April 30, 2001

april 30, #7 so after an hour and 4 minutes of my computer screen sitting

here looking like this. i finally

got up and talked to nathan, it was so great talking to him again. i really

wish i could tell him that i’m gay. i really do. i like him so much. he’s

such a great kid to. to bad his parents just don’t understand him, they feed

him full of drugs, anti-depressents, and other things. it’s really sad to

see what he was going through. here’s the text

of our conversation

April 30, 2001

april 30, #6. so you remember a while back i had that little like thing about

nathan from scouts, yeah, well he hadn’t been on ever since i added him to

my buddy list and such, his parents had been, but his name never was. well

today, he’s on. i want to talk to him, but i don’t know, i’m kinda scared

to talk to him, and approch him again, it’s been like a year and a half since

we last talked now, i want to talk to him, but i just can’t bring myself to

talk to him. help, damnit.

April 30, 2001

april 30, #5. grrr, i really hate when they intrupt tv shows to say, oh we

have a thunderstorm, it’s just a damn thunderstorm, who cares, it’s not going

to kill anyone, if there’s a tornado or something, then you can inturupt,

but around here they intruupt if it’s just raining. on a different topic my

aunt sent me this: "That black and white thing gets

to my old eys after a couple days. A rather odd choice for someone who’s life

is not so black and white????" ya know i’d never really thought

about it that way. hmm, maybe i’ll have to think of a different color choice.

we’ll wait tell school out though before i change anything again, well maybe,

lol. i like suckers. tootsie pops are really good. i bought two packages of

them, and i only got two orange ones though, that’s sad, i really like the

orange ones. there was something else when i started writing this, but i’m

not remembering it now. oh well.

April 30, 2001

april 30, #3. so i was uninstalling a bunch of stuff off my computer today,

and Win2k has this thing that tells you if you’ve used the program, Frequently,

Rarley, or Occasionally. well it said that i used AIM rarely, which is incorrect

cause it’s up all the time that my computer is on, and it says i use MSN frequently

which is again wrong cause i use jabber, and it said that i used office frequently

which is wrong cause i _never_ use office i always use Abiword, and for abiword

it said i used it rarely, does anyone here see a pattern?

april 30, #4. i like this guys hair, i need to

get my hair cut, lol.