all together maybe i really am depressed. hmm I’m dignosing myself.
maybe i should go into psychology instead of computers…i like to help people.
well i thnk that is all for now.