may 4, #3. so i just got done watching the matrix. i love that movie. you
know that guy that plays neo, he’s so fucking cute, but he reminds me of julian
(i’d link a pic, but fateback appears to be down, and i don’t have one in
my collection, lol) alot, lol. (not to say anything about julians personal
apperance, lol). he also has one of my biggest turn on’s, lol. jet black hair
and dark eyes, mmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i love guys with those 😉
april 28, #2, what is it about movie stars that makes everyone want them,
and to lust after them? sometimes don’t you just wish you could walk up to
brad pitt and kiss him? lol
april 23, #2. so i guess todays been pretty weird. yeah. my roomie got back
to the room about 7:30 or so, and i left about 7:45 to go get my morning milk
and to sit in the tc and stuff. well i went there. got my milk and i paid
for it. went to put my card back in my pocket and knocked the milk all over
my jeans and the floor, it was gross, so i came back here, and the door was
standing wide open and the roomie wasn’t anywhere in sight. i closed the door
and changed and checked my e-mail one more time before i left again. and while
i was doing that the room showed up again, and he was in his towel, so that
means he left the room door open while he was gone taking his shower, i mean
comon, think a bit, you’re gone for more then 10 minutes taking your shower
and you leave the room door standing wide open. so i left and went to class.
my prof didn’t show up, but some other guy did and he just came in and said,
here’s a movie to watch, and he put it in, and left. that was weird. it was
bout the fed. it was amusing so i stayed. then i came back to the room and
put my key in the door to unlock it, and it wouldn’t turn, so i was like WTF.
so i just turned the door knob and the door opened, and i was like OMG, that
twat left the door unlocked. and he had been gone for over an hour. cause
i saw him just for i left the tc to go to class. he’s so damn stupid. shoot
him, someone. please.
april 22, #3. so i just got done watching schidlers list, for like the third
time in the last week. ya know that movie always makes me cry. i don’t really
know why i’m writing this, but oh well.
t shopping and i got some shorts and such stuff. i got a new pair of
boots too, so i gotta start breaking them in for the summer. it’s going to
take a while to break these in cause they are leather, so they take longer.
today is also danny and i’s (that doesn’t sound right) 6 month anniversary,
i want to call him sooo fucking bad. so last night though i had a really funky
dream. i was sitting in my dorm room, and all of a sudden tyler walzer (yes
the one from hs). was outside my window, now to start, my window is on the
3rd floor. so well, tyler just started like talking to me, and flirting with
me and such. (incase you didn’t know i _had_ a crush on him in hs). well he
we just talked trough the screen for a while and stuff, and then well we kissed,
and it was just so totally messed up cause it was like, wtf. but yeah, that’s
all i remember about that. but ok back to today, so today’s sucked pretty
much, it’s been really boring. i got up round 10, cause when i originally
got up at 7 my pu’s were yelling at my brother, so i was like, umm, beter
let that pass before i get up. so i did, and then i got up and came down stairs
and everyone was outside so i went out back and looked, and the fucking pond
was empty, i mean totaly fucking empty and they were all standing around it
and i was like what happened, cause i mean this pond isn’t small and it would
take alot to get all the water out of it. and my mom said in thie really annoying
voice “sleeping beauty wants to know what happened” and then my dad in his
asshole voice said “andy went swimming” and that’s all they said, so i said,
well if no one’s going to answer me i’ll just go back to bed, so i turned
around and started to walk back to the house and they just fuckinng screamed
at me. and it was like WTF, i asked a smiple goddamn fucking question can’t
you give me a simple fucking answer? so then we needed to get some shit so
we could refill it, cause there’s like this stuff you have to put in the water
to get rid of the shit the city puts in, so i was like well i’ll go get it,
so i left for like 4 hours. that was ok. lol. but then i got back and my dad
was like you want to go see “spy-kids” and i was like no, i don’t want to
see that movie, so then he was like, well “Chris doesn’t want to go to the
moies” and i said, “no i don’t want to see _that_ movie” and he fucking blew
up at me about that. i just want to fucking scream at him. but i know that
if i scream at him, he screams back louder, and bad stuff happens. so yeah.
i just fucking let it go, so we watched hollow man on PPV, it was a sucky
movie, not at all what i expected so then he blamed me for picking out a bad
movie, and i was like wtf, i didn’t have any idea what it was, and you all
agreed to it, so shut the hell up. damnit. and boy tomorrows going to be a
whole shit load of fun too, i can just see it, arg. i really hate holidays
with my family. i want to be with danny this weekend, damnit, it’s our 6 month
anniversary, i want to call him so fucking bad. i really really do. damnit
this really annoys me too everytime they get up i have to stopp writing cause
i don’t want them to see this, and then by the time they get back to thier
chairs i forget what i was writing about. i don’t really know how i lived
through my hs years in this house, now even a weekend here makes me go crazy.
i relaly don’t know. but on other things i’ve been thinking about maybe setting
up a panel disscussion at DSU. maybe like the week before finals or something,
i could get scott (the diversity guy), julie (a lesbian teacher), me and jason
(an openly gay student). and we could do like a Q&A thing. i mean, i don’t
think it would really jeporidze (sp) us, and i mean doing it at the end of
the semester it would give people the summer to think it over, and since scott
and julie work there, and julie’s out and has been there in madison for a
while, i mean there’s really no harm done if things go bad. it could only
help to inform the hicks that go to school there. i know the answers would
have to be pretty carefully worded, but i think the four of us on a panel
could pull it off. i’m going to suggest it to jason and julie when we get
back from holiday. oh on another topic i was going through folders like i
alwas do when i get home and found that my brother had taken some stuff out
of the trash that i had forgotten to delete, namely rants that i wrote last
time i was home, where danny was mentioned a bit and some other stuff, so
i don’t know what they know or anything else, i mean they havn’t brought it
up yet, and they havn’t said anything about the phone bill, which is surprosing,
but oh well, as long as tey keep quite it makes my life easy. i’m going to
go take a shower now. laters.