Cars hate me.

Last night was horrible. Well, most of the night was alright. But about 1am or so it turned horrible. Last night was the Hy-Vee christmas party. Adam and I went, we had a good time. Everyone thought I was pissed though when I really wasn’t. They said that because I was just standing there not talking, they all thought that I as pissed, but you see. When there’s blaring music and I can’t hear shit, and I’m not really going to say much, you know what I mean. Oh well. The party was tons of fun, we saw lots of drunken people make fools of themselves, it was good.

After the party was over, we all left to go to Java Joe’s. We went there, but they were getting ready to get close, so we all decided to go to Baker’s Square. so we were driving, I was following Mandy, blah blah blah. I hit her, it was bad.

I love Adam

Adam sent me this e-mail:

Chris,
It’s about midnight and you’ve just dropped me off and I’m thinking
all these things I’d like to tell you.
I want to tell you how happy I am. I’m so happy that we’re together.
So happy that you’re happy! Just to be around you and have that closeness
that I could never share with anyone else means so much to me. Tonight I had
soooo much fun! And our first actual dance meant a lot to me. Even though it
wasn’t really that big of a deal, it still was very special to me. As is each
minute I spend with you. I love you. I love just being in your arms or having
you in mine. Simple things like that are the best life has to offer, and I’m
glad I have someone like you to spend it with. I love you Chris…and don’t
ever forget that!
Love, Adam

And that means so much to me. You have no idea. I love him so much, and I know that he loves me. I can’t put anything into words right, now. I’m just to busy crying.

Dance, Dance, Dance

Well, I just got back from the GLRC dance. It was a ton of fun and there were alot of people there. Well not like tons, but enough to make it fun. Yeah good times there. However, there was this one really creapy guy, he like dumped his “date” (a guy he had never met before today) and was like hitting on everyone and trying to get everone to hook him up with someone else. It was nasty. But yeah. Really good times.

Today at work it took me four hours to draw two yellow arrows on this picture. I’m not going to tell the whole story cause well I tried telling it to someone earlier today and kept getting cut off and was never allowed to finish it, so I won’t bore you all with the story. But yeah, four fucking hours when I could have had it done in like 2 minutes. Oh well.

Other then that, it’s been a long fucking day, and now I’m going to go and try and get rsync working. Yet again. Fucking software.

Back to the grind, kind of

Well, I’m back at work. Not much to reall do though, cause well, we’ve been gone so long, but I have found some interesting things today…

First I was logging into an old machine here at Krell and I got this message…

This is a U.S. Federal Government computer system (unclassified
information only). This system is for the use of authorized users
only. Unauthorized access is prohibited and makes you liable to civil
and criminal penalties. Individuals using this computer system without
authority, or in excess of their authority, are subject to having all
of their activities monitored and recorded by system personnel. In the
course of monitoring individuals improperly using this system, or in
the course of system maintenance, the activities of authorized users
may also be monitored. Anyone using this system expressly consents to
such monitoring and is advised that if such monitoring reveals possible
evidence of criminal activity, system personnel may provide the
evidence of such monitoring to law enforcement officials.

I was amused. But also while I was on that system, I found the first High School website in Iowa… Of course it was NP’s. And guess what. It’s still on-line, in complete working order…

http://www.krellinst.org/AiS_abs/northpolk/Home.html

If you want to browse it when you click on the link you’ll notice it changes too:
http://www.krellinst.org/AiS_abs/northpolk/AiS_abs/northpolk/Pages/AboutNP.html
And you get an error message you just simply have to delete one of these “/AiS_abs/northpolk” out of the URL so that it looks like this:
http://www.krellinst.org/AiS_abs/northpolk/Pages/AboutNP.html
And it’ll work.

Ok. I must go back to work now. Laters all.

Reflections of the Year

Well, it’s the new year. Happy New Year everyone. Alot has happened over the last year. So many firsts. Coming out to my Parents, my first boy friend, my first break-up, the first time in forever that I haven’t been associated with the Boy Scouts, my first love, my first kiss, and losing my virginity. There’s just so many things that happened this year and looking over my past entries I remember how much fun we all had this summer, and over the last year. I see how much I’ve changed in the last year, and how much my feelings for the world have changed. I’m a much happier person now then I was one year ago. I’m so much farther along then I ever thought I would. One year ago from now, I never knew if I’d be alive for the next day, now I’m planning years in advance, moving to Arizona, Graduating from college. There’s so much that I want to do.

This New Years was indeed one that was special to me. This New Years I got to spend with my friends and the person that I love. We were all with the person that we love and it was just so great to hang out with everyone and have a stress free, enjoyable night.

Ok, going back to right after the last update. Sunday night I went over to Adam’s house, and worked on his computer. Things didn’t work out the way that I wanted them to, so we just said fuck it and wwe came back over here to my house. It was good times. He spent the night to which was just great cause I love sleeping with him, it’s like the best thing in the world to have the person you love so close to you. And he’s just so cute when he’s sleeping. Monday we got up about 12ish and cleaned up the house a little more. Then we went out to do some errands and such. Then we came back here about 5:30ish cause people were supposed to start showing up about 6ish or so. So we waited and waited. Finally Julian and Dean showed up and we hung around and talked to them. It was good times. Finally about 10ish everyone had arrived and the party started. It was a realy good time. We all just hung around and talked and watched movies. At midnight we all kissed our bf’s/gf’s and it was realy cool. This was the first New Years I’ve ever had someone to kiss at midnight. It was just great. About 1 everyone started dispirsing and such, Julian and Dean were the only ones that spent the night. Adam and I got to sleep together two nights in a row, it was really nice. I just can’t explain how great it is to be able to do that. It’s so great to me. Then today Adam and I got up about 1 and Julian and Dean had already left. So we left and went and hung out the rest of the day. There were a few minor tifts though, we had a small argument which was really stupid and I admit that I was wrong, and felt really bad once Adam pointed out that I had done that. Then like right after that happened he got into it with his parents and it was just bad times. So we left and went to the mall and Adam just vented to me on the way there. It was good for him to get it out though.

He goes back to school tomorrow, that’s really sad, I don’t want him to go back. I want to be able to spend the rest of break with him, and just to hang out all day every day. But real life gets in the way of what we want to do.

I got my grades, I did better then I was expecting, but not as good as I was hoping. Oh well. At least I passed all my classed and that’s all I was going for.