Christmas #2

Well, two Christmas’ down, only two more left to go. Today was actually pretty good for being around a bunch of old, annoying, farmers. I just kinda sat downstairs and watched people play pool. It was alright. I got an alarm clock today, which is good cause I’ve been needing one and I’ve just been to lazy to buy myself one. Steve was there too. I know this sounds bad, but he is really hot.

Other then that not much else going on yet today. Adam and I talked a bit and we were able to get a ew hours together tonight. Hopefully his mom won’t stay and talk for hours on end, cause if she does that then we won’t get those few hours together. So yeah, it’s all on her now. lol

La la la. I’m off to spend some money that I don’t have cause I need a real modem for my machine and not one of these stupid ass WinModems.

Christmas #1

Gwar. I hate my family. I went to bed late last night, thinking that I’d be able to sleep in this morning. Boy, was I wrong there. My mother came into my room about 10:30 and said, “Get up, it’s time to leave.” Of course not knowing that we were going anywhere today I said, “Leave to go where?” She informed me that we were leaving to go to Adel for my GG’s Christmas party. One that I hate going to cause it’s the bitchy side of the family. . . Pam and Janell and a few others all in one room. Errr. So yeah. I was pissy about that the whole time. I don’t even know why we go. But whatever.

So I was supposed to meet Adam at 3, he called me at 3 and I said that we’d be home about 5ish. So I told him I’d call him when we got home. Well we got home and just as I was picking up the phone to call him, my cell phone rings, it’s him. He’s like, “I’m going to Gateway now, so I’ll call you when I get back.” I told him that we had just walked in the door and before I had a chance to think we said bye and hung up, less then five minutes later, I was like, why doesn’t he just wait at his house and we can both go down there together. So I called his Cell phone, but he didn’t answer, now that means I’ll be stuck here tell about 6ish now with the fucking family that I’m about ready to fucking KILL. I’m sad and mad at Adam, but I know I shouldn’t be, so I’m madder at my self for being mad at Adam, but it’s all just a visious circle.

My dad always takes tons of chips to family gathering, I don’t know why. No one in our family eats chips, and no one ever wants to take them home. So it’s stupid to begin with. Well today, he did it again, but when we got there, my mom opened up a few bags for people to eat while they were there. Then when we were leaving, no one wanting to take them home, they ended up back in our car. So my dad felt the need to yell and scream about that, “Why the fuck did you open them there, and why’d you bring them back home.” Well first of all, we were going to leave them there, but someone called Andy back into the house and gave him the box of chips back. Second, opening them there was a good idea cause that way he at least got rid of some of them. Well he didn’t feel the need to bitch about it just on the way home, but also when we got him he felt a need to bitch about it even more. The ass hole, you know if he and my brother would just run off the road and die sometime. I don’t think anyone in the family would miss them.

That’s another thing though about today, my brother. He kept babbling about shit that people weren’t even talking about, and things that he shouldn’t be saying. He seems to think that he has an Girl friend, but you know what. He’s just a dumbass. Rarr again at him, and my dad. And a smaller rarr at Adam right now.

I want to be out of here. I want Christmas to be over. I want them to all go away damnit. Make them go away.

Dec? Thunderstorms?

Ok, this ir like freaking me out. It’s like a couple days from Christmas and it’s fucking thundering and lightening out. Freaky wierd. But at least it’s not snow. . . Yet.

Today and tonight’s been really good. I spent all morning and afternoon just wandering around Adam’s house and we talked and cleaned, it was fun. Then tonight I went out with Julian it was good times. I put a shit laod of miles on my car though. But still good times.

It appears that Mandy and Jessica have turned up missing. It’s odd. I don’t really care enough to go into the story here, but yeah. I’m kinda worried as to where they are. They shall return I’m sure.

I’m fucking tired so I’m going to bed.

I can’t wait tell Christmas. I’ll get my XY’s with the HOT GUYS in it!!!!!

Finals and bed time

Dec 21,

The next person that pisses me off is going to get a fist in thier face, damnit. I got up this morning at 6:00 I got ready and was on my way to ISU by 6:30. I got there, walked all the bolldy fuckig way across campus, freezing my arse off. The teacher bitch got there and started explaining the test. The first thing she said was “_if_ you get doe before 9:30.” And everyone was like. HOLY SHIT. She handed out the test and it was 35 fallicies that we had to identify and then explain. Crazy bitch. It only took me about an hour to finish and I was the first one done. When I handed in my test she gave me back my final paper, which accounts for 50% of our grade. I took it and since it was 8 pages I just took it and read it as I went off to go back to my car. As I was walking I was reading the comments she had written on my paper. Some of them just really pissed me off. Like some things that I had taken into the Writing Center and asked them about, she said was wrong. It’s like “Hello, another ENGLISH professor at this college has checked this paper over and siad that it was good.” So yeah. I got to the last page and saw my grade. A FUCKING D-. I was so pissed I was about ready to run all the way across campus and scream at her. I was so pissed off. She said, that I didn’t answer all her questions. I did answer all her questions I just didn’t answer all the questions the way that she wanted them answered, I answered them the way that I thought they should be answered. That’s what the paper was about. Damnit, just because I have a different opinion then her, she gave me a bad grade.

The last couple days have been really stressfull. Lets see. I guess the only thing that’s really worth metioning is that Mandy moved out of her house. That was a really big surprise. Adam and I got the phone call while we were at the mall. We were like HOLY SHIT! I couldn’t beleive that she was doing that. But I can understand why she did. It’ll be good for her. Yep

Other things that have been happening are really stressful as well. Angel’s return hasn’t been as great as we had hoped, things for new years aren’t looking to good, my PU’s are annoying the hell out of me and I swear that my brother will give me a stroke before I go back to school. Things for the most part aren’t good. But there are some things that are working out better then anyone could have imagined.

Everynight I lay in bed thinking about things, wether it be a poem, or something that’s happened that day or the day before. Maybe I’m thinking up a new story, or something. Which by the way I need to start writing these things down, when I’m in bed they sound really good. Last night I spent the night thinking about things that were going to happen today. I took one conversation that might happen, and thought out every possible reaction that the other person might have, every possible scenario that might come about. But this morning, having that converstaion doesn’t seem as important to have right now. That person is who they are, and there’s really nothing that we can change about that. We have to accept that people change over time, and sometimes it’s not in a way that we want them to change. We sent Angel off to Greensville, South Carolina; But Greensville sent Angela back to us. Either we need to adjust to her, or she needs to understand what were saying.

Finals and shit

Well here I am sitting at home. I’ve finished all my finals but one, English. I think I did ok on most of them. We’ll see I guess. I might just get my wish to be closer to Adam next semester. lol

I went and saw Adam at work tonight. He didn’t seem to happy to be checking again. I feel bad for him. But at least he’s away from the evil Nina. We’ll see how things go upfront. I also went and spent my Book return money. All $85 of it. I got a new 10/100 Ethernet Card and SuSe 7.3. I was happy.

So now I’m backing up my computer, waiting for MP3’s to copy. All 15 gig’s of them. What I have a problem with though is how am I going to copy them back to my Linux box once I get them on my 98 box. Hmm. I’m thinking FTP, but I’m not sure. I was going to do an NFS share, but my 98 box isn’t an NT or 2k box, so that won’t work. If I knew how SAMBA worked I might try that. But alas. I don’t know how it works. So there 😛 Anyone else have any ideas? Post them below (I think comments are working).

Well this post sucks. Night all.

Make greymatter love me someone.