well it’s oct 26 like 9 or so, i don’t know anymore what time
it is, I’ve been losing track of the dates and the time alot lately. i don’t
know what it is. well i dropped chem yesterday, that was a lot of fun, thank
god i’m out of that class. o but that means i have to take class where ever
i go next year, i hope danny and i keep up and end up somewhere close to each
other. i really love him, he’s so sweet. i forgot that halloween was coming
up wonder what i’ll do for it. hmmm. o well, i will probobly end up sitting
around on my lazy duff like any other day. hmmmm. damn people, they always
interupt me when i am trying to do my damn work. well i’ve been doing my schedules
for next semester and filling out college apps, yuck, god i want to get out
of here so fucking bad, i want out out i wan. ddamn it. this sucks so fucking
bad, everything is so damn easy. so damn easy, so far i am getting A’s in
evey class, except chem, but i dropped it. o well. well i hadn’t realized
it been so long since i last updated so i wll go back and recap a few things.
well i went to SF, after i talked to danny, i went to this club called jamz,
well i never made it in, i think i have social anxity, i drove around the
place for like a hour. but never actually made it in. i’m going to go see
my cousin on nov 9, we are going to go out then, i know it. i’m also thinking
of getting my ear pierced, probobly won’t but i’m thinking, i think too much.
that’s my problem, i need to be more spontaneous. well i had this feeling
that danny was ignoring me so i wrote him this big old long e-mail, i sent
it with out reading it again, not smart, he responded promptly the next morning,
i love him so much, i don’t know what had come over me when i worte that e-mail
it was really messed up, some how i went from talking about how i mised him
to the meaning of life and death, to religion, to him rating his sexual preference
on the kinsey scale.it was odd. i appoligized for it and send him a rose.
i really love him. well some one needs to get me some drugs, i’m so damn depressed
now, they say that by 2020 depression will be the number 2 killer. odd huh.
huh, when i started there was something else i wanted to babble about, but
i don’t remember it now, but that brings up another good point, my memory,
it’s been really bad lately, i can’t remember anything, i’m sleeping enough,
but it’s just that i can’t remember. i can’t remember crap. o well, i think
i have a really bad case of depreasion, my parents are starting to worry i
think. they called the other day. hey i don’t know if i babbled about this already or not, but i’m planning for next semester, american gov, econ, accounting,
bus aps, and some other thing but i forget it now. well i think that is enough
for now, cause i can’t remember what i was originally going to bitch about.
maybe i will remember by tomorrow.