Dec 15. well i thought there for a second i had missed a day
but i guess not, today was the last day of CLASSES, YEAH. i’m talking to danny
now, hehe, were talking bout relationships i guess, i don’t really know. lol.
but yeah all went well today i guess, i went through 10 hours of playlist
today, hehe. yeah i’m tierd so FUCK This update, nighty night.
Dec 14. my god i’m keeping this updated quite well i’m happy
for myself, hehe. well hey todays been pretty cool. i got a job offer to work
at out of council camps, but the best part is that one of the councils is
the cradle of liberity council in philly. that would be soo cool. but yeah
i don;t know if i want to do that though, it would be kinda odd working out
there at a scout camp i think, but it would be fun, i’be been wanting to work
out of council this summer. huh. i don’t know what i’ll do, well see what
the info they send me says. but yeah other then that today has been pretty
boring like normal. yeah. all that shit. nothings going on rounf here, i need
to go get a job for next semester too yeah. well i’m done for now. i yeah,
quite hours are 24/7 over finals week that’s going to suck.
Dec 13. Wed, ha;lf way trough the week. ahhhhh, finals are next
week, i don’t like that. i’m really not looking forward to going home for
the holidays. really not looking forward to it at all. i want to go out to
philly and spend the time with danny, hehe. but i’ll have to go home, family
annoys me at times. o well. kim called me today, really freaked me out. hehe,
it was funny. well i’ll done with course work, all i have mleft now is finals.
finals, finals. ARG. i only have one week left here, this semester, then i’m
home for 18 days, i don’t know if i can stand 18 days at home, i really don’t
think i can. i don’t know what i’m going to do this summer when i’m home the
WHOLE bloody summer. o well. I’m going to miss everyone sooooo much over christmas,
specially danny. really going to miss danny. i love him. telephones are annyoing.
they really are. o well i don’t really have much to bitch about today, so
i’m just going to go off and wonder round, there’s really nothing to wonder
round for here, but i’ll go do something i guess, lol. bubye
Dec 12 hehe, i’m doing this way to early, but o well. todays
been kinda a downer day. i haven’t gotten much done really, went to math,
that was fucking boring like normal so i won’t go into that. then i went to
programming an hour early and sat in that room and got all my notecards made
out for tomorrow, but now i just have to figure out how i’m going to say shit,
i have it all, i just need the order of it all. know what i mean. haven’t
seen or heard from danny since late sat night, i hope he’s alright, he made
some snyde (i think that’s the word) comment on sat night, i was watching
the fight on HBO, and i was like i don’t get how they score this. and he told
me, then i was like well you’ll just have to come explain this shit to me
more some time, and then he said “yeah the jock, is that what you’re
saying about me, that i’m a jock.” and then i was like “why you
say that” and then he said nothing i was just tugging your leg, but then
the next thing he said was, not going near that. so what’s he mean by all
this. he meant something, but he won’t tell me. damnit i love him. i want
to know what he’s thinking. why did he say that. fuck. i’ve been really sad
lately. i really don’t want to go “home” for the holidays, i just
want to go out and be on my own. i don’t want to face my family again, not
after all that shit at t-day. I’m really not looking forward to the holidays.
o yeah, i’ve been thinking alot lately about what i want to do with my life.
I’ve decided that if i end up with a nice guy, like a really long term thing,
i want kids. matt’s really helped me decide that lately. he’s so cute. lol.I’ve
also been thinking about my choise in careers. i think i might seriously think
about going into teaching, i think i would like that more then the private
sector of computers, but you know there’s always that mone problem. maybe
i can get a really good summer job or something. yeah. i don’t know, but o
pseaking of summer jobs, i’m thinking about going out of council for summer
work this year, that way i can be alittle bit of my self, but i would still
have to hide the REAL me. you know what i mean. but i know if i worked here
in council i would have to go as far as taking my ear ring out,cause the freaks
here are really homophobic. but some of the councils that i’m looking at like
The Cradle of Liberty they aren’t as stuck up about it. and that would be
cool to cause they have the FIRST every BSA camp out there and i’d also be closer to danny, only like an hour or so. that would be REALLY cool. but i
probobly won’t go out there, i’ll end up working at shitty ass Kum & Go
again or something knowing me. I HATE KUM & GO. wow i really wasn’t planning
on babbling this much. so i’ll go now, maybe i’ll write more later.
Dec 11. yeah it’s like noon or there about, it’s BLOODY FUCKING
COLD. damn it. last night we got about 4 inches of snow and it’s still snowing.
and the high today is supposed to be -2 or something and they are saying windchills
from -30 to -70 for the next week, o joy. sounds like fun damn it. i want
out of here. haven’t talked to danny yet again since sat. hope he’ alright,
i’ve sent him two e-mails now. hope he’s on tonight after my meeting so i
can talk to him. i really love him, incase you hadn’t noticed. i should be
working on those damn speeches but i don’t want to. i’ve just got total writers
block, i came up with some pretty damn good intros and stuf last night while
i was in bed, but they were just way to reveiling of me. listeing to Oaisis,
Champane SuperNova, it’s a good song, it’s been years since i last heard it
and then the other day i was on napster and suddenly had an urge to hear it
so i want and got it. hehe. it’s a good song. well i think i’m going to go
off and do something now, i don’t know what, i think maybe i’ll just go galavant
around the internet. i should be writing papers. well it’s now 6:30 and danny
still hasn’t been on. I’m sad. i miss him so much. i hope i didn’t say anything
that offened him. i don’t think i did. i miss him. that’s all i have to say,
i’m going to go pout now, i miss him so much. I love danny.